Nightside's Journal

Drew/created own major arcana deck by just element, sign, or planet on each one, and separated by four, then, picked up reverse stack top,
16. The Tower=The Victory over Splendour. Venus acting through Mars upon Mercury. Avenging force.
My meditation for why today, Monday is the card. Mouth, expression, tongue, the tongue as the avenging force? A lunar tongue of mars? Names or words of power.

Tuesday (Mars), May 25, 2021

Dreams: None recalled.

Physical Notes: Fair/multiple broken sleep pattern. Attitude positive. Energy medium. Depression low, anxiety high.

Mental Notes: Getting better with not freaking out after smoking weed in public by microdosing and micro exposure to public, with or without earplugs.

Synchronicities: Looked for none and received none.

Readings: My notes and journals. Therapy journal and handouts. Golden Dawn ritual books by regardie and ciceros. Quareia study guides. Grimoires. BALG posts. Replies. Profile topics by senior BALG members. My notes and journals. Modern magick, angel grimoire, other grimoires.

Psychic Exercises: 54321 closed eye visualization. DONE.
LRP, QC.

Scans: NONE.

Tarot readings. Day Meditation on card pulled – Peh yesterday, Kaph today – Kaph, or the Wheel of Fortune, was pulled today. Esoteric meaning hand or fist. Well, woven hands are common in a lot of places. Karma, perhaps? Time cycle, turn of the wheel. Mercy and Magnificance (nice day today) of Victory. Jupiter acting thru Jupiter directly upon Venus. DONE

Object Sensing exercises - NONE.

Evocations - NONE.

Meditations:
Astral Temple - NOT DONE
Core Shamanism - NOT DONE
Breathing - DONE. 4-4 count.
Tree merging/grounding - 54321 DONE.
Ward/Shield - NONE

Seven day observe mental chatter challenge. NOT STARTED
Breathing: in silent out silent, 4 fold count. STARTED.

Visualizations - NONE

Rituals: NONE.

Wards- NONE

Shields - NONE

Groundings - 54321

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Wednesday (Mercury), May 26, 2021

Dreams: None recalled.

Physical Notes: Fair/multiple broken sleep pattern. Attitude positive. Energy medium. Depression low, anxiety high. In evening before midnight, had idea while organizing playlists for affirnmations and shamanaism, to try to pronounce two letter workds through english alphabet. Upon hitting EhAh (EA), it pronounced once as Yah. Not too far away from Ay-Uh-Huh-Yay from Middle Pillar Ritual, was going from A-B then decided to hit vowels first and stopped there.

Mental Notes: Getting better with not freaking out after smoking weed in public by microdosing and micro exposure to public, with or without earplugs.

Synchronicities: EA pronounced for english by a shamanic chant would eventuially be heard as Yah (Jah).

Readings: My notes and journals. Therapy journal and handouts. Golden Dawn ritual books by regardie and ciceros. Quareia study guides. Grimoires. BALG posts. Replies. Profile topics by senior BALG members. My notes and journals. Modern magick, angel grimoire, other grimoires.

Psychic Exercises: 54321 closed eye visualization. DONE.
LRP, QC.

Scans: NONE.

Tarot readings. Day Meditation on card pulled – Peh yesterday, Kaph today – Kaph, or the Wheel of Fortune, was pulled today. Esoteric meaning hand or fist. Well, woven hands are common in a lot of places. Karma, perhaps? Time cycle, turn of the wheel. Mercy and Magnificance (nice day today) of Victory. Jupiter acting thru Jupiter directly upon Venus. DONE

Object Sensing exercises - NONE.

Evocations - NONE.

Meditations:
Astral Temple - NOT DONE BUT REMINDED OF IT
Core Shamanism - STARTING REVIEW/INFO GATHERING
Breathing - DONE. 4-4 count.
Tree merging/grounding - 54321 DONE.
Ward/Shield - NONE

Seven day observe mental chatter challenge. NOT STARTED
Breathing: in silent out silent, 4 fold count. STARTED.

Visualizations - NONE

Rituals: NONE.

Wards- NONE

Shields - NONE

Groundings - NONE

Mindfulness Exercise- 54321

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Friday 5-28 thoughts in the am over coffee. There is no golden pussy, nor any torrential downpour of it over me and me alone of said golden pussy, get it together man boy. Mannish boy, face reality, which in the end is all an illusion anyway, to find your place in the universe. To find your place and your home. Your home which has no mortgage. Your job which nobody is needed as an employer nor a boss to “manage you”. Be golden, work on yourself so much nobody else can stand it.

Perhaps, how to steal fire from the gods in all places, what powers they are attributed, what comparatively do we have on earth? For example, a silver tongue, Carnegie and Toastmasters/TEDTalks etc?

Saturday (Saturn), May 29, 2021

Dreams: None recalled.

Physical Notes: Finally got twelve hours sleep, Depression high, anxiety high. Mood low. Sore back, particularly middle spine and plates. Day one no THC/CBD. Seroquel added with Abilify, Zoloft and Kepppra. Out of Keppra today.

Mental Notes: Talking about and to myself here, before anyone gets a hair movement in their rear.
So, on the 220% goetia/shemhamphoresh issue, Ive begun to write down at least the Goetia, as I burnt the Shem Grimoire by Farrell, and so far I cannot locate a public document on the names of the angels. I suppose I could start with the pathnames, and the angels on the qabalah paths.
Anyway, then I started wondering why i cannot do such a thing, and some of it is swallowing pride and apologizing to others, even if I wasnt wrong, or alternatively calling them on their dogshit, and getting to restored bridges/relationships/dignities.
Either that or setting assholes up with narcotics posession with a cop right nearby to bust them, to remove their dignities.
As far as a silver tongue, carnegie and toastmasters.
Etc.
And since we all have access to the largest library on earth, the internet, we should all have the opportunity to have PhDs in a subject without the paper scroll confirming it.
So, growing up is an expectation, effort and not laziness or procrastination.
I guess today was the day they told me to grow the fuck up.
On the path of affliction or adveristy, this is probably a social norm.

Most of us know the Lesser Pentagram Ritual, some up to Star Ruby and such.
However, it seems to me odd that at a Malkuth level/Earth grade, we dont use a dodecagram and instead an invoking or banishing earth LRP/GRP.
Then at Luna/Air grade, we dont use an enneagram. Hod/water we dont use an Octagram, At Fire/Netzach no Heptagram Etc.
What is the issue in using these advanced polygram rtituals?


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This. This is what Ive been looking for as a solution to the question, how to springload an advanced ritual or spell. Now to study enchantment and spelling.

Split screening is like viewing two photos of yourself side by side. An alternate view is a photo of yourself and a calendar next to it, and a seal of a spirit asude of a photo of you or another.
The latter is to send a spirit next to someone, the middle to play with tour personal time space line to merge, and the first to attyne two versuons of yourself.

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Angelic Mantras: Angelic Words of Power and Mantras - #4 by Keteriya

Remote Viewing: How I remote view

Layered Spell:

Egregore:

Synchronicities:

Readings: My notes and journals. Therapy journal and handouts. Golden Dawn ritual books by regardie and ciceros. Quareia study guides. BALG posts.

Psychic Exercises: NONE.

Scans: NONE.

Tarot readings. NONE

Synchronicities: NONE

Readings: BALG posts. Replies. My notes and journals.

Psychic Exercises: QC, White circle ward.

Tarot readings. NONE.

Object Sensing exercises - NONE.

Evocations - NONE.

Meditations:
Astral Temple - NOT DONE
Core Shamanism - NOT DONE
Breathing - DONE. 4-4 count.
Tree merging/grounding - DONE.
Ward/Shield - NONE

Seven day observe mental chatter challenge. NOT STARTED
Location: Home.
Environment: Bedrooom listening to music just concentrating on breath and journal.
Posture:L shaped
Time: 5 minutes.
Distractions: Music, typing
Breathing: in silent out silent, 4 fold count. STARTED.

Visualizations - NONE

Rituals: QC

Wards- White circle DONE

Shields - QC/LIRP/QC.

Groundings - Mindfulness of breath

Sat 5-29 continued
Angelic Mantras: Angelic Words of Power and Mantras

Remote Viewing: How I remote view

Layered Spell: Info Gathering

Egregore: Info Gathering

Synchronicities: NONE

Readings: My notes and journals. Therapy journal and handouts. Golden Dawn ritual books by regardie and ciceros. Quareia study guides. BALG posts.

Psychic Exercises: NONE.

Energy Work: Masturbated almost to brink of ejaculation, then backed off and put it back in the holster.
DONE

Scans: NONE.

Tarot readings. Drew own cards of 22 pieces of paper with roman numerals on them. Drew The World, Key 21. Saturn/Earth … between earth and air grades. The world as it is, rebirth into the world. DONE.

Object Sensing exercises - NONE.

Evocations - NONE.

Meditations:
Astral Temple - NOT DONE
Core Shamanism - Info Gathering
Breathing - DONE. 4-4 count.
Tree merging/grounding - NOT DONE.

Seven day observe mental chatter challenge. NOT STARTED
Location: Home.
Environment: Bedrooom listening to music just concentrating on breath and journal.
Posture:L shaped
Time: 5 minutes.
Distractions: Music, typing
Breathing: in silent out silent, 4 fold count. STARTED.

Visualizations - Flaming room size pentagrams of white light. DONE

Rituals: QC/LIRP/QC DONE

Wards- White circle DONE

Shields - QC/LIRP/QC.

Groundings - Mindfulness of breath

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My journal is growing out of control. Perhaps other were right, taking too much on at any time is not healthy for myself or others. Core shamanism it is.

Where can I read my scan ? Thank you for your time

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Saturday continued. Looking up shamanism. Did a reading scan for @Snow88.
Scanning : completed for Snow88. DONE

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Did tarot interpretation for @Hidden_God

Did a search for shemhamphoresh, and found several resources to counter the goetic powers that be that we should aspire to ourselves, despite trading ritual or spell for time in which to have that power fulfilled,

So here are the angels:
The 72 angels coresponding to the astrologic signs:

1- 0° - 5° Aries - VEHUIAH - Will and New Beginnings
2- 5° - 10° Aries - 2 JELIEL - Love and Wisdom
3- 10° - 15° Aries - 3 SITAEL - Construction of the Universe/Worlds
4- 15° to 20° Aries - 4 ELEMIAH - Divine Power
5- 20° to 25° Aries - 5 MAHASIAH - Rectification
6- 25° to 30° Aries - 6 LELAHEL - Light of Understanding
7- 0° to 5° Taurus - 7 ACHAIAH - Patience
8- 5° to 10° Taurus - 8 CAHETEL - Divine Blessings
9- 10° to 15° Taurus - 9 HAZIEL - Divine Mercy and Forgiveness
10- 15° to 20° Taurus - 10 ALADIAH - Divine Grace
11- 20° to 25° Taurus - 11 LAUVIAH - Victory
12- 25° to 30° Taurus - 12 HAHAIAH - Refuge, Shelter
13- 0° to 5° Gemini - 13 YEZALEL - Fidelity, Loyalty and Allegiance
14- 5° to 10° Gemini - 14 MEBAHEL - Truth, Liberty and Justice
15- 10° to 15° Gemini - 15 HARIEL - Purification
16- 15° to 20° Gemini - 16 HAKAMIAH - Loyalty
17- 20° to 25° Gemini - 17 LAVIAH - Revelation
18- 25° to 30° Gemini - 18 CALIEL - Justice
19- 0° to 5° Cancer - 19 LEUVIAH - Expansive Intelligence/Fruition
20- 5° to 10° Cancer - 20 PAHALIAH - Redemption
21- 10° to 15° Cancer - 21 NELCHAEL - Ardent Desire to Learn
22- 15° to 20° Cancer - 22 YEIAYEL - Fame, Renown
23- 20° to 25° Cancer - 23 MELAHEL - Healing Capacity
24- 25° to 30° Cancer - 24 HAHEUIAH - Protection
25- 0° to 5° Leo - 25 NITH-HAIAH - Spiritual Wisdom and Magic
26- 5° to 10° Leo - 26 HAAIAH - Political Science and Ambition
27- 10° to 15° Leo - 27 YERATEL - Propagation of Light
28- 15° to 20° Leo - 28 SEHEIAH - Longevity
29- 20° to 25° Leo - 29 REIYEL - Liberation
30- 25° to 30° Leo - 30 OMAEL - Fertility, Multiplicity
31- 0° to 5° Virgo - 31 LECABEL - Intellectual Talent
32- 5° to 10° Virgo - 32 VASARIAH - Clemency and Equilibrium
33- 10° to 15° Virgo - 33 YEHUIAH - Subordination to Higher Order
34- 15° to 20° Virgo - 34 LEHAHIAH - Obedience
35- 20° to 25° Virgo - 35 CHEVAKIAH - Reconciliation
36- 25° to 30° Virgo - 36 MENADEL - Inner/Outer Work
37- 0° to 5° Libra - 37 ANIEL - Breaking the Circle
38- 5° to 10° Libra - 38 HAAMIAH - Ritual and Ceremony
39- 10° to 15° Libra - 39 REHAEL - Filial Submission
40- 15° to 20° Libra - 40 YEIAZEL - Divine Consolation and Comfort
41- 20° to 25° Libra - 41 HAHAHEL - Mission
42- 25° to 30° Libra - 42 MIKHAEL - Political Authority and Order
43- 0° to 5° Scorpio - 43 VEULIAH - Prosperity
44- 5° to 10° Scorpio - 44 YELAHIAH - Karmic Warrior
45- 10° to 15° Scorpio - 45 SEHALIAH - Motivation and Wilfulness
46- 15° to 20° Scorpio - 46 ARIEL - Perceiver and Revealer
47- 20° to 25° Scorpio - 47 ASALIAH - Contemplation
48- 25° to 30° Scorpio - 48 MIHAEL - Fertility, Fruitfulness
49- 0° to 5° Sagittarius - 49 VEHUEL - Elevation, Grandeur
50- 5° to 10° Sagittarius - 50 DANIEL - Eloquence
51- 10° to 15° Sagittarius - 51 HAHASIAH - Universal Medicine
52- 15° to 20° Sagittarius - 52 IMAMIAH - Expiation of Errors
53- 20° to 25° Sagittarius - 53 NANAEL - Spiritual Communication
54- 25° to 30° Sagittarius - 54 NITHAEL - Rejuvenation and Eternal Youth
55- 0° to 5° Capricorn - 55 MEBAHIAH - Intellectual Lucidity
56- 5° to 10° Capricorn - 56 POYEL - Fortune and Support
57- 10° to 15° Capricorn - 57 NEMAMIAH - Discernment
58- 15° to 20° Capricorn - 58 YEIALEL - Mental Force
59- 20° to 25° Capricorn - 59 HARAHEL - Intellectual Richness
60- 25° to 30° Capricorn - 60 MITZRAEL - Internal Reparation
61- 0° to 5° Aquarius - 61 UMABEL - Affinity and Friendship
62- 5° to 10° Aquarius - 62 IAH-HEL - Desire to Know
63- 10° to 15° Aquarius - 63 ANAUEL - Perception of Unity
64- 15° to 20° Aquarius - 64 MEHIEL - Vivification
65- 20° to 25° Aquarius - 65 DAMABIAH - Fountain of Wisdom
66- 25° to 30° Aquarius - MANAKEL - Knowledge of Good and Evil
67- 0° to 5° Pisces - EYAEL - Transformation to the Sublime
68- 5° to 10° Pisces - HABUHIAH - Healing
69- 10° to 15° Pisces - ROCHEL - Restitution
70- 15° to 20° Pisces - JABAMIAH - Alchemy/Transformation
71- 20° to 25° Pisces - HAIYAEL - Divine Warrior/Weaponry
72- 25° to 30° Pisces - MUMIAH - Endings and Rebirth

http://www.omega-magick.com/2012/01/the-72-names-of-god-shem-hameforash.html

Now just find one like the above for goetia, then google the powers to be, and get your life on. Advice for me.

And as time has been mentioned, time for me to do some time management not to manage time, but to study Calculus, Statistics chaps 1-2, and read Criminal Justioce and Business Management chaps 1-2, do housing research, do job applications, check my hanging laundry, ya know, adulting.
Then I will dress and light a candle and meditate upon a purpose. Core Shamanism. Asked the great spirit to send me teaching shamans, trees were alive with the wind, and The Canticle of Creation popped into my head, while listening to Black Sabbaths Lady Evil earlier today. Plus, dropped my meds, so in an hour I will either fall asleep naturally or because of studying maths.

Watching this and not studying maths…

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Sunday (Sol), May 30, 2021

Dreams: None recalled.

Physical Notes: Finally got good sleep, Depression high, anxiety high. Mood medium. Sore back, headache, toothache, and other than those all good. Ate breads and sweet potatoes the past two days, and then cooked and ate black beans and brown rice with creole seasoning and butter. Cooked and seasoned perfectly… Day two no THC. Meds taken except for Kepppra. Out of Keppra yesterday evening. So need to get a refill today and pop two and one tonight.

Mental Notes: None atm.

Tarot readings: One last night on what to do about SSA. Drew 2, 5, 12 and 19 as a past present and future with added final. Repitiition, Fastening together, Sacrifice/Reversal, Regeneration. Need to think about this reading from last night.
Todays Tarot reading is: 2, 21, 17, 20.

Synchronicities: None

Psychic Exercises: QC, White circle ward.

Layered Spell: NOT STARTED

Enchantments: NOT STARTED

Servitors: NOT STARTED

Egregore: NOT STARTED

Psychic Exercises: NONE.

Scans: NONE.

Object Sensing exercises - NONE.

Evocations - NONE.

Meditations:
Astral Temple - NOT DONE
Core Shamanism - NOT DONE
Breathing - DONE. 4-4 count.
Tree merging/grounding - DONE.

Seven day observe mental chatter challenge. NOT STARTED
Location: Home.
Environment: Bedrooom listening to music just concentrating on breath and journal.
Posture:L shaped
Time: 5 minutes.
Distractions: Music, typing
Breathing: in silent out silent, 4 fold count. STARTED.

Visualizations - NONE

Rituals: QC

Wards- White circle DONE

Shields - QC/LIRP/QC.

Groundings - Mindfulness of breath

Readings: BALG. My notes and journals. Therapy journal and handouts. Golden Dawn ritual books by regardie and ciceros. Quareia study guides. BALG posts.

Transition Sunday to Monday,

Yesterday (Sunday Eve), went to fwllow occultists place and talked occult and mundane and psych ward.
Enlightening and let me know Im not alone.
Monday morning am on my computer, have to apply for jobs.

Am listening to Sandra Ingerman-Harner lectures, and tribal shaman drumming and pipe music.
Trying to get authentic tribal videos, but largely are pop new age shamanic music.
Ideally, indigenous music would be best to search for atm.
Thinking of evocations for tribal deities. Great Spirit for one.

Reading journals of members, as a start, Evas. I find one of the 2019 posts regarding sympathetic magic by use of personal items to aid in magic very enlightening. And tribal as well in a sense.

Besides looking for a job, what do I need to do right now? 1, 20, 16, 10.
Magician, Judgement, Tower, Wheel of Fortune (in order)

Pondering this over some yummy rice …
2 c Water
1 c Enriched Rice
3 Tb Butter
4 Tb Sugar1 Torn apart Everything Bagel
16 oz Can Mixed Fruit in Syrup
3 Tb Stilton White blueberry cheese
Combine Rice, Water and Butter, cook 7 min and stir in pieces Bagel Sugar and Cheese.
Stir, Cook 8 min
Stir in (1/2 syrup drained) Mixed Fruit.
Heat addl 5 min, stir and serve

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An old prayer brought to mind pondering the reading over fruited rice pudding

O Most High, all-powerful, good Lord God,
to you belong praise, glory, honour and all blessing.

Be praised, my Lord, for all your creation and especially for our Brother Sun,
who brings us the day and the light; he is strong and shines magnificently.
O Lord, we think of you when we look at him.

Be praised, my Lord, for Sister Moon, and for the stars
which you have set shining and lovely in the heavens.

Be praised, my Lord, for our Brothers Wind and Air
and every kind of weather by which you, Lord, uphold life in all your creatures.

Be praised, my Lord, for Sister Water,
who is very useful to us, and humble and precious and pure.

Be praised, my Lord, for Brother Fire,
through whom you give us light in the darkness: he is bright and lively and strong.

Be praised, my Lord, for Sister Earth, our Mother, who nourishes us and sustains us,
bringing forth fruits and vegetables of many kinds and flowers of many colours.

Be praised, my Lord, for those who forgive for love of you;
and for those who bear sickness and weakness in peace and patience - you will grant them a crown.

Be praised, my Lord, for our Sister Death, whom we must all face.
I praise and bless you, Lord, and I give thanks to you,
and I will serve you in all humility.

St Francis of Assissi, The Canticle of Creation

Tuesday (Mars), Jun 1, 2021

Dreams: None recalled.

Physical Notes: Finally got good sleep, Depression high, anxiety high. Mood medium. Sore back, headache, toothache, and other than those all good. Got stuff from storage, mainly clothes, art supplies, sentimental nicknacks.

Mental Notes: Broke and broken as shit.

Tarot readings: One last night on what to do about SSA. Drew 2, 5, 12 and 19 as a past present and future with added final. Repitiition, Fastening together, Sacrifice/Reversal, Regeneration. Need to think about this reading from last night.
Todays Tarot reading is: 21, 7, 11, 18. The World, Chariot, Justice, The Moon.
(How will my finances improve)

Synchronicities: None

Psychic Exercises: QC, White circle ward.

Layered Spell: NOT STARTED

Enchantments: NOT STARTED

Servitors: NOT STARTED

Egregore: NOT STARTED

Psychic Exercises: NONE.

Scans: NONE.

Object Sensing exercises - NONE.

Evocations - NONE.

Meditations:
Astral Temple - NOT DONE
Core Shamanism - Studying
Breathing - DONE. 4-4 count.
Tree merging/grounding - DONE.

Seven day observe mental chatter challenge. NOT STARTED
Location: Home.
Environment: Bedrooom listening to music just concentrating on breath and journal.
Posture:L shaped
Time: 5 minutes.
Distractions: Music, typing
Breathing: in silent out silent, 4 fold count. STARTED.

Visualizations - NONE

Rituals: QC

Wards- White circle DONE

Shields - QC/LIRP/QC.

Groundings - Mindfulness of breath

Readings: BALG. My notes and journals. Therapy journal and handouts. Golden Dawn (Regardie), DuQuettes Illustrated Goetia and Shemhamphoresh (for self improvement before calling on spirits project), Waite Mysteries of Magic, Contemporary Ritual Magic, Magicka Hiera, Encyclopedia of Time; books on Shamanism and Anthropology or Religion and Medicine.

My cat alweted me at the same time I had a feeling and saw a shadow move. Unless it is a healer, I havent invited them into my dwelling to my best recollection.
So, jumped up and did a few banishing rituals.
Sorry, to the healers :frowning:

Aight. Time to practice again. We reap what we sow, it seems.

Thursday (Jupiter), Jun 3, 2021

Dreams: Was persecuted by Muslims for not being on board with their agenda, they would would periodically toss oreo cookies at me, which I would eat.

Physical Notes: Finally got good sleep, Depression low, anxiety high. Mood medium.

Mental Notes: Broke as shit but have a new job.
Thinking of joining walks when I have the time to do so. Walks Like walk against cancer, walk against leukemia, walk against Alzheimer’s, stuff like that; in addition also perhaps the Tough Mudder this year.

Synchronicities: None

Psychic Exercises: QC, White circle ward.

Layered Spell: NOT STARTED

Enchantments: NOT STARTED

Servitors: NOT STARTED

Egregore: NOT STARTED

Psychic Exercises: NONE.

Scans: NONE.

Object Sensing exercises - NONE.

Evocations - NONE.

Meditations:
Astral Temple - NOT DONE
Core Shamanism - Studying
Breathing - DONE. 4-4 count.
Tree merging/grounding - DONE.

Seven day observe mental chatter challenge. NOT STARTED
Location: Home.
Environment: Bedrooom listening to music just concentrating on breath and journal.
Posture:L shaped
Time: 5 minutes.
Distractions: Music, typing
Breathing: in silent out silent, 4 fold count. STARTED.

Visualizations - NONE

Rituals: QC

Wards- White circle DONE

Shields - QC/LBRP/QC. Did yesterday too.

Groundings - Mindfulness of breath

Readings: BALG. My notes and journals. Therapy journal and handouts. Golden Dawn (Regardie), DuQuettes Illustrated Goetia and Shemhamphoresh (for self improvement before calling on spirits project), Waite Mysteries of Magic, Contemporary Ritual Magic, Magicka Hiera, Encyclopedia of Time; books on Shamanism; Anthropology of Religion and Medicine.

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I had a similar dream a few weeks ago! Except I was an audience in King Solomon’s court and he was being persecuted by the Church…it was very weird because I felt someone took me there. Oreos would’ve been good though.

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Friday (Venus), Jun 4, 2021

Dreams: None recalled.

Physical Notes: Finally got good sleep, Depression low, anxiety high. Mood low…

Mental Notes: Broke as shit but have a new job.
Thinking of joining walks when I have the time to do so. Walks Like walk against cancer, walk against leukemia, walk against Alzheimer’s, stuff like that; in addition also perhaps the Tough Mudder this year.

Synchronicities: None

Psychic Exercises: QC, White circle ward.

Layered Spell: STARTED

Enchantments: NOT STARTED

Servitors: NOT STARTED

Egregore: NOT STARTED

Psychic Exercises: Color exercises starting today. Researching clairvoyance, scrying, and clairaudience while on anti psychotic drugs today.

Scans: NONE.

Object Sensing exercises - NONE.

Evocations - NONE.

Meditations:
Astral Temple - NOT DONE
Core Shamanism - Studying
Breathing - DONE. 4-4 count.
Tree merging/grounding - DONE.

Seven day observe mental chatter challenge. STARTED
Location: Home.
Environment: Bedrooom listening to music just concentrating on breath and journal.
Posture:L shaped
Time: 5 minutes.
Distractions: Music, typing
Breathing: in silent out silent, 4 fold count. STARTED.

Visualizations - NONE

Rituals: QC/LBRP/QC DONE

Wards- White circle DONE

Shields - QC/LBRP/QC. DONE

Groundings - Mindfulness of breath

Readings: BALG. My notes and journals. Apocrypha book. Therapy journal and handouts. Golden Dawn (Regardie), DuQuettes Illustrated Goetia and Shemhamphoresh (for self improvement before calling on spirits project), Waite Mysteries of Magic, Contemporary Ritual Magic, Magicka Hiera, Encyclopedia of Time; books on Shamanism; Anthropology of Religion and Medicine.

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