Hey,
I’m quite new to the forum as seen in my post count, but thanks for reading anyway. : )
I’ve wanted to perform rituals but my privacy at home is invaded by specific people who happen to be my neighbors. Not exactly next-door neighbors, but people who live closely nearby. To be honest with you I’m not too sure as to where exactly they live, because I haven’t seen their face up close and personal.
The story is, almost 4 years ago in 2011, we moved in to our new house in a new city, new neighborhood. One day my mum and I were walking down the street, when someone kept yelling “Bata! Bata! Bata!” Bata means child, and people often throw that at me to insult my appearance. You see, I’m already 28, but extremely short that my height belongs to a child, but because I’m an adult people would often insult me that way by calling me that name. It really hurts, especially if you’re not doing anything to them yet they already judge you based on how you look.
In fact, I’ve been bullied for so many years now so when someone yells that word directed at someone I automatically know it’s me.
So anyway, I just ignored this kid (who was hiding behind the windows when I passed by) because I was with my mum. But when went home that night I heard him yelling the same words over and over again it really hurt. At first I didn’t pay attention, but as the days went on he kept calling me through the walls. I could hear him through our walls, and because I’m a hot-tempered girl and I get easily offended when someone calls that B word I’d hurl back insulting their looks too. So that queued the kid to know I could hear their voice, so we’d just hurl back and forth insulting each other.
But apparently this kid was so curious about my life, that he ended up accusing me of smuggling drugs to the airport to make money. I didn’t know where that came from, but maybe because he thought I wasn’t regularly going to work he thought I was making my “own” way of making money, and the rumor spread like wildfire. He spread it to his family, it worked me up, because they thought I would use the money to get plastic surgery and be famous. Well, I thought that rumor was ridiculous, so sometimes I just let it slide.
But what irked me the most - and I know some of you might not believe me - is the fact that he can read my thoughts and my actions. I found this out when I was mentally saying some phrase and he lurted it out. I thought it was just some coincidence, but I tested by mentally saying a very difficult phrase and he guessed it again. From then on I can’t do anything private anymore - especially surf the net - because he found out about the sites I was visiting, too. Well it might be no biggie to some people but I felt my privacy was deeply invaded, specially when he also guessed the same sites I was surfing one by one.
And since I’m not really working, I was home most of the time. So that really piqued his curiosity. He thought I was making some money my way, since I was always typing and surfing the net. (Honestly I’m making money online, I have a web business but I don’t tell anyone about this.) And he said outright that he will ‘imitate’ what I’m doing so that he can avoid the possibility of me making more money than him. He was worried that someday I might act ony my revenge since he was bullying me all this time, and he wanted to avoid that possibility of me turning the tables. He’d know the websites I’m visiting, the things I know, and he’d visit them. That really, really irked me inside, because a) I’m a private person so I don’t normally tell anyone my day-to-day business affairs and b) he reads my thoughts and follows my actions without my consent. That is completely outrageous, and whenever I reasoned out everything to him by telling him he can always go to Google to learn anything, and that he doesn’t have any right to peer into anyone’s life especially their neighbor’s without their consent, he’d just call me ugly as a retort and would just repeat what he already knew. This scenario keeps repeating itself over and over it’s making me tired, sick and numb. Like, I’m already used to it but I’m downright sick to my stomach at the situation I’m in. How can anyone be so guiltless insulting someone, then peaking into their personal lives, despite your efforts to tell them to stop? It’s so abusive, I’m SEETHING WITH ANGER right now as I type this.
I really want him to suffer for all the 3+ years of torment he’s been causing me. I’ve wanted to perform a ritual on him, but I can’t because when I’m home he keeps fussing over what I’m doing, he keeps asking me questions on my money-making efforts, he calls me ugly, he hurls at me various insults, and he thinks so highly of himself.
As an alternative to performing a ritual, I thought of hiring a real magician to ‘punish’ him. I know there are for-hire services at BALG, but they’re way out of my reach financially. Despite knowing this, I still want to know their effectiveness. I know that results are not guaranteed, but has anyone used their services and can you tell me about your experience?
Or better yet, if anyone of you (who’s experienced of course) can perform for me, can you please advise.
Sorry Mods if this is the wrong section for my thread. But pls don’t lock it as I’m really looking for help, you can just instead move it somewhere. Thanks everyone.
but I don’t condone putting an innocent animal at risk of a really horrible death, intentional and humane sacrifice is one thing but not through just being careless.