So about a week ago I had an experience very similar to experiences I’ve had with demonic immersion.
The “normal” scenario is I start having a spirit name running through my head as if it were in a loop. I’ll begin waking up from sleep in this same state and usually before this cycle is complete I will wake up sexually aroused to the point of ridiculous proportions. Often my SO will be in the bed and become almost part of an energetic offering if you will. Not that she is being sacrificed or drained but more along the lines that the energy raised sex becomes fuel for the gnosis that usually follows when this happens.
Often times I don’t even realize at first that my SO is who she is, I’ve literally seen another person/goddess figure there enticing me. Luckily I’ve not accidentally called my lady by the wrong name be it Spirit name or otherwise. Not until I’m in the act do I realize this is the woman I’ve spent several years with instead of the spirit I had running through my head.
I had this happen with Michael last week and the strange thing is this is the first time I had this experience with an Angelic force. The biggest difference was the lust and desire to gratify my self and relish in the debauchery was replaced by complete and total love. As if making love to this spirit was the only way I express the sensations I was feeling. It was almost a sense of devotion involved to the point where I felt this is the best way I can show appreciation for having this spirit in my life.
I’ve had similar experiences but more lust, power or domination focused from Astaroth, Dantalion, Liltith and Lucifer. I felt I wasn’t ready for dealing with Lucifer in my life at this time so I did shy away from that experience. The experience with Lilith was far more of a dark experience. She was definitely there to take control but she took control by putting me in charge of pleasing her. Dealing with her significantly changed how I viewed my own relationships. I had to learn to control and curb my own desires as after working with her I for lack of a better term took her qualities and wished to use people for my own satisfaction and my desires were borderline out of control and often the desire to incorporate violence and domination presented itself.
I shared this last part not to give you the details of how Lilith wanted me to become BDSM participant (not my thing anyway) but to illustrate the drastic difference the experience with Michael had vs the demonic current.
Thought I’d share this since this is a out Michael and it was the most emotional experience I’ve ever had with spirit to date.
Thanks for reading my rant