I’m getting ready to start college at 38 years old, I’m pursuing a Bachelors in Business Operations Project Management, all in an effort to grow and prosper with the current company I work for and the obvious of making more money.
I dropped out of school half way through my senior year of high school, my counselor told me he never met anyone that hated school as much as I did. School bored me, very little of it was interesting to me. I had no where near enough credits to graduate so I said screw it and quit.
Now 20 years later I’m seeing the error of my ways and want to go get a degree. However, I have a hard time focusing and a hard time with retention of things I read/study.
I’ve never been officially diagnosed with ADD/ADHD but my old doctor told me I had it but never did anything about it. I’ve experimented with Adderal as I have a friend that is on it and when I was on it I was laser focused. That said I’d much rather approach my inattention and lack of retention from a more natural spiritual approach.
All said, I’m reaching out to see what all of you suggest. Should I just accept the “traditional” medications or is my wish to approach it from a spiritual angle a viable option.
Those that haven’t seen previous posts of mine, a little preface.
I’m a very new practioner of the left hand path, I first started with Bune and she was, and still is amazing and treating me well with money help. My second and work and the strongest pull I’ve ever felt to an entity, spirit, God, is Lucifer. My relationship with Lucifer, while new, is very Dad like, I believe because I asked him to be my spiritual father. I cannot yet hear or see Lucifer but he has done things that get my attention; eg. I asked Lucifer to help me break some bad habits and the other night like a defiant child I decided to involve myself in one of these bad habits, shortly I had a thermos slapped against the wall, I thought it was weird but carried on, second later the lid of the thermos was taken off and thrown on the floor, needless to say it got my attention, at least he didn’t throw it at me . So I got up, picked up the lid and was told to wash it. So I washed the lid and in a very dad like way I recieved the thought, “no, wash your daughters thermos!” I did as I was told, it had some curdled milk in it as my wife usually does the dishes and so I washed it and put it on the wrack to dry. After that I lit my candles and incense and opened Lucifers sigil and thanked him for intervening and distracting me from the bad habit.
Sorry for the long description of my workings thus far but wanted to be thorough.
Should I turn to my spiritual “Dad” Lucifer for help with my upcoming school venture or should I reach out to another entity/demon for educational help with focus and retention of what I learn and keep my relationship with Lucifer on that fatherly level that I feel I get from him? I can’t wait till I can hear him, he gives me great visions both sleeping and awake and I’m very grateful, I thank him often. I love you Lucifer, Hail Lucifer!