Sorry for the long read for such basic stuff. Just excited and wanted to share.
So I haven’t actually practiced much but some light meditation. I keep reading and reading on this site about evocation and sigil magick, (dream as well, I ordered some guayusa tea) those seem more what I’m looking for. I’ll also say… while I’m looking into this a lot, there’s a part of me that’s still just trying to believe. There’s so much info and helpful people and genuine stories that it’s getting hard not to believe. I have looked at sigils and tried to fully open them but haven’t gotten past just some glowing here or there, or lines disappearing but not entirely and coming back half a second later. My thoughts are scattered and the most random things pop into my head when I try, which is why I need to work on meditating more. Tonight I sat in a dark room, laid a candle out, and just tried to focus on it while genuinely trying to let my thoughts go. Just focus on the candle, if the thought comes it comes and I tell myself it’s not what’s important right now. After around 5minutes I looked down from the candle and gazed at the sigil of Dantalion. It took a bit for my eyes to refocus on it and not have one blue flame like image burned where ever my left eye focused on but I repeated the cycle of focusing on the sigil. At one point the entire thing seemed to glow, and I felt it was time to call out to Dantalion. I didn’t take my opportunity but held on and continued gazing, more intent upon reaching that again. When I felt it was time again the sigil for the first time actually felt 3D and popped off the page for a second, then I called and said that I wish to be more open with my senses and with Dantalion. That I would sleep with the sigil in my pillow and hope that something, either him or some dream I could decipher would come to me. I told him I believed and just needed some more help, a push if you will. I closed by saying he is free to depart, but some company and help is never minded.
Thank you guys for listening.