Hi everyone,
Thought I’d share my experience with evoking the spirit Mepsitahl for the first time, as it was a really interesting experience, especially for a first structured evocation. I started out by concencrating some water -using the method in evoking eternity, and I sprinkled that around the circle and my “temple” (I was in the tgs at this point so I did happen to see the golden-ish light particles purifying the brown murky ones, which looked cool as hell in itself!)
However, I didn’t feel intuitively that the space had been cleansed, so I proceeded to perform the LBRP, which cleared things up quite well. I then began the actual evocation by calling her name followed by a few incantations that I felt were appropriate. I should also mention at this point that I did have incense burning inside the triangle, once I had finished the incantations, the right candle on my altar flicked (like a gust of air hit it) and I felt her materialise in the east (the triangle was in the north since she is a Nepturial spirit), so I politely asked her to re-materialise in the north (whilst simultaneously willing her to materialise there), and eventually she did. The second she appeared in the north, the incense appeared to take a shape on it own (there was no draft in the room either), for the entire evocation it was just kind of messy (smoke just shooting out everywhere), but when she came over to it it became incredibly stable (I could see an evident physical change in the way the smoke was moving, it became really straight and just kept floating upwards to the cealing).
This took me back for a moment (since this was the first time I had seen something like that…) and I just kind of lost my words, so I sat in silence for a few seconds until I felt that she was undeniably looking at me waiting for me to say something. So I appologised at which point I heard a physical laugh, not loud, but almost on the end of the wind if you know what I mean? Like a whisper but softer but still loud enough to make out. So I continued with the ritual and essentially asked her to help me perfect my spiritual faculties, especially, something along the lines of telekinesis (I had always liked TK, and I read that she could potentially teach it in the long run), she said she would happily help with the various faculties but TK was a very long way down the line and that I shouldn’t even attempt it until I had mastered most of the others, which I agreed on.
She told me to explicitly work on perfecting the vision and the voice, mainly through intense scrying opertunities, so I asked her if she would watch me and take me through each stage until I had it perfect, at which point she told me to activate her sigil every time I scryed and take it from there (something about me needing to develop it on my own rather than her spoon feeding me per say lol). We agreed on how to proceed with regard to scrying and I dismissed her. Like before with the incense, when she left (and I could no longer feel her) the structured smoke turned immediately back into wavy, unstructured smoke. It was a great experience, especially since I could see her with my internal senses, so I could consider this a good structured evocation.
When I came out of the circle I felt immediately drained and light headed, to the extent that I had to sit down or I felt like I was going to faint, I assume this was one of two things, either my psychic senses still need more training (and my continuous pushing of them is what’s making me tired) or, this is the “magickal fatigue” EA mentioned in evoking eternity (I believe the latter).