Missed Midnight adoration; did Midnight adoration with grade signs
Lord of the Universe AM Adoration
Liber Resh Vel Helios Morning adoration with grade sign
II High Priestess. Luna.
~6 hours
None recalled
QC/LRP (EB)/QC with grade signs
I want to love money. I want to love things money can buy. I want to be paid top dollar for what I do, no matter what I do.
I want to never be poor again.
Mel ah-en-tul es kuhl (Raziel) – To increase/enhance ones psychic powers
Mesh fa luong tu pron na fo lem (Raziel) – To break free from negative thought loops and purge negative subconscious blocks
Lesh ta pak een lafu tu son (Michael) – To neutralize and repel negative or harmful energy.
Psi Ball/String per SIGDT and
Pentagrams/Archangels
Psi Ball/string
Blue energy bubble
Yesterday had green candle meditation on healing, prosperity, nature
Today will light purple/indigo candle for the day (Saturn, black/indigo) – will focus on the correspondences of Saturn. Tomorrow (Sunday) will light Yellow, and Wednesday Orange.
Earth day
Rad – The rune signifying journeys, the routes of progress, the maps of prosperous development gained by exploration and effort.
Fehu – The sign for possessions in proper abundance, and of balancing needs and wants for practical purposes and continued prosperity.
Sigel – The symbol of sacred power in its fullest, most abundant form creating the wealth of wholeness.
Gyfu – The sign for gifts from the highest orders of power and truth, the sacred gifts of divine origin.
Jera – The symbol of harvest, celebrating the assurance of cycles of growth.
Stan – The stone power to structure sacred wisdom, to harvest the heritage of Nature, and to order ones life in practical, prosperous form.
Will draw each and meditate on each with their meaning and my distance from the meaning.
Cool …
Will read Sacred Magic of Abramelin the Mage
Will read other sources for HGD
Privithi - Draw and meditate on Yellow square.
Meditate on the point with no magnitude or direction
Seven card spread on my Neophyte adventure:
Greater Spiritual Influence: 0 The Fool (Air)
Lesser Spiritual Influence: XV The Devil (Capricorn)
Spiritual Advice: XIX The Sun (Sol)
Unconscious Desires: X Wheel of Fortune (Jupiter)
Conscious Desires: XVIII The Moon (Pisces)
Practical Advice: XII The Hanged Man (Water)
Final Outcome: III Empress (Venus)
Top of Deck: VIII Strength (Leo)
Bottom of Deck: IV Emperor (Aries)
Vehuiah planned for one week from today.
None planned except for perhaps the Spirit of God.
None planned
N/A
N/A
Will practice both Silence and NLP
LG5: 22 incorrect. Really need to use a pendulum for this one.
GTT: 30 incorrect.
Onto writing the petition, then doing some visualization and meditation.
Just before writing the petition, I got a text from my old Five Guys Manager, wondering what’d happened to me, so I called her and talked. Ive been requested back at up to 20 per hour at a different store. Im still in the system, so I dont have to reapply.
This is considering Ive taken two different job opportunities, but they are scattered in location and willing to work with each other, but could be headaches in their own right. I will have to think on this, I would love three great references for my work ethic and character.
Petition to Vehuiah written.
LG5: 22 incorrect. Really need to use a pendulum for this one.
GTT: 30 incorrect.
Onto writing the petition, then doing some visualization and meditation.
I have a job with both Staybridge Suites and Pancheros. Just about to start both jobs.
Just before writing the petition, I got a text from my old Five Guys Manager, wondering what’d happened to me, so I called her and talked. Ive been requested back at up to 20 per hour at a different store. Im still in the system, so I dont have to reapply.
This is considering Ive taken two different job opportunities, but they are scattered in location and willing to work with each other, but could be headaches in their own right. I will have to think on this, I would love three great references for my work ethic and character. I also have a last check from Five Guys, so picking that up today, might be able to pay rent and all that good stuff. And get temple supplies finally.
Petition to Vehuiah written.
Feeling some different air was needed, so lit a stick of Patchouli. May burn Frankincense this next week.
I am pleasantly surprised by the Green candle meditation the other day.
After a brief break, and brief vow of silence, I have been reading a few books and doing the recommended exercises.
I have a lengthy journal or three, and will post after home and settled in from work tonight.
My altar is set for an evocation and/or petition of Vehuiah, minus his sigil which I will hand draw.
Sat 1/29/2022 1:51pm
Ive been silenced for a week – no more pointer to books for people.
So what, oh what shall I occupy my time with?
Tasks for the Neophyte
Tasks for the Zelator
Tasks for the Theoricus
Tasks for the Practicus
Tasks for the Philosophus
(on either tree, see Karlssons book for the degrees based off Ordo Dragon Rouge)
I am not even a Neophyte, but if I were, I’m certain that is my current grade, despite what I can do.
Sat 1/29/2022 1:51pm
Waning, New Moon Feb 1
Fair, none recalled or I did not choose to remember my dreams.
Fair
Future, taking care of business.
Sore legs, feet, back.
Slight confusion.
II High Priestess (Luna, subconscious, duplication, law, repetition, knowledge).
Self-Initiation into the Golden Dawn
“Ritual Work for the Neophyte
Aside from the memorization of the First Knowledge Lecture, the Neophyte should begin regular practice of the rituals and meditative techniques provided here. These rites create a firm groundwork of ceremonial methods that the student will utilize throughout his/her entire magical life. They also serve as constant reminder of the goal of the path of an initiate.”
Chosen, unmistakable end of banishing as a fork exists at the bottom.
THE QABALISTIC CROSS (QC)
THE LESSER BANISHING RITUAL OF THE PENTAGRAM (LBRP)
ADORATION TO THE LORD OF THE UNIVERSE
(Note: This affirmation should be done daily.)
MEDITATION
for the 0 = 0 grade ofNeophyte25
“Let the Neophyte consider a point as defined in mathematics-having position but no magnitude-and let him note the ideas to which this gives rise. Concen- trating their faculties on this, as a focus, let him endeavor to realize the Immanence of the Divine throughout Nature, in all her aspects.”
The simplest rhythm for the beginner is the Fourfold Breath.
1 Empty the lungs and remain thus while counting 4.
2 Inhale, counting 4, so that you feel filled with breath to the throat.
3 Hold this breath while counting 4.
4 Exhale, counting 4 till the lungs are empty.
This should be practised, counting slowly or quickly till you obtain a rhythm that suits you-one that is comforting and stilling. Having attained this, count the breath thus for two or three minutes, till you feel quiet, and then proceed with the meditation. (Note: this should be done daily for no less than six months.)¢
LIBER RESH VEL HELlOS
KHEPERU NU RA
THE BERAKAH
(Blessing)
THE RITE OF ELEMENT AL EQUILIBRA TION
BODY AWARENESS EXERCISE
EXTRASENSORY AWARENESS EXERCISE
Obtain a set of ESP cards such as those developed in the parapsychology labora- tory at Duke University (for sale at most occult bookstores). The drawings on these cards are simple symbols-one symbol per card.
Shuffle the cards. Place the cards face down and place your hand upon the top card. Make your mind as blank as possible and attempt to guess what image is on the front of the card (square, circle, cross, waves, or star). Go through the entire deck in this fashion, at least once daily. Do not get discouraged if you do not often guess correctly. Record your results.
Kabballah Magic and the Great Work of Self Transformation
Initiation into Hermetics
Modern Magick - Chaps 1-3
Complete Book of Witchcraft - Lessons 1-3
Book of Spirit Communications - Lessons 1-3
Occult Fundamentals - Lessons 1-3
Do all exercises.
Complete Golden Dawn - Learn all primary techniques
Mel ah-en-tul es kuhl (Raziel) – To increase/enhance ones psychic powers
Mesh fa luong tu pron na fo lem (Raziel) – To break free from negative thought loops and purge negative subconscious blocks
Lesh ta pak een lafu tu son (Michael) – To neutralize and repel negative or harmful energy.
Energy Work
Psi Ball/String per SIGDT and
Vampirism, Necromancy, and Shapeshifting Techniques
A few things I’ve learned that I’d like to share. While I will try to make it sound as simple as possible, these techniques do require practice over time and some mastery before moving on to more difficult exercises. I’ve learned many of these over the course of several years, and would recommend you attempt at least a year’s worth of practice to each exercise if not more if you are an absolute beginner. This is by no means a complete guide to all vampirism, I only know what I learned myself, bu…
Pentagrams/Archangels
Psi Ball/string
Blue energy bubble
Yesterday had green candle meditation on healing, prosperity, nature
Today will light purple/indigo candle for the day (Saturn, black/indigo) – will focus on the correspondences of Saturn. Tomorrow (Sunday) will light Yellow, and Wednesday Orange.
Earth day
Rad – The rune signifying journeys, the routes of progress, the maps of prosperous development gained by exploration and effort.
Fehu – The sign for possessions in proper abundance, and of balancing needs and wants for practical purposes and continued prosperity.
Sigel – The symbol of sacred power in its fullest, most abundant form creating the wealth of wholeness.
Gyfu – The sign for gifts from the highest orders of power and truth, the sacred gifts of divine origin.
Jera – The symbol of harvest, celebrating the assurance of cycles of growth.
Stan – The stone power to structure sacred wisdom, to harvest the heritage of Nature, and to order ones life in practical, prosperous form.
Will draw each and meditate on each with their meaning and my distance from the meaning.
Cool …
Will read Sacred Magic of Abramelin the Mage
Will read other sources for HGD
Privithi - Draw and meditate on Yellow square.
Meditate on the point with no magnitude or direction
Seven card spread on my Neophyte adventure:
Greater Spiritual Influence: 0 The Fool (Air)
Lesser Spiritual Influence: XV The Devil (Capricorn)
Spiritual Advice: XIX The Sun (Sol)
Unconscious Desires: X Wheel of Fortune (Jupiter)
Conscious Desires: XVIII The Moon (Pisces)
Practical Advice: XII The Hanged Man (Water)
Final Outcome: III Empress (Venus)
Top of Deck: VIII Strength (Leo)
Bottom of Deck: IV Emperor (Aries)
Vehuiah planned for one week from today.
None planned except for perhaps the Spirit of God.
None planned
N/A
N/A
Will practice both Silence and NLP
LG5: 22 incorrect. Really need to use a pendulum for this one.
GTT: 30 incorrect.
Onto writing the petition, then doing some visualization and meditation.
Just before writing the petition, I got a text from my old Five Guys Manager, wondering what’d happened to me, so I called her and talked. Ive been requested back at up to 20 per hour at a different store. Im still in the system, so I dont have to reapply.
This is considering Ive taken two different job opportunities, but they are scattered in location and willing to work with each other, but could be headaches in their own right. I will have to think on this, I would love three great references for my work ethic and character.
Petition to Vehuiah written.
LG5: 22 incorrect. Really need to use a pendulum for this one.
GTT: 30 incorrect.
Onto writing the petition, then doing some visualization and meditation.
I have a job with both Staybridge Suites and Pancheros. Just about to start both jobs.
Just before writing the petition, I got a text from my old Five Guys Manager, wondering what’d happened to me, so I called her and talked. Ive been requested back at up to 20 per hour at a different store. Im still in the system, so I dont have to reapply.
This is considering Ive taken two different job opportunities, but they are scattered in location and willing to work with each other, but could be headaches in their own right. I will have to think on this, I would love three great references for my work ethic and character. I also have a last check from Five Guys, so picking that up today, might be able to pay rent and all that good stuff. And get temple supplies finally.
Petition to Vehuiah written.
Feeling some different air was needed, so lit a stick of Patchouli. May burn Frankincense this next week.
I am pleasantly surprised by the Green candle meditation the other day.
60’s Psychedelic Rock
Afternoon adorations done
With evening adorations done and doing the LBRP, I did it with a new wand and consecrated it using divine names from within the LRP earth banishing. Did QC before and after.
Grounded by eating pizza.
Missed Middle Pillar and REE.
Current Diary/Journal Template
Waning Crescent Capricorn, New Moon Feb 1
Fair sleep to poor. No dream detail recall.
Fair in all 3
AM Adorations done
QC LBRP QC Done
Setup Altar
Spoke aloud Ps 140-144
Shem Angel for day: Reiel, invoked Reiel
Listened to Bornless Ritual
Silent mind meditation with fourfold controlled breathing 15 min
Afternoon adorations
Gathered and took out trash
Gathered, did laundry
Looked out for Yellow
Listened to Invocation of Thoth and Mercury rock opera
Mexican for lunch
Grounded by closed eye chant of Behuiah.
XIII Death (Nun, Fish, 50, Tiphareth-Netzach, Scorpio)
Less than 5 greater than 5 (LG5):
24 Incorrect, Will have to use Pendulum with this exercise from now on for greater random accuracy.
Guess the Trump (GTT):
Major Court Minor (MCM)
Neophyte Exercises - One month
(goal -= “adept” in 6 mo)
Self-Initiation … Golden Dawn Tradition
THE QABALISTIC CROSS (QC)
THE LESSER BANISHING RITUAL OF THE PENTAGRAM (LBRP)
ADORATION TO THE LORD OF THE UNIVERSE
(Note: This affirmation should be done daily.)
MEDITATION
for the 0 = 0 grade of Neophyte
Let the Neophyte consider a point as defined in mathematics-having position but no magnitude-and let him note the ideas to which this gives rise. Concen- trating their faculties on this, as a focus, let him endeavor to realize the Immanence of the Divine throughout Nature, in all her aspects.
CONTROLLED BREATHING
The simplest rhythm for the beginner is the Fourfold Breath.
Empty the lungs and remain thus while counting 4.
Inhale, counting 4, so that you feel filled with breath to the throat.
Hold this breath while counting 4.
Exhale, counting 4 till the lungs are empty.
DAILY ADORATIONS
LIBER RESH VEL HELlOS
KHEPERU NU RA
THE BERAKAH(Blessing)
THE RITE OF ELEMENTAL EQUILIBRATION
BODY AWARENESS EXERCISE
EXTRASENSORY AWARENESS EXERCISE
Obtain a set of ESP cards such as those developed in the parapsychology labora- tory at Duke University (for sale at most occult bookstores). The drawings on these cards are simple symbols-one symbol per card.
Shuffle the cards. Place the cards face down and place your hand upon the top card. Make your mind as blank as possible and attempt to guess what image is on the front of the card (square, circle, cross, waves, or star). Go through the entire deck in this fashion, at least once daily. Do not get discouraged if you do not often guess correctly. Record your results.
Kabballah Magic and the Great Work of Self Transformation
Neophyte Checklist
Initiation into Hermetics
Franz Bardon Part II
Modern Magick - Chaps 1-3
Complete Book of Witchcraft - Lessons 1-3
Book of Spirit Communications - Lessons 1-3
Occult Fundamentals - Lessons 1-3
Do all exercises.
Complete Golden Dawn - Learn all primary techniques
# Mantras
Mel ah-en-tul es kuhl (Raziel) – To increase/enhance ones psychic powers
Mesh fa luong tu pron na fo lem (Raziel) – To break free from negative thought loops and purge negative subconscious blocks
Lesh ta pak een lafu tu son (Michael) – To neutralize and repel negative or harmful energy.
# Energy Work
Psi Ball/String
# Visualization
Pentagrams/Archangels
Psi Ball/string
Blue energy bubble
# Meditation
Yellow Candle Meditation:
(Wednesday Orange.)
# Runes
Fire/Spirit Day
Will draw each and meditate on each with their meaning and my distance from the meaning.
# Pentacles
Cool …
# HGD/HGA
Will read Sacred Magic of Abramelin the Mage
Will read other sources for HGD
# Tattwas
Privithi - Draw and meditate on Yellow square. (Earth)
# Polygons
Meditate on the point with no magnitude or direction
# Divination
Past Present Future
XIX The Sun 3 of Wands 8 of Cups (XI/III)
# Petitions
Vehuiah planned for one week from today.
# Invocations
None planned except for perhaps the Spirit of God.
# Evocations
None planned ATM
# Dreamwork
N/A
# Astral Travel
N/A
# Practical Work
Will practice both Silence and NLP
# Psychic Exercises
LG5: 24 incorrect. Really need to use a pendulum for this one.
GTT:
MCM:
# Petitions: Petition to Vehuiah written.
Petitions (Shem, Working)
Petition to Vehuiah written.
Feng Shui moment
Burn Patchouli and Frankincense this next week.
Financial Aid/Opportunity
I am pleasantly surprised by the Green candle meditation the other day.
Muzack
Psychedelic Rock/60;s Soul
Studied Modern MAgick Lesson one, taking notes.
Did all rituals.
Relaxation Ritual
Tarot Contemplation Ritual: Hierophant
Split Hexagram Spread - General
GSI IV The Emperor
LSI II The High Priestess
SA I The Magician
UCD VIII Strength
CD XIV Temperance
PA XI Justice
FO XVI The Tower
ToD ?/?
Split Hexagram Spread - “What will the effect be when I evoke Vehuiah?”
GSI XVII The Star
“Hope and a bright future”
LSI VI The Lovers
“A test which you will pass, a new love”
SA XVI The Tower
“Ruin, catastrophe, disruption”
UCD X Wheel of Fortune
“Good fortune, success, luck”
CD XV The Devil
“Something must happen, but for good in long term”
PA 0 The Fool
“Folly, foolishness, extravagance, mania”
FO II High Priestess
“Science, education, knowledge”
ToD I/VII
Hebrew Alphabet-Gematria-Meaning table
Morning and evening adorations and QC/LBRP/QC done
Too exhausted last night to do any work at all. Didn’t realize such an easy job would be that tiring.
Missed:
Adorations for evening and midnight
Tarot card exercises
Middle Pillar
Evening LBRP
And anything else Im forgetting.
Up since 5:30/6. Fair to good sleep. No dream detail recalled. Was solid sleep and no detail remembered within 30 sec. Notebook and pen were at hand, The dreams were odd, it was like Inside the Actors Studio or a job interview in one. Slept with 7 of Cups underneath pillow.
“Who should not praise thee, O Lord of the Universe,
unto whom there is none like, whose dwelling is in heaven,
and in every virtuous and god-fearing heart.
O God, thou vast one, thou art in all things.
O Nature, thou self from nothing,
For what else should I call thee?
In myself I am nothing, in thee, I am self,
and exist in thy selfhood from eternity.
Live thou in me, and bring me unto that self which is in thee. Amen.”
My altar, my wooden silverware case and a white plastic tablecloth covering you.
You are adorned with five vessels, one three times as high and made of silver,
You four, adorn the corners of the altar, as if you were stations of the universe.
Two Citrine as Altar candles/vessels, One orange, one Green.
My fire cup, which holds petitions burnt and smothered by a handful of iron,
O incense holder of Patchouli and Frankincense over the sigil of AA Michael,
O bay leaf and trick gambling coin from and to the north holds aspiration
O Wand to the south, dagger in the east, and pentacle of Solomon…
Even if I cannot picture you, I can describe you and in so doing I bring you to life.
–Nightside 2022
Listening to Bornless Ritual (Israel Regardie)
Took my unpainted but consecrated Outer Wand of Double Power in left hand, and air dagger in right hand,
Did Adoration to the Lord of the Universe
Did QC – (Invoking Spirit) LRP – QC
Did evening, midnight, morning Liber Resh Vel Helios adorations.
Doing Body Awareness/Relaxation Ritual shortly - Done. Body pain went away. Fourfold breathing came natural.
Doing Middle Pillar shortly. Done. Feel grounded. Did IAO as well in Solar Plexus region.
Card for the Day – IV The Emperor. Eyes see all, and he is safe from all sides, untouchable. He bears an Ankh in his right hand. He holds an orb in his left. Aries. Sight, Order. Brain.
Split Hexagram Spread: “What will work be like tonight?”
GSI: XXI The World
LSI: XII The Hanged Man
SA: VIII Strength
UCD: The Hierophant
CD: IV The Emperor
PA: XIII Death
FO: XVII The Star
ToD: 0 The Fool
A renewal or rebirth is the greater influence, with cosmic consciousness. There is also an element of illumination through self sacrifice. Perhaps I will not have a chance to eat the food after guests partake.
Spiritual;l Advice: Strength - Rise above animal nature/lower self/ruach/nephesh
Hearing and sight, all eyes and ears on customers as I wing it solo tonight.
Change and transformation, perhaps I make a good name for myself. Hope and a bright future as result.
Listening to Regardie “Mantrum” from Golden Dawn Audiotapes in background.
Have located my two pendulums (makeshift, one a cufflink, one a stopwatch chain and plate), and shuffled and stacked minors and separated Curt Card and placed in order with Pages on top, shungite, tourmaline, lapis, and quartz pebbles out (each one corresponds to suit - shungite:wands:fire, tourmaline:earth:pentacles, quarts:air:swords, lapis:water:cups). I can then scan the card stone or stack of courts to try to guess the suit, or flash elemental glyphs in my mind while holding the card in hand.
A productive couple of hours in my opinion.
Listening in the background to GD audiotapes, relaxation.
To finish up Neophyte reading in the RHP books, then onto Zelator.
Still have yet to read the other books on my list.
OAA, Karlsson, Ford are also on the list as well as ### docs.
LG5: 24 incorrect. Impatience leading to guessing is the culprit there. New method: Aces: crown of head sensation: LT: left side sensation, GT right side sensation. Works except close cards like tens, sixes, fives.
Guess the Trump, GTT: 30 incorrect.
MCM:
Passed on MCM today.
Apparently not feeling it right now.
Reading.
Wednesday, 2/2/2022 (10=1) Mercury Orange
Moon Phase: New Moon Aquarius
Current Weather: Cold and Snow, supposed to get up to a couple of feet per usual time of year.
Sleep/Dreams: Fair sleep, no dream recall.
Physical Notes: Sore Back, outer thighs
Mental Notes: Just woke up. Missed Yandex due to getting ready for and getting off to work. Sorry, but I dont play by just their rules, I have my life to lead. Nice of them to consider me, but dont think it will work. Considered calling off for work, due to snow, but dont want to do that. Nightside as my motto, Ive hung out with he bad crowd and saw no future in it, Ive seen the eventual demise of many. Some not so pretty. Spared from homicide scenes, but anyway. I dont get along with a lot of rules simply because I find them stupid or harmful. Ive hung out with various bad people, but dont get a lot out of it, I just have any own view and way of doing things, and live by fear of the state and fear of god. It hasbnt been and won’t be easy a time for me. Others think I have had things handed to me, which is true in the case of cars but nothing else. I will have to work for my license let alone a car on my own, thank you. I also reserve the right to move somewhere else. Which is a likely case. Once my shit is together. And I will have to do this unaided by spirits. I reserve the right to my own magick, views and capabilities, as well as shortcomings and take responsibility for them all. That is Sitra Ahra, that is Nightside.
Card of Day: II High Priestess - Subconsciousness, duplication, repetition.
I would like to make more money however, not to just be out of my debts, but so I can live and feel dignity as a person again, be not harassed by others, to live life the way I want to, to be able to above all and above freedom, to buy books and a shit ton of them, and work as a mage solitary mastering each book in my own private home. Not having others a foot away from my wall. Complete privacy and secrecy.
Shem Angels by category I best saw fit from 72 Angels of Magick
Protection
Sitael
Cahetel
Elediah
Hahaiah
Mebahel
Hakemiah
Keliel
Basic Needs
Yichuiah
Kevekiah
Menadel
Chaamiah
Rehoel
Hahahel
Yelahiah
Commerce
Achaiah
Haaiah
Lacavel
Hachashiah
Nitel
Poiel
Nemamiah
Love-Sex
Yeliel
Lelehel
Yezelel
Lovel
Lehachiah
Eshaliah
Mihel
Will/Esteem
Vehuiah
Pahaliah
Omael
Vesheriah
Aniel
Ariel
Mivahiah
Self-Development
Heziel
Hariel
Nelachel
Netahiah
Riyiyel
Yeyizel
Michel
Education
Mahasiah
Yeretel
Nanael
Harachel
Yahahel
Anuel
Machiel
And the others, but those are more alchemical and purification. Despite the crow caws, I now hear the hawks and birds calling.
LG5: 23 Incorrect.
Cutting it there aside from a divination; as there is too much internal and external distraction (leading to a great number of misses).
QC LIRP QC done
Saw pretty much pitch black but did it anyway.
Invoked Vasiariah.
And sick again. This time flu style symptoms, though the jury is still out on the cause. Last night at work while out for a smoke, I was greeted by what tustve been a couple hundred crows. Deafening at times. Circular patterns. I think they were alarmed about incoming snow.
So at home today and will do meditations and tarot training as the alternative. And call other employers that were in the works.
Shem Angels by category I best saw fit from 72 Angels of Magick
Protection
Sitael
Cahetel
Elediah
Hahaiah
Mebahel
Hakemiah
Keliel
Basic Needs
Yichuiah
Kevekiah
Menadel
Chaamiah
Rehoel
Hahahel
Yelahiah
Commerce
Achaiah
Haaiah
Lacavel
Hachashiah
Nitel
Poiel
Nemamiah
Love-Sex
Yeliel
Lelehel
Yezelel
Lovel
Lehachiah
Eshaliah
Mihel
Will/Esteem
Vehuiah
Pahaliah
Omael
Vesheriah
Aniel
Ariel
Mivahiah
Self-Development
Heziel
Hariel
Nelachel
Netahiah
Riyiyel
Yeyizel
Michel
Education
Mahasiah
Yeretel
Nanael
Harachel
Yahahel
Anuel
Machiel
And the others, but those are more alchemical and purification. Despite the crow caws, I now hear the hawks and birds calling.
LG5: 23 Incorrect.
Cutting it there aside from a divination; as there is too much internal and external distraction (leading to a great number of misses).
QC LIRP QC done
Saw pretty much pitch black but did it anyway.
Invoked Vasiariah.
And sick again. This time flu style symptoms, though the jury is still out on the cause. Last night at work while out for a smoke, I was greeted by what tustve been a couple hundred crows. Deafening at times. Circular patterns. I think they were alarmed about incoming snow.
So at home today and will do meditations and tarot training as the alternative. And call other employers that were in the works.
“Shaddai El Chai, I ask that you lay your hands invisibly upon these consecrated cards of art, to deliver a true and faithful message to the answer I seek: When shifting focus and magick to Shem angels rather than Goetia, will this cause life upheavals, sickness, etc; if so how do I navigate successfully through it?”
GSI: VII The Chariot
LSI: XX Judgement
SA: IX The Hermit
UCD: XIV Temperance
CD: XV The Devil
PA: IV The Emperor
FO: XXI The World
ToD: XVII The Star. BoD: III The Empress
Interpretation: Protection and redemption/renewal/rebirth come through seeking aid of the divine, a light in the darkness. Seek to be that light in the darkness.
Transmutation of energy and material bondage, even evil itself must occur to a long term good, seek order and observe to rule. Rebirth of consciousness will then come.
The gematria of the keys drawn were 110, or 117. One could say if refers to 100 the Most High, and 10, being Malkuth, an association of seven offices laid to Malkuth through the Most High.
Past Present Future
Past - Nine of Swords
Nightmare, torment, regret, sleeplessness, depression, exhaustion.
Present - King of Swords
Energy that is enduring in the element of air, steady force applied.
Future - Queen of Swords
Energy that is enduring and high speed yet solidly planted.
Top of Deck: Four of Pentacles - The man who has all he needs. Sitting on top of the empire.
Stomach is still in knots, empty save black coffee and nicotine which dont help much. Will shift to herbal tea shortly. Have chicken flavored stuffing mix to partake in like crackers to soak up stomach acid.
My niece is heavy on my mind, have reached out to my sister regarding her.
My urge to art is back, as is my urge to complete steps on a project. So Im off to play with ubuntu and python to write a system audit script for hardening the OS and such.
I can, even though networking is nonfunctional on the laptop making it a good secure machine to work on, transfer via external storage devices so IO is not a huge issue.
So theres that that Im off to do.
Had to do it, the cards were screaming at me. 34 incorrect on MCM (Minor Four Major).
And now, a message from the Lord…
The extended version even. When I first listened to this, I figured the usual Pentecostal experience, people doing mid air body flips, people dancing and cartwheeling down the aisle ways.
The drummer and keyboardist are top notch, playing by talent and spirit.
If more contemporary christian bands had any fire in them, they would play like this.
Back off to study.
Wednesday February 2 2022
orange candle meditation
The candle sputters and sways, but is relatively straight, a little soot on the wick, but not much to be alarmed about - it’s not curling it’s mostly staying straight. so the question is on all things orange and pertaining to Mercury.
The line from invocation of Thoth “Hermes Thoth Hermes Mercury Odin by whatever name I call thee thou arte still the same name unto eternity” phrase came to mind; which is then asking the question who is Mercury and what is Mercury’s nature and how do we connect with Mercury on a daily basis?
Paying attention to symbols such as color, name invocation, seeking communication methods.
Things orange … the fruit Orange. traffic cones. caution vests. life jackets. the sun on a certain day. the moon on a certain night. nameless flowers - countless flowers. the hair on someone’s head.
The orange in this …
Okay, maybe its more Citrine, but it has soul.
No dreams recalled. Good sleep.
Lazy day but I’m not scheduled to work, there is a foot or two of snow on the ground.
So drinking tea, coughing all this crap out of my lungs.
The spark, the thrill is gone, or so it feels today.
Yet I stare at my altar, humble as it may be, in the center of my floor, wondering why I am not evoking.
Yet I know there are brighter days ahead in my aspiration, to make it my will.
Did adorations and QC-LBRP-QC.
Card for the day: Emperor. Aries. Brain. Order. Sight. Protection.
BoD … II High Priestess
My mind was brought back to an old episode of Kung For, where blind Master Po asks young Grasshopper what he hears.
So that was my meditation, what do I hear.
My mind was brought back to an old episode of Kung Fu, where blind Master Po asks young Grasshopper what he hears.
So that was my meditation, what do I hear.
On individuality and free will, basic human rights. On the politicking and foolery of some spirits.
Huh … app or page is saying I haven’t updated in a day, so must be having a deja vu moment, I thought I posted this morning.
Did afternoon adorations when on my way to get my check. I get downtown, gt the other bus over to work and grab my check, and ask of they want the shirt and hat back, they say no. Great, one extra polo shirt, will toss the visor.
Get to supermarket and a chshiers holiday was in effect I guess.
I get home and all is well, will cash check that is half my rent, and whine and cry to family and friends to help me out, In the meantime, need to start rancheros or five guys, but they’re not talking to me. So, will call both tomorrow morning and see weekend or weekdays.
So, afternoon adoration done as well as morning, evening adorations and LRP/LRH/MP on the way shortly.
Will start chanting mantras daily, at least 54 times in morning and 54 at night. 108 is some mystical number, time will tell.
Will use LRH in four forms and planetary invoking/banishing.
Try use of Supreme Ritual of Pentagram without Enchain tablets within a defined circle. Will duct tape my martial arts belts together if I must. Will create or buy a triangle.
Going candleless until I can afford them.
Evening adorations, and QC-LBRP-QC done going clockwise around my altar in the center of my room, visualizing each movement or sound echoed in the astral.
How do you open updates?
Updates meaning I didn’t update ny journal in a day according to the bottom right time bar.