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The Pattern on the Trestleboard
This Is Truth About The Self
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All the Power that ever was or will be is here now.
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I am a center of expression for the Primal Will-to-Good which eternally creates and sustains the Universe.
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Through me its unfailing Wisdom takes form in thought and word.
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Filled with Understanding of its perfect law, I am guided, moment by moment, along the path of liberation.
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From the exhaustless riches of its Limitless Substance, I draw all things needful, both spiritual and material.
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I recognize the manifestation of the Undeviating Justice in all the circumstances of my life.
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In all things, great and small, I see the Beauty of the Divine Expression.
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Living from that Will, supported by its unfailing Wisdom and Understanding, mine is the Victorious Life.
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I look forward with confidence to the perfect realization of the Eternal Splendor of the Limitless Light.
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In thought and word and deed, I rest my life, from day to day, upon the sure Foundation of Eternal Being.
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The Kingdom of Spirit is embodied in my flesh.
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Wednesday (Mercury), Jul 14 2021
Dreams: None recalled
Physical Notes: Felt ill second day in a row, have done no rituals today.
Mental Notes:
Synchronicities: Looking for yellow today.
Tarot Readings: Tarot Contemplation : XI Justice - Libra - Balance
Shields: Trying all elemental shields, as well as QC/LIRP (Spirit)/QC
Wards:Trying all elemental shields, as well as QC/LIRP (Spirit)/QC
Grounding: Breathing, body awareness, minfulness meditation. Tree grounding will be done today.
Psychic Exercises:
Scans: got scanned by @Onion …
2h
Sacral, Heart, and 3rd eye seem a little dim. I tried only checking chakras and your energy body but I’m also seeing plants and life itself like an evolution clip in movies.
My heart felt this really big, stressful pressure while scanning you, also heard “blood pressure”.
The little bit of trouble with the third eye also seems to stem (or is quite related to) something caused by the root chakra, anxiety, feeling vulnerable, etc. This is affecting your mood, and therefore your heart too.
There’s a sense of dissociation here, not from the world but yourself.
Your energy isn’t too active or too inactive, “rampant” is the word that comes to mind. Very chaotic and not grounded properly.
For your energy body, it looks like there’s trouble with your upper arms, and thighs. Heavy weight, lifting too much? Either being overdone, or improperly.
Hearing breathing problems or hyperventilation because of anxiety. A little bit of brain fog.
Energy is moving in different directions and not in an ordered way it seems.
There’s need for balancing the lower chakras a bit more than upper.
That’s all I’m getting. It’s been some time since I scanned energy bodies, I hope this helped.
The Work
Visualizations - QC/LRP (Spirit invoking)/QC
Tarot work -
Servitors: Studying
Rituals:QC/LRP (Spirit invoking)/QC
Psychic Exercises:
Color balls today , to size or large orb. Fruits.
Sense Awareness Techniques:
For the duration of a week, take a walk and make a mental note of everything you see, not focusing on anything in particular. Do not attempt to analyze or make judgments; merely observe. Keep a journal of your observations. Take note of everything concerning this object. By color of day and associated planet and symbolism.
Preliminary Meditative Work
Daily Awareness Exercises:
Darkness Technique:
Before the commencement of any meditation, breathe deeply and rhythmically. Cover your eyes with the palms of your hands; overlapping the fingers of one hand with the other. You should experience total darkness.
Sense Awareness Techniques:
For the duration of a week, take a daily walk and make a mental note of everything you see, not focusing on anything in particular. Do not attempt to analyze or make judgments; merely observe. Keep a journal of your observations.
For the following week, take a daily walk and stop, deliberately focusing in on one particular object. Take note of everything concerning this object.
On the following week of daily walking, try to look for a single color each day.
On Sunday look for orange; Monday-blue, Tuesday- red, Wednesday yellow, Thursday-violet, Friday-green, Saturday-blue-violet (indigo).
For one week concentrate on the various sounds that are heard on the daily walk. Stop at certain times and close your eyes, so that the faculty of sight does not interfere with this exercise. Do not attempt to analyze or make judgments; merely take note.
For the following week, take a daily walk and stop, deliberately focusing in on one particular sound. Take note of everything concerning this sound.
For one week, take note of different tactile or touch sensations that you encounter during the course of a day. Stop at certain times and close your eyes, so that the faculty of sight does not interfere with this exercise.
For one week, take note of every taste that you encounter during the course of a day. Stop at certain times and close your eyes, so that the faculty of sight does not interfere with your sense of taste. For the following week, focus on one particular taste.
For one week, take note of every smell that you encounter. Stop at certain times and close your eyes, so that the faculty of sight does not interfere with your sense of smell. For the following week, focus on one particular smell.
Exercise:
It is vitally important that in the quest to exalt the health of the Spirit, the student does not neglect the health of the body. Physical well-being and endurance are essential to the magician who wishes to perform lengthy rituals as well as Astral work.
During this probationary period, the student should begin a regular discipline of exercise to maintain physical fitness. We leave the choice of exercise to the individual student; swimming, biking, jogging, martial arts, aerobics, yoga or some other. Israel Regardie recommended that the student perform certain exercisesthat are designed to raise both the physical and psychic vitality of the practitioner. They are taken from a small pamphlet by Peter Kelder called The Five Rites of Rejuvenation or The Eye of Revelation. These exercises can also be found in Donald Michael Kraig’s book Modern Magick (pages 222-229).
Whatever form of exercise is undertaken, the student should never overwork to the point of strain. If one is not used to exercise, begin slowly and gradually. If health concerns are an issue, consult a doctor before commencing any form
of physical exertion.
Visualization Exercise:
Spend a few moments of each day in this exercise. Begin with the eyes closed and
relax, breathing deeply and rhythmically. Then open your eyes and gaze into the palm of your left hand. Imagine a small yellow lump of a non-sticking substance formulating in your hand. It is somewhat clay-like and elastic in consistency. Cup your right hand over the other and press this yellow substance as if you were making a hamburger patty. Then begin to roll the substance between your hands as if you were making a meatball. When the image of the yellow ball of astral substance is very clear within your mind, place it somewhere near you. Repeat this technique three more times, forming next a red ball, a blue ball and finally a black ball.
When finished, place all four balls in a row. Visualize them strongly. Then concentrate on dissolving the balls one by one, starting with the black ball, followed by blue, red and finally yellow. See the area where the balls were-placed as totally clear of the astral substance.
NOT DONE
Object Sensing exercises -
Meditation - Astral Temple -
Meditation - Core Shamanism - Studying
Meditation - Breathing -
Meditation - Tree merging/grounding - NOT DONE
Meditation - The Point –
Meditation - Seven Day Mental Thought Control Challenge - MiniDump
Location - Home.
Environment: Bedroom
Posture:
Time: minutes.
Distractions:
Breathing: in silent out silent, 4 fold count.
NOT STARTED
Layered Spell: Studying
Grounding -
Evocations - STARTED
Enchantments: Studying
Egregore: Studying
Centering -
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Readings: BALG. My notes and journals.
Now thinking of fourteen journals:
Journals 1-7 Case Spiritual Unfoldment Stages
Journal 8 - Astrology
Journal 9 - Alchemy
Journal 10 - Qabalah
Journal 11 - Tarot
Journal 12 - BALG Magic
Journal 13 - Quareia Magic
Journal 14 - Hermetic Magic
So many tutorials and practice to do, and so little time.
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What can be done for free and in personal refuge with internet:
EMail friends and family, pet my kitty.
Exercise to the USMC Special Ops PE Requirements,
Watch Videos, movies, and listen to audiobooks.
Meditate, do yoga, and journal. Art. Drawing, painting.
Make lyrics and poems, and writing in general.
Do Pentadrams, Dodecagrams, Enneagrams, Octograms, Heptagrams, Hexagrams.
Rituals and exercises, invocation, evocation.
Divination, scrying, tarot meditation.
Reading the St Johns Great Books program, and writing commentaries and book reports in local paper opinions page.
Learning to program in python, and learn about encryption.
And crows caw outside my window.
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Still armchairing, but sang along with the bornless one once or twice more, then lisgtened to invocation of thoth and middle pillar ritual, with the thought of affecting all subtle bodies at once with the physical nervous system.
General Tarot Reading:
Greater Spiritual Influence: XXI The World - Cosmic Consciusness - Saturn/Earth
Lesser Spiritual Influence: X Wheel of Fortune - Karma/Reciprocity - Jupiter
Spiritual Advice: XVIII Moon - Organization - Pisces
Unconscious Desires: VI The Lovers - Superconsciousness - Gemini
Conscious Desires: I The Magician - House - Mercury
Practical Advice: VII The Chariot - Enclosure - Cancer
Final Outcome: IV The Emperor - Sight, Order, Structure - Aries
Top of Stack: V The Hierophant - Hearing - Taurus
Bottom: XV The Devil - Material Bondage - Capricorn
Invoked the Trinity, and Srt Michael, and asked that the babies be well, and continue to do so, and recevie and believe for them now. I ask for thr four archangels and King Paimon, King Gremory, King Bael, Orobas, Amon and Sitri to be with me for protection, guidance and wisdom. Gave thanks praise and glory and Amen.
Set it and forget it for a minute…
Regarding exercise leading up to taking on the challenege of the USMC Special Ops PE Requirements on their page, …
A couple days ago hiked cross town soaked in the rain just barely keeping my impoortant stuff dry in my soaked coat, and finally got sunlight and kitty treats, cookies and coffee, and got home, Yesterday had a healthy walk.
Today helped a neoghbor move heavy stuff, and did breathing visualization in the process. Did later with circulation in the physical and subtle bodies and an interconnection strengthened. Felt a jolt.
So, no pushups, pullups or situps til tonight, then will make exercise a morning and evening habit, along with adorations and invokings/banishings and middle pillar.
Taken a hit or two to the face or neck or back of head, and know how to fall and roll.
67 overseen by 72. Numerical value, reduction by 9 either way with hierophant overseer.
No yellow seen except for caution on a gate of a trash truck bay, a limon tip of a moving truck, and a school bus. A neighbors shirt. Movement, communication, commerce, power, thought. Mercury. Wednesday.
Visualized, in a straight line, as if diving upwards with eyes shut, a shaft of white light coming in, circulating right to laft, and black spewed out by left nostril as opposed to breathing in through the right nostril.visualized myself a beam of light and dropped my hands together after a fingertip mantra, dropped them and stopped.
Heard a crashing sound as if a lightning bolt or a truck bay door shutting.
Opened eyes.
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Ouch, the general reading hebrew translation of QKTh is Lesiglate…on the spiritual side, the practical side ChBZ is Sacrifice.
The final outcome is Heh, or God.
Invited Gremory to experience my shoes in the world and it is interesting.
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Yesterday did morning (sunrise) and evening (sunset) solar adorations. Have just completed morning Solar adoration (per Crowley).
Posting here for reference:
LIBER RESH VEL HELlOS
At Dawn, face East. Make the Sign of the Enterer and say:
Hail unto Thee whoart Rain Thy rising, Even unto Thee who art Ra in Thy strength,
Who travelest over the Heavens in Thy bark At the Uprising of the Sun.
Tahuti standeth in His splendor at the prow And Ra-Hoor abideth at the helm.
Hail unto Thee from the Abodes of Night!
Give the Sign of Silence and stamp the left foot on the ground.
At Noon, face South. Give the same gestures as before.
Hail unto Thee whoart Hathor in Thy triumphing, Even unto Thee who art Hathor in Thy beauty,
Who travelest over the Heavens in Thy bark At the mid-course of the Sun.
Tahuti standeth in His splendor at the prow And Ra-Hoor abideth at the helm.
Hail unto Thee from the Abodes of Morning!
Give the Sign of Silence.
At Sunset, face West.Give the same ritual gestures as before.
Hail unto Thee who art Tum in Thy setting, Even unto Thee who art Tum in Thy joy,
Who travelest over the Heavens in Thy bark At the down-going of the Sun.
Tahuti standeth in His splendor at the prow And Ra-Hoor abideth at the helm.
Hail unto Thee from the Abodes of Day!
Give the Sign of Silence.
At Midnight or when retiring, face North. Give the same gestures as before.
Hail unto Thee who art Khephera in Thy hiding, Even unto Thee who art Khephera in Thy silence,
Who travelest over the Heavens in Thy bark At the Midnight Hour of theSun.
Tahuti standeth in His splendor at the prow And Ra-Hoor abideth at the helm.
Hail unto Thee from the Abodes of Evening!
Give the Sign of Silence.
THE LESSER BANISHING RITUAL OF THE PENTAGRAM (LBRP)
Stand and face East. Perform the Qabalistic Cross.
Facing East, use the index finger of the right hand, a dagger, or the black end of the Outer Wand of Double Power to trace a large banishing pentagram of Earth.
Thrust the dagger/wand tip or index finger through the center of the pentagram and vibrate “YHVH.” (Yode-Heh-Vav-Heh), (Keep the right arm extended throughout; never let it drop. The pentagrams should be visualized in either a flaming blue or brilliant white Light.)
Turn to the South and trace the same pentagram there. Charge the figure as before, intoning “ADONA/” (Ahdoh-nye).
Turn to the West and trace the pentagram. Charge it with “EHEIEH” (Eh-hey-yay).
Turn to the North and draw the pentagram, intoning “AGLA” (Ah-gah-lah). Keep the arm extended.
Turn to face the East. Extend both arms out in the form of a cross and say, “Before me RAPHAEL” (Rah-fahy-el). Visualize before you the great Archangel of Air rising out of the clouds in flowing yellow and violet robes, carrying a Caduceus Wand.
Behind you visualize another figure and say “Behind me GABRIEL” (Gah-bree-el).
See the Archangel stepping out of the sea like the goddess Venus, dressed in robes
of blue and orange, with cup in hand.See to your right another figure in flaming red and green robes carrying a sword.
Say “On my righthand MICHAEL” (Mee-ehai-el). See another great Archangel at your left, who rises up from the vegetation of the Earth in robes of citrine, olive, russet, and black, holding stems of ripened wheat.
Say, “On my lefthandURfEL” (Ur-ee-el).
(Say:) “For about me flames the pentagram, and in the column shines the Six-rayed Star.”
Repeat the Qabalistic Cross.
Uses of the Pentagram Ritual
This simple yet powerful cleansing ritual can be used as a protection against the impure magnetism of others. It is also a way to rid oneself of obsessing or disturbing thoughts. Give a mental image to your particular thought or disturbance and visualize it before you. Project it out of your aura with the Saluting Sign of a Neophyte, and when it is away from you, prevent its return with the Sign of Silence. Then imagine the form in the East and perform the LBRP. See the form dissolving on the outside of your ring of flaming pentagrams.
The LBRP can be used as an exercise in concentration. While seated or lying down, formulate yourself standing up in robes and holding a dagger. Place your consciousness in this astral form and go to the East. Make yourself “feel” there by touching the wall, opening your eyes, stamping on the floor, etc. Let your astral form perform the ritual, circumambulating the room and mentally vibrating the words. Finish in the East and try to see your results astrally, then walk back and stand behind your physical body and let your astral body be re-absorbed. The LBRPis to be performed daily for no less than a period of six months.
In fact, it should be practiced daily regardless of one’s grade. The Golden Dawn manuscripts advocated doing the invoking form of this ritual in the morning and the banishing form at night. However we feel that the Neophyte needs to concentrate solely on the banishing form, since s/he has a tendency to light up on the astral and unknowingly attract all manner of Elementals at this early stage of the Work. It is far more important for the Neophyte to know how to banish rather than to invoke. Anyone can attract an Elemental or an energy. Getting rid of the same can be more difficult.
This, along with the LRP, is to be done daily with all diligence. Some salutary results may follow.
ADORATION TO THE LORD OFTHE UNIVERSE
Face East and say, “Holy art Thou, Lord of the Universe!” Give the Projection Sign.
Say, “Holy art Thou, whom Nature hath not formed!” Give the Projection Sign.
Say, “Holy art Thou, the Vast and the Mighty One!” Give the Projection Sign.
Say, “Lord of the Light, and of the Darkness!” Give the Sign of Silence.
(Note: This affirmation should be done daily.)
The Invocation of Thoth:
The Art of True Healing:
The Middle Pillar:
On Relaxation:
The Bornless Ritual:
On Concentration:
A Course in Miracles:
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And some entertainment on Blythe Road:
On Freemasonry:
And did noon Solar adoration. Time to go to the hospital and be seen for my bowel and lung issues. And did QC/LIRP(Water)/QC
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Did evening adoration after discharge from the hospital. They could find nothing wrong. I kept meditating on the names Raphael Michael and Marbas while waiting in triage. Apparently I had a virus but is now going away. Thanks to the forces responsible for my good health.
Plenty of blue (Thursday, Jupiter) in the hospital including nurse clothing. Ambulances also hsad blue. Saw a blue tarp underneath someones topsoil. Did a spot on tarot reading in the hospital waiting for my room. I might still get fired tomorrow, but will call on help for that tonight.
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Feb '20
Just putting this out there but for everyone who has doubt in their life maybe you don’t have friends, maybe your sick, maybe your life is just terrible but you do have a reason to do magick, IDGAF what the reasons are for your downfalls in life. Every great magican is a lifelong student of the Art, because he/she is constantly asking what is wrong with the/Their world do you see where im going with this?
your debt. (money spell)
your enemies. (Bind or curse)
your job. (Spirit for Promotion)
your money
your significant other ( or lack thereof)…(Beauty Spell, or Glamour)
if you have any downfall or shortcoming you have a reason to do magick.
Start a list
search the forum for what your looking for
if you can’t find it create a topic and ask
YOU CAN DO THIS!! Everyone has a reason for magick and the Powers beyond this world are waiting for a conversation with you
KING OUT!
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I too could use some of that mojo.
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Agreed. Everyone says that “You can change your own reality” and that you’re in control of what happens, I used to just read it and move ahead. But the moment you truly understand what it means hits different.
C.Kendall in the first section of his Baneful Magick course says,“Humans have power which quite honestly, shouldn’t exist in the first place” or something like that. You can do anything with magick. I mean, yes you need to work for it to come through but the changes you can bring with magick is something that can’t be put down in words💪
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Listening to trance shamanic drumming and reading Beginning Luciferian Witchcraft (Michael W Ford).
Ascension may be realized through the magickal components of Will, Desire and Belief which make more sense when arranged sequentially:
Desire. The identification of wants or needs and the decision to act.
Belief. Inner reinforcement to propel one to obtain the Desire.
Will. Movement and active focus - real energy - expended to achieve Desire.
So, based off this and VoodooKings advice, and advice of others, I have a list of things that need changing.
A better job that pays more, 4x rent minimum.
Dissolving of all debt in my name.
A better housing situation, where I can proudly grow and smoke my own herbs.
Ive thought a few times of starting my own hosting company, for simple apache pages.
I would then need free hardware, cable and servers. As well as an internet feed.
To be a competent magician.
To be open to love and actively showing and feeling and being love for others.
To have no strife with others.
My drivers license and a car.
Friday (Venus), Jul 16 2021
Dreams: None recalled
Physical Notes: Felt ill fifth day in a row. Feeling much better however. Went to hospital, they did urinalysis, metabolic blood panel, triage stuff, felt my glands (tonsils) and pancreas, found no issues. Wrote it off as a viral sickness.
Mental Notes: Yay, finally got paid half my rent.
Synchronicities: Looking for green today. Need to use creative power. Need to do magic. Need to continue on shamanism.
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The Work
Tarot Readings: Tarot Contemplation : III (Empress, Venus, Creative Power).
Shields: Studying
Wards: Studying
Grounding: Studying
Psychic Exercises: Tried scanning. Still not great at it.
Scans: None today.
Per @Onion
“Sacral, Heart, and 3rd eye seem a little dim. I tried only checking chakras and your energy body but I’m also seeing plants and life itself like an evolution clip in movies.
My heart felt this really big, stressful pressure while scanning you, also heard “blood pressure”.
The little bit of trouble with the third eye also seems to stem (or is quite related to) something caused by the root chakra, anxiety, feeling vulnerable, etc. This is affecting your mood, and therefore your heart too.
There’s a sense of dissociation here, not from the world but yourself.
Your energy isn’t too active or too inactive, “rampant” is the word that comes to mind. Very chaotic and not grounded properly.
For your energy body, it looks like there’s trouble with your upper arms, and thighs. Heavy weight, lifting too much? Either being overdone, or improperly.
Hearing breathing problems or hyperventilation because of anxiety. A little bit of brain fog.
Energy is moving in different directions and not in an ordered way it seems.
There’s need for balancing the lower chakras a bit more than upper.
That’s all I’m getting. It’s been some time since I scanned energy bodies, I hope this helped.”
Visualizations - QC/LRP (Earth invoking)/QC
Tarot work -
Servitors: Studying
Rituals:QC/LRP (Fire invoking)/QC
Psychic Exercises: Color balls today , to size or large orb. Fruits.
Sense Awareness Techniques:
For the duration of a week, take a walk and make a mental note of everything you see, not focusing on anything in particular. Do not attempt to analyze or make judgments; merely observe. Keep a journal of your observations. Take note of everything concerning this object. By color of day and associated planet and symbolism.
Preliminary Meditative Work
Daily Awareness Exercises:
Darkness Technique:
Before the commencement of any meditation, breathe deeply and rhythmically. Cover your eyes with the palms of your hands; overlapping the fingers of one hand with the other. You should experience total darkness.
Sense Awareness Techniques:
For the duration of a week, take a daily walk and make a mental note of everything you see, not focusing on anything in particular. Do not attempt to analyze or make judgments; merely observe. Keep a journal of your observations.
For the following week, take a daily walk and stop, deliberately focusing in on one particular object. Take note of everything concerning this object.
On the following week of daily walking, try to look for a single color each day.
On Sunday look for orange; Monday-blue, Tuesday- red, Wednesday yellow, Thursday-violet, Friday-green, Saturday-blue-violet (indigo).
For one week concentrate on the various sounds that are heard on the daily walk. Stop at certain times and close your eyes, so that the faculty of sight does not interfere with this exercise. Do not attempt to analyze or make judgments; merely take note.
For the following week, take a daily walk and stop, deliberately focusing in on one particular sound. Take note of everything concerning this sound.
For one week, take note of different tactile or touch sensations that you encounter during the course of a day. Stop at certain times and close your eyes, so that the faculty of sight does not interfere with this exercise.
For one week, take note of every taste that you encounter during the course of a day. Stop at certain times and close your eyes, so that the faculty of sight does not interfere with your sense of taste. For the following week, focus on one particular taste.
For one week, take note of every smell that you encounter. Stop at certain times and close your eyes, so that the faculty of sight does not interfere with your sense of smell. For the following week, focus on one particular smell.
Exercise:
It is vitally important that in the quest to exalt the health of the Spirit, the student does not neglect the health of the body. Physical well-being and endurance are essential to the magician who wishes to perform lengthy rituals as well as Astral work.
During this probationary period, the student should begin a regular discipline of exercise to maintain physical fitness. We leave the choice of exercise to the individual student; swimming, biking, jogging, martial arts, aerobics, yoga or some other. Israel Regardie recommended that the student perform certain exercisesthat are designed to raise both the physical and psychic vitality of the practitioner. They are taken from a small pamphlet by Peter Kelder called The Five Rites of Rejuvenation or The Eye of Revelation. These exercises can also be found in Donald Michael Kraig’s book Modern Magick (pages 222-229).
Whatever form of exercise is undertaken, the student should never overwork to the point of strain. If one is not used to exercise, begin slowly and gradually. If health concerns are an issue, consult a doctor before commencing any form
of physical exertion.
Visualization Exercise:
Spend a few moments of each day in this exercise. Begin with the eyes closed and
relax, breathing deeply and rhythmically. Then open your eyes and gaze into the palm of your left hand. Imagine a small yellow lump of a non-sticking substance formulating in your hand. It is somewhat clay-like and elastic in consistency. Cup your right hand over the other and press this yellow substance as if you were making a hamburger patty. Then begin to roll the substance between your hands as if you were making a meatball. When the image of the yellow ball of astral substance is very clear within your mind, place it somewhere near you. Repeat this technique three more times, forming next a red ball, a blue ball and finally a black ball.
When finished, place all four balls in a row. Visualize them strongly. Then concentrate on dissolving the balls one by one, starting with the black ball, followed by blue, red and finally yellow. See the area where the balls were-placed as totally clear of the astral substance.
NOT DONE
Object Sensing exercises -
Meditation - Astral Temple -
Meditation - Core Shamanism - Studying
Meditation - Breathing -
Meditation - Tree merging/grounding - NOT DONE
Meditation - The Point –
Meditation - Seven Day Mental Thought Control Challenge - MiniDump
Location - Home.
Environment: Bedroom
Posture:
Time: minutes.
Distractions:
Breathing: in silent out silent, 4 fold count.
NOT STARTED
Layered Spell: Studying
Evocations -
Enchantments: Studying
Egregore: Studying
Centering -
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Readings: BALG. My notes and journals.
Now thinking of fourteen journals:
Journals 1-7 Case Spiritual Unfoldment Stages
Journal 8 - Astrology
Journal 9 - Alchemy
Journal 10 - Qabalah
Journal 11 - Tarot
Journal 12 - BALG Magic
Journal 13 - Quareia Magic
Journal 14 - Hermetic Magic
So many tutorials and practice to do, and so little time.
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What can be done for free and in personal refuge with internet:
EMail friends and family, pet my kitty.
Exercise to the USMC Special Ops PE Requirements,
Watch Videos, movies, and listen to audiobooks.
Meditate, do yoga, and journal. Art. Drawing, painting.
Make lyrics and poems, and writing in general.
Do Pentadrams, Dodecagrams, Enneagrams, Octograms, Heptagrams, Hexagrams.
Rituals and exercises, invocation, evocation.
Divination, scrying, tarot meditation.
Reading the St Johns Great Books program, and writing commentaries and book reports in local paper opinions page.
Learning to program in python, and learn about encryption.
And crows caw outside my window.
Solar Adorations: Doing Liber Resh Helios, Midnight to Noon
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Last night at the hospital actually had food – turney sandwich with mayo, fruit filled yogurt, applesauce and two orange juice.
Today had 3 sticks of mozarella cheese, a PBJ sandwich and a banana with vanilla coffee.
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Did grounding by feeling my feet, feeling my shoes, feeling the cement, feeling that electricity, and imagining roots of vines underground take me over to a huge vine creature seated under a tree, then lifted up in a tornado like the cows you see, then plunged into water and becoming strangleweed to swimmers, then burnt to ash and phoenix born.
Listening to:
Especially tracks 1 and 2.
General Tarot Reading
Split Hexagram Spread
Greater Spiritual Influence: XVIII The Moon - Pisces (Water)
Lesser Spiritual Influence: XI Justice - Libra (Air)
Spiritual Advice: XX Judgement - Elemental Fire
Unconscious Desires: XVII - The Star - Aquarius (Air)
Conscious Desires: XIII Death - Scorpio (Water)
Practical Advice: I The Magician - Mercury (Air)
Final Outcome: 0 The Fool - Elemental Air
Numerology : 80 (1x8x10, 1x80, 2x4x10, 2x40, 4x20, 4x2x10)
4 Air
2 Water
1 Fire
0 Earth
A vulnerable one steeped in consciousness approaches dry land of dogs and wolves, baying under a flame lit full moon with the man in the moon.
He, the authority, holds high and straight the sword, scales in the other hand and inflamed in passion and a secure mind.
The angel blows the horn, red wings of passion, golden hair and blue robe; men women and children rise up from their graves giving thanks, repentance prayers, outbursts of joy under the four armed cross banner. YHVH Nissi?
under a eight stars with 8 points each, one the bright yellow of creative potential, the others purity white, a stork or pelican or ibis in a tree, the virgin pulls one pitcher from the sea of consciousness and pours it out of another vase to dry ground creating five rivers.
A soldier skeleton rides a pale horse, a black flag with a white rose held aloft. Some still alive plead, the rest already gone and decaying. A sun sets or rises.
A magician, all tools on the altar, wand held high in one hand, the other pointing to the ground displaying the law of correspondence. roses hang above and grow among lillies below like a hanging garden. Purity and passion robed, the sky lit with creative potential.
A man journeys with his dog Reason barking at his feet with a ledge ahead to plunge into. He holds a young white rose in his hjand, a hobostick and staff of a bag of memories and an eagle on the bag. Rebirth, or next stage along the journey.
The World XXI oversees like consciousness, the II High Priestess at the bottom like subconsciousness.
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Rearranged later to gaze and meditate on the trio of advice and final outcome, 20+1+0=21, top of deck 21.
Fire+Mercury+Air=Earth/Saturn.
Revelation+Action/Concentration=No-Thing
After lighting a candle dressed with AppleCinnamon oil, over a bed of coins in an oak and gold cup, and prayed over it, threw up.
Lit a new dressed oil for healing of all who are sick or ill, and will be healed or made whole in an hour.
Ate cheese sticks and had a mug of milk.
Friendly note: Dont rub your eyes after youve had cinnamon oil on your hands. Even AppleCinnamon oil, yes.
Candle relit and gave a mantra of healing by command. Ace up Cups and Ace of Pentacles for Healing through Briah into Assiah. AppleCinnamon oil rubbed white five hour candle. Simple prayers and mantra. When blowing out command that the light remain in darkness.
QC/Air Invoking Pentagram /QC and thrice circumabulation.
Blew out the candle reminding the command that there be light in the darkness.
Green-Yellow paper was under the cup and candle, with coins gold and silver in the cup.
Went rummaging through old unburnt occult notes, and found one:
WHAT DO YOU WANT: HEALTH
To be physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually strong, positive and healthy; to be able to heal myself, and others.
I WILL APPLY ALL OF MY POWERS TO ACHIEVE THE FOLLOWING AIM:
To be strong, positive, communicative, and healthy in body, mind, and soul; to be able to heal myself and others."
Thinking about ritual framework and energy. Reading tutorials and trying to apply them.
https://forum.becomealivinggod.com/t/bummed-my-ritual-to-heal-all-sick-ill-didnt-work-as-i-wanted-it-to/152137
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Mandarin Confection (17% THC,<1/4 gram smoked). Coffe (vanilla, at least first cup with non dairy creamer. PBJ and banana.
Last night did 5 pushups in < 15 seconds, with feet propped up on chair, good form, breathing with visualization, on fists. Then did ten standard palm pushups with visual breathing < 40 sec. No meat since Thursday.
Today will use one suit of the tarot, and do that number of a type of exercise, for example situps, with meditation on the card drawn but little delay between situps, each court card +10 in order. Shuffled and drawn next to hip. Attempt visualization of the card. Intent clarity, revelation, and exercise. At least a count of 50 total. Each day integrate another suit and shuffle and increase set by 1. On fifth pick one suit again. Repitition.
Smelled roses or flowers in my room, rather than funk aroma and apple-cinnamon.
Tarot Reading - How do I effectively Heal through ritual?
Celtic Cross Spread
Significator : XXI The World - Saturn/Earth - Assured success, route, emigration, flight, change of place. Inertia, fixith, stagnation, permanence.
Covers: 6 of Cups - Of memories and of the past. New relations, new environment, and new knowledge. Renewal, the Future, that which will come to pass presently.
Crosses: Temperance - Sagittarius - Eco0nomy, moderation, frugality, management, accommodation, competing interests.
Crowns: VII The Chariot - Cancer - Succor, providence, war, triumph, presumption, vengeance, trouble.
Beneath: 2 of Swords - Peace Restored- Conformity, equipose, courage, friendship, affection, intimacy. Imposter, falsehood, duplicity, disloyalty.
Behind: 0 The Fool - The No-Thing - Elemental Air - Folly, mania, extravagence.
Before: XX Judgement - Realization - Elemental Fire - Shin - Life-Breath,Sound, Resurrection, renewal, change of position, outcome.
Querent: 5 of Cups - Loss, but something remains, a card of inheritance, transmission and patrimony. News, alliances, affinity, ancestry, return, false projects.
Environment: 4 of Cups - Blended Pleasure - Weariness, disgust, aversion, imaginary vexations. Novelty, omen, new instructions, new relations.
Hopes and Fears: 3 of Cups - Conclusion of any matter, Plenty, perfection, merriment, happiness, victory, fulfillment, solace, healing. Expidition, dispatch, achievement, end.
Final Outcome: 2 of Cups - Love, passion, friendship, affinity, union, concord, sexual relations, False love, folly, misunderstanding.
Top of Deck: Ace of Cups - Spirit of Water - True heart, joy, contentment, abode, nourishment, abundance, fertility, holy table, felicity, False heart, mutation, instability, revolution.
Bottom: King of Pentacles - Fire of Earth - Valor, realizing intelligence, business and normal intellectual aptitude, sometimes mathematical gifts and attainments of this kind, success in these paths, Vice, weakness, ugliness, perversity, corruption, peril.\
Major Arcana: 63=9 (Ending of sequence)
Minor Arcana: 22 = 4 (Order of sequence).
63+22=85 (no known gematria or numerology on this, except for reduction -
63 (6,3 - same as Lovers and Empress) = 6 (same as Gemini - Continuation, Duplication times Creative Power) + 3 (Multiplication, Creative Power)= 9 (Ending of sequence)
85 = 8 (same as Strength, Leo, Serpent Power), + 5 (same as Hierophant, Hearing, Sound, Authority by keys and bells) = 13 = 1 + 3 = 4 (Order of Sequence)
9(same as Hermit) + 4(same as Emperor) = 13(same as Death) =1(same as Magician) + 3(same as Empress, Creatice Power) = 4(same as Emperor, Order, Sight)
Tarot Reading - My magic style
Celtic Cross Spread
Significator : XVIII The Moon - Pisces (Water) - Key: 18 - Yetziratic Path: 29 - Letter: Qoph - Attribution:Pisces - Esoteric Title: Ruler of Flux and Reflux; Child of the Sons of the Mighty -
Connecting Sephiroth: Netzach to Malkuth - Key word: SUBCONSCIOUS MIND - Related ideas: Unconscious influences and impulses. Repressed ideas and desires. Personal demons and self-created phantoms. The reptilian brain. Evolution. Progression. The Victory of the Material. Venus acting through Pisces upon the Cosmic Elements, deceptive effect of the apparent power of Material Forces.
Covers: XI Justice - Libra (Air) - Key: 11 - Yetziratic Path: 22 - Letter: Lamed - Attribution: Libra -
Esoteric Title: Daughter of the Lord of Truth; The Holder of the Balances - Connecting Sephiroth: Geburah to Tiphareth - Keyword: EQUILIBRATION - Related ideas: Necessary adjustment. Equilibrating action. Compensation. Keeper of balance. Perpetuator of harmony and forward movement. Law and truth. Images: The goddess Maat. The Scales of Balance. The double-edged sword. The jackal. The two pillars. Interpretation in a Tarot Reading: Eternal justice and balance,
equilibrium. Strength and force, but arrested as in the act of judgment. Also legal
proceedings. - The Severity of Beauty and Sovereignty. Mars acting through Libra
upon Sol.
Crosses: IV Emperor - Aries (Fire) - Order, sight. - Key: 4 - Yetziratic Path: 15 - Letter: Heh - Attribution:Aries - Esoteric Title: Son of the Morning; Chief among the Mighty - Connecting Sephiroth: Chokmah to Tiphareth - Keyword: ENERGY - Related ideas: Initiation of energy. Creative force. Stimulation of a dynamic current. Cycle of rebirth. The divine masculine power. Images: The Emperor enthroned. The homed crown. The ram. The ram-headed scepter. The golden orb. Interpretation in a
Tarot Reading: War,conquest, victory, strife, ambition, realization, development. - The Wisdom of Sovereignty and Beauty, and the originator of them; the Sphere of the Zodiac acting through Aries upon the Sun, and initiating Spring.
Crowns: 6 of Pentacles - 10"-20’ of D Forepart of Lepus, Tail and Wing of Columba, part of Equuleus - Decan: Moon in Taurus, 100-200 - Associated Sephirah: Tiphareth - World: Assiah - Key word/Esoteric Title: Lord of Material Success
Angels:
57. NMM Nemamiah Lovable (f Luna Hs 6 Pent.
58. YYL Yeyelel Hearer of cries (f Luna Hs
Goetic:
OSE - PRESIDENT - 20°-30° Libra (night) - October 13-22 - FOUR OF SWORDS - MERCURY-MERCURY
The Fifty-seventh Spirit is Oso, Ose, Oso or Voso. He is a Great President, and appears at first like a leopard, but after a little time he puts on the shape of a man. His office is to make one cunning in the liberal sciences, and to give true answers of Divine and secret things; also to change a man into any shape that the Exorcist pleases, so that he that is so changed will not think any other thing than that he is in reality that creature or thing he is changed into. He governs 30 Legions of Spirits.
AMY - PRESIDENT - 10_100 Scorpio (night) - October 23-November 1 - FIVE OF CUPS - MERCURY-MERCURY
The Fifty-eighth Spirit is Amy or Avnas. He is a Great President, and appears at first in the form of a flaming fire; but after a while he puts on the shape of a man. His office is to make one wonderfully knowledgeable in astrology and all the liberal sciences. He gives good Familiars, and can bewray treasure that is kept by Spirits. Hegovems 36 Legions of Spirits.
Qlippothic Path:
Beneath: Queen of Swords - Water of Air - PrimaryElement: Air - Qabalistic World: Briah (Heh/Water) - Sub-Element designation: Water of Air - Esoteric Title: Queen of the Thrones of Air - Associated Sephirah: Binah - Key word: SEVERE FORCE - Image: A stem, crowned Queen seated upon a throne with cumulus clouds beneath. In one hand she holds a sword and in the other the severed head of a man. Her emblem is a winged head of a child. Interpretation: Creative, enduring and elastic energy. A rational, sharp and severe force that enacts harsh measures for good results. Energy like that of a stormdrivenbyfierce winds. A mature woman who is intensely perceptive, intelligent, subtle, quick, accurate and decisive. (If illdignified: she is malicious, deadly, cruel, sly and unreliable.)
Behind: XVII The Star - Aquarius (Air) - Key: 17 - Yetziratic Path: 28 - Letter: Tzaddi - Attribution: Aquarius - Esoteric Title: Daughter of the Firmament; Dweller between the Waters - Connecting Sephiroth: Netzach to Yesod - Keyword: MEDITATION - Related ideas: Meditation. Listening to the Inner Voice.Using knowledge and imagination to receive information from within. Contemplation. Delving into pure consciousness. The upper astral. Images: A nude goddess pouring Water into a river from two vases. Alarge seven-pointed star. Seven lesser stars. The Tree of Life. The Tree of the Knowledge of Good and of Evil. An ibis. Interpretation in a Tarot Reading: Hope, faith, unexpected help. (If ill-dignified: dreaminess, deceived hope.) - The Victory of Fundamental Strength. Venus acting through Aquarius upon Luna. Hope.
Before: X Wheel of Fortune - Jupiter - Key: 10 - Yetziratic Path: 21 - Letter: Kaph - Attribution: Jupiter
- Esoteric Title: The Lord of the Forces of Life. - Connecting Sephiroth: Chesed to Netzach - Keyword: KARMA - Related ideas: Time. Destiny. Fluctuation. The rotation and cycling of human incarnation.
Perpetual motion. Karma-bringing past deeds into the present and on into the future. Images: The Wheel of Fortune. The Sphinx. The Cynocephalus (dog-faced ape). Interpretation in a Tarot Reading: Good fortune and happiness (If ill-dignified: intoxication with success or ill-fortune and failure.) - The Mercy and Magnificence of Victory.Jupiter acting through Jupiter direct upon Venus.
Querent: Seven of Wands - 20"-30" of Leo Mars Part of Argo, part of Piscis Volans. - Decan: Mars in Leo, 200-300 - Associated Sephirah: Netzach - World: Atziluth - Key word/Esoteric Title: Lord of Valour - Possible victory, depending upon the energy and courage exercised; valour, opposition, obstacles, difficulties, yet courage to meet them, quarrelling, ignorance, pretence, wrangling and threatening, also victory in small and unimportant things, and influence over subordinate. Depending on dignity as usual. - Netzach of Yod. (Opposition yet courage.) - Herein rule the two great Angels Mahashiah and Lelahel.
Angels:
5. MHSh Mahashiah Seeking safety Leo Mars Y 7 Wands
6. LLH Lelahel Praiseworthy, Leo Mars Y
Goetic:
MARBAS - PRESIDENT - 10°-20° Taurus (day) - May 1-10 - SIX OF DISKS - MERCURY-MERCURY
!Che fifth Spirit is Marbas. He is a Great President, and appears at first in the form of a great lion, but afterwards, at the request of the Magician, puts on human form. He answers truthfully concerning things hidden or secret. He causes diseases and cures them. He gives great wisdom and knowledge in mechanical arts and can change men into other shapes. He governs 36 Legions of Spirits.
Qlippothic Path:
Environment: XVI The Tower - Mars - Awakening - Key: 16 - Yetziratic Path: 27 - Letter: Peh - Attribution:Mars - Esoteric Title: Lord of the Hosts of the Mighty - Connecting Sephiroth: Netzach to Hod - Keyword: RESTRUCTURING - Related ideas: Destruction of the old in order to rebuild the new. Demolition of outmoded beliefs. Sudden involuntary illumination. Dramatic realization. Remodeling
of obsolete ideas. Images: Abrick tower with its summit sheared off. The lightning bolt of Mars. Two figures falling from the Tower. The Tree of Life. The reversed or Qlippotic Tree. Interpretation in a Tarot Reading: Ambition, fighting, strife, war; courage. (If ill-dignified: destruction, ruin, danger.) - The Victory over Splendor. Venus acting through Mars upon Mercury. Avenging force.
Hopes and Fears: 6 of Wands - 10"-20" of Y Part of Argo, part of Pisds Volans. - Decan: Jupiter in Leo, 100-200 - Associated Sephirah: Tiphareth - World: Atziluth - Key word/Esoteric Title: VICTORY - Image: Two hands issuing from clouds clasped in the center with the First Order grip, holding six wands. Flames at point of junction. Interpretation: Gain, victory after strife, pleasure gained by labor, success through energy and perseverance. - Jupiter in Leo, 10"-20". XXII. Lord of Victory. - 6 OF WANDS Two hands in grip, as in the last, holding six Wands crossed, 3 and 3, Flames issuing from the point of junction. Above and below are two short wands with flames issuing from a cloud at the lower part of the card, surmounted respectively by the symbols of Jupiter and Leo, representing the Decanate. Victory after strife, success through energy and industry, love, pleasure gained by labour, carefulness, sociability and avoiding of strife, yet victory therein. Also insolence, pride of riches and success, etc. The whole depending on dignity. - Tiphareth of Yod. (Gain.) Hereunto are allotted the Great Angels from the Schemhamephoresch, Saitel and Olmiah.
Angels:
3. SYT Sitael Refuge, fortress Leo Jupiter Y 6 Wands
4.0LM Almiah Concealed, strong Leo Jupiter Y
Goetic:
Qlippothic Path:
Final Outcome: Page of Wands - Earth of Fire - Primary Element: Fire - Qabalistic World: Assiah - (Heh/Earth) - Sub-Element designation: Earth of Fire - Esoteric Title: The Princess of the Shining Flame; The Rose of the Palace of Fire - Associated Sephirah: Malkuth - Key word: EXPLOSIVE FORCE
You are the crayfish walking onto dry land, where a dog and wolf bark at the full man in the moon between the twin towers. This could be madness, but a card of vulnerability, and of courage to brave the odds to travel past the wolves.
What covers you is Justice,