Hardships

I’m a beginner into these arts and since I’m more comfortable with feminine nature, I’ve made a pact with Lilith on December 9 to send one of her daughters to aid me. I’ve been trying to feel or hear her. But my spiritual touching and hearing senses have not yet developed properly. I don’t know what to do. I’m simply trying to feel it. Looks like it doesn’t work that way. Any help?