I apologize in advance for what might be simple for others but as an habitual overhinker, I am stuck.
In reference to the Demons of Magic book, there are a few quotes for which I would like clarity. “. . . bring to mind the thought of your result. . . allow your feelings about the result to arise . . let yourself feel pleasure at the result. . . it could be said that emotion is the most potent magickal substance that exists. . .”
With that said, if I want someone to experience unabating guilt for the direct and indirect harm caused to me, ire the above quotes telling me that I am to generate feelings of joy because my target is pained? Or am I to generate the feelings of what I want my target to feel? If this is the case, am I to include in the petition that the target feels nausea, loose bowels, a racing heart, jumbled, incoherent thoughts, constant shallow breathing, suicide ideation, disgust with self, etc. in order for the demon(s) to cause this in the target?
I guess I am asking: To force a target to feel or experience something, am I supposed to generate those intende feelings in myself for the demon to know what should happen or is it really only about how I feel after the target has been inundated with pain and negativity?
This is about racism that I have experienced at my place of work. I was called a racist name during my first month of employment and when I reported it, I was told that I was a very serious person and that the person who said it likes to joke around or the person was possibly flirting with me. Rules have been created that allegedly are for everyone but are really meant for me to prevent me from doing something because the new rule is always created the day after I have enquired about something. There is so much more to this but I just wanted to be clear that it is not about romace or love.