Today is my birthday exactly at 3:33am.
I woke up 10 min before it ! Yeaah
Today is a Day that I should take care of me and stop thinking about my derealization.
I thank the universe that I’m still alive, that my desire to be dead diseapered. I thank the universe that I was born with being able to see beauty all arround me and for my great childish imagination.
I thank the universe, but maybe more Lucifer! My brain scan date finally arrived yesterday ! I’m now waiting for result.
I want also to thank and felicite myself. Good job me, world is hard, life is a bitch and you are still here doing your best. Look at you ! You even get a job. 1 year before you still sayed that it’s impossible. Maybe the sewing création you do dont make you proud, but dont abbandon ! Everyone start somewhere.
Today I will take a bath, because I like it even if I dont stay long x) I will take magick mushroom for a gift to me, because it maked me feel so grounded and connected after 10month of derealization…
I will also do a tarot reading, because why not :p.
Birthwish: Soon I want to go live in nature… Exiting the society, living on my own with my garden and killing my food…