So, I am a very not disciplined practitioner. I am proficient at sigil work, and I’ve only ever worked with my ancestors and a special Loa as far as spirit work. I consider myself an arm chair magician in that realm.
Anyhoo, the last month or two I haven’t been able to get Raphael and Azazel off my mind. I decided to evoke Raphael first. My dad is in bad health. So the last week or so I’ve been meditating on Raphael, especially while falling asleep. I also ordered a beautiful green quartz pendant with his sigil engraved on it.
I prepared and went about my meditation. I stared at his sigil I had drawn large on a piece of paper. I didn’t get the flashing, but it did begin to kinda move and look 3D. Then I began chanting his name like RAH-FAY-EL, rythmically. I could feel myself in a good state, so I began speaking to him respectfully. I began with thanks, then asked for his help directly, or to help me help my dad, or help my sister help him, so that he can be comfortable and in sound mind for his last years.
At some point I stopped talking and continued my breathing. It was like I felt something lifting my chin, and lifting and lifting and pushing my head backwards. My head kept lifting and moving back until it was fully hanging backwards, and it was like something pulled up and out from the center of my chest. It was almost like a half backbend. And my body felt weightless and numb followed by tingles. I breathed that way for a little while. When the weightless feeling subsided, I slowly brought myself back up to a normal sitting position. I went back to breathing again, and said his name again and asked if I had his permission to allow my dad to wear the pendant. I got flooded with an awesome loving feeling. I don’t cry, and it actually made me cry. I don’t feel loving feelings very often unfortunately.
I took my tears and made a cross on the back of the pendant. Then took some more and made a fingerprint on the paper where I drew the sigil. I didn’t burn it. I put it under my pillow. I have parrots so if I do burn it then it will have to be later away from them.
The center of my chest is sore and funny feeling a little. My neck and back feel great.
I’ve always been very tactile … but not tactile like that. I was really hoping for words to enter my mind. I tried asking a question but got nothing. I’m hoping my senses will improve as I continue to practice. Very interesting . Not what I was expecting.