Great suggestions and advice all have been given.
You could do all your magick internally via meditation/imagery or Astrally/ Sanctuary.
There is a lot in the above page, it is easy and natural to do as access to Sanctuary is through the eyes of a child- it is through PLAY.
Check the Virtual introduction evening and things to do on a rainy day.
You can access astral temples, soul travel, shapeshift, time travel, scry, perform divination, soul pilot/guide and never be bored again.
Plus you can play with this mostly anywhere, with or without binaural beats/ favourite music. Yes at the bus stop, as a passenger in the car. NOT whilst driving, handling power tools or dangerous equipment.
Luxi, I love the fact your boyfriends super religious parents accept that you can both share a bedroom before marriage. They might accept Meditation and give you peace.
When I was 14, I was experiencing persecution from my RC father. I was a Pagan, and am grateful for Chaos Magic. I took on a glamour as a born again.
All my books were thrown into the dustbin/refuse. Even the non magic ones. I was not even allowed library books unless my dad vetted them. Thankfully he worked Monday to Saturday as he ran a Bookies (Betting Shop). I went to the library to change his books- so I simply found books I knew he would like and that I found interesting. The Almighty if I recall rightly was a very adult book certificate 18 about a man with mistresses who would make the news.
So even though my dad persecuted me, I lost my books and my freedom, it was a temporary thing and ultimately a magical process
This was before the internet (yes, I am that old). My first computer was a ZX81 by local man Sir Clive Sinclair (I lived in a village outside Cambridge).
I magically found books on Christian Mysticism, a beautiful book whose name eludes me. But it talked about Talking to God and Listening to God, by being aware of Nature or Spirit. They even do visualization but its about JC and his life rather than LOA or for manifestation.
Now the fact is I have never seen that book since or found it at Amazon it vanished magically, it enabled me to explain to my dad that meditation was good and Xtian.
I later left home and joined the Royal Air Force, I used music to help me through Basic Training- The Cocteau Twins album ‘Blue Bell Knoll’, and a song by T’Pau “You Give Up”. No option to use magical tools, ritual then. But Internal Magic was possible. I used New Avatar Power during my Trade Training.