I know people will probably think im stupid for making this post and roll their at how stupid this sounds
but i honestly feel like im not for this path sometimes
One day i cried for hours telling myself that this path wasn’t worth it and all these “signs” (like seeing the same numbers over and over and being drawn to Lucifer) was just all in my head i legit had a mental breakdown and almost everyday the same thought crosses my head. Am i really worth it? Am i wasting my time? Is this all in my head?
Honestly this has never happened to me before but it all started when i tried to get Lucifer in my dream by putting his sigil under my pillow (it didn’t work) and in no way am i blaming Lucifer even tho i do not know him. I doubt he would do something like this. Maybe this is a parasite im not sure to be honest or maybe this is me being all depressed and silly.
i feel like im gonna regret posting this… oh well