Ejaculation-Emptiness and depression?

Every time I ejaculate I feel like a zombie and the whole day is like just trying to get through it. I know ejaculation is releasing a mans vitality but is it a different energy exchange in actual sex rather than just wasting it and feeling like shit? Retaining my semen makes me feel so alive and happy, when I ejaculate I feel empty and suicidal, any ways to minimize energy loss or negative feelings ?

Pick up a copy of Jason Newcomb’s book Sexual Sorcery. It covers this topic.

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Eat some fruit.

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Yea I thought this too, probably the greatest source of energy for the human body

Thanks

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I don’t know about energy, but you do sound dehydrated. And if you also happen to have a melancholic temperament, that can make you feel like you want to die.

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Sounds about accurate regarding the temperament

I remember I use to feel guilt after doing it, after I started putting the energy to good use (mostly manifestation) it kinda just stopped.

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I try to do that as well , it literally makes life and productivity 5x better, when I get bored it’s a problem especially with high libido, should I just meditate or something ?

Yes, probably sex between 2 people seems more “meaningful”; and, actually, I believe it’s balanced for the reason that there’s an exchange between (for example) male + and female - . These are the polarities traditionally assigned, naturally each one has its important role.

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This is the best video I have found on the harm pornography does, if you use it and find that you feel worse afterwards:

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yea I’m done going solo for the rest of my life fuck feeling like a zombie

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I haven’t watched porn in 3 years , the ppl in that industry are also occultists who siphon energy from people wasting it, I just get bored which leads to myself wasting it but I guess I just gotta find someone to exchange energy with

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You don’t have to exchange energy. As I said above, read some books on sex magick. Masturbation is healthy, and is easily utilised in all sorts of magical operations. Learn to keep your energy internal and cycle it through yourself when you orgasm. You can spill your seed but keep the vitality inherent in it.

Excessive masturbation is where the problems lie. The Taoists designed a certain schedule for a man as he ages so that vitality isn’t lost in obsessive sexual activity. I don’'t know how old you are, but try simply cutting down the amount of time you spend masturbating to only once or twice a week.

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I’m 18, I think mantak chia said 4 day increments for ejaculation , I’m gonna read that book though definitely , the problem is when I do it once I quickly find myself doing it again because my succubus makes it impossible to not get aroused

That sounds like something @Mao would say, lol. Maybe he would like to give further input?

P.S. Not to say that DarkestKnight doesn’t know anything about it, but Mao often goes into that area of training.

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I think he’s refferencing mantak chia’s chart , he says wait 4 days if you’re a teen and in 20s, in your 30s wait 8 days and in 40s, 16 days , and so on in 50s, 30 ish days

I think you need to learn to conserve your energy, and to cycle it properly, as a good magician should. You are essentially giving it all away, and being controlled by your excessive need to masturbate.

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@John_Wick first of all, I’m sorry to hear about what happened to your dog. Those bastards got what they deserved.

Secondly, I believe what Eva and DK said both have merit. One other additional factor I’ve found to help is fitness and supplements. You’re a young guy, so should naturally have higher T levels. But, nutritional deficiencies or poor fitness can impact the things you’re talking about.

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I workout 6x days a week 2 hrs and my t levels are 1000 ng/ dl