I keep getting asked about an old post of mine regarding how most of my evocation attempts ended in a hostile manner, that the spirits were all inimical to me regardless of my approach, and I am getting too many questions to address them individually. So, trying to keep it brief, I am going to make two posts. The first one will go right to the point and the second will be reserved for annotations and what not, so I beg of you, please let me reserve it. Do not reply if you see I have not made two posts, please!
The solution to my problem was “confidence” (bear with me!) and it can be summarized in three points:
1 .- There was too much trouble in my life and I could not detach emotionally to do magick: Personal frustrations piled up higher the moment I wasn’t giving myself nor the magick operations time to work. My anxiety to see a quick result, or at least an early sign, was what sabotaged the whole ordeal; failure lead to even more doubts.
2 .- I had the wrong mindset, belief is what sets the outcome in a literal manner, and in my case was a nagging feeling of either unworthyness or that I would anger the spirit in question with my petition. A magician supplants the course of nature as he/she see themselves as gods. They play the part of having the utmost authority to bend reality, and I couldn’t see myself like it in this department.
3 .- I made a breakthrough using sources different from the traditional: Going back to my second point, summoning what’s traditionally thought as “angels and demons”, I felt as if I was not prepared nor had the authority to call upon. That is until I remembered a nifty book that had worked for me in the past and the first few successes made me change my point of view.
SO ALL IN ALL THE CRASH-COURSE SOLUTION I PROPOSE IS:
1 .- You need to chill.
Easier said than done but I use Hypericum Perforatum (also know as Saint John’s Wort). It will help you ease your tension. I would avoid narcotics at all costs, even alcohol or smoking, as it puts you through high and lows. Hipericum won’t. Take that and, later on, I’ll show you around where to summon for some inner peace.
2 .- You need to slow down.
You didn’t see the spirit? Did you hear it? Those aren’t the correct questions, your aim should be at solving your stuff, the reason why you evoked in the first place. Did you get the job you wanted? Did that person who was bothering you go away? THAT’S the kind of stuff you need to focus on. This means once you’ve done your ritual, even if you didn’t feel anything special? YOU. MUST. IGNORE. If anything you will repeat the ritual next night for three days straight, at the same hour, until you get what you want.
Everything else will come in time, you do not need to see or hear the spirit first to get what you want, and in time you will see and experience things. It’s like puberty, all has its moment, you can’t be a seven year old and start learning about mortgages and saving money for a second-hand car in college, right? Enjoy your fucking infancy, mate!
3 .- You need to try different stuff.
Goetia being sketchy? Grimorium Verum not concise enough? Book of Abramelin the mage too demanding? Look, put away the chalices and wands, there is no need break the bank in some arts and crafts store. All those things come in handy but, for starters, you do not need them, ok? What is important is YOUR WILL and how you behave afterwards.
When all those usual sources failed me, or should I say failed at them, I found a system that basically tells me from the get go I can do crazy stuff just by the simple fact that I am human. The 50 Names of Marduk is a section of the “infamous” book known as “The Simon Necronomicon”, infamous for the fact that rides the coat tails of Lovecraft’s fiction, but has little to do with it (more or less). It was a publicity stunt that used legitimate Mesopotamic incantations as most of its source, WHAT MATTERS IS that it works - many practitioners can tell you it does.
Why does it work? Because as I said earlier, its system is built upon the idea that Sumerian gods gave/revealed humanity the tools of magick and that there are literally 50 spirits who will rush to help you instantly because of some old alliance. These spirits work with humanity and they do it fast, all you need to do IS DARE.
CONCLUSION: You read what I wrote and you read it good, I’ll be posting soon some exercises you ought to do if you want to be an accomplished magician, ok? It’s very basic but deals with those three points I mentioned earlier, that you need to chill, to slow down and try something else. Once you actually start getting things right it will give you the much needed notion that this works, and that it works BECAUSE OF YOUR WILL.
As I said, don’t post after me as I need to reserve that blank space, I swear I will slice you from armpit to asshole if you do D:
Dedicated to @KingVelizar among others. Please be patient, mates, I’ll get to work on an ordered answer soon.