Guide me on not to be lazy

I do that too. I just got to a place in my life where I got so sick of myself that I just had to force action.

Good luck with everything!

Spot on.

I was desperately seeking the motivation to do what I needed to do, both in my everyday life and spiritually, and I realized that it might never come (because of depression/anxiety) so I had to just force myself to do it.

My life improved a lot.