I’m Albert, live in Carrollton and am at a point I’m surprised I haven’t claimed my mind lost. After taking out schizophrenia as the main issue I’ve had to accept the rising likelihood that the communication I hear is either psychic or something else. How do I go about figuring out when it is another being, regardless of nature, speaking with me…or well one of the neighbors?
Things that are going on…
- The condition, name unknown, in where sounds in the environment generate familiar sounds in the mind. It’s different than that of schizophrenic auditory hallucinations.
- I have a thing about not being actually/truly submissive to the point of having issues following my own will into causal loops resulting in inaction.
- The Id resides externally & acts/is the conscious aspect of myself. Ego acts as subconscious, I highly suspect I have/am an inverted psyche.
My goal is to find the balance between being in a sane and psychotic state.
I have swayed between states, Sane(Side 1) & Psychotic(Side 2)
This construct is a spectrum, not a state based personality disorder.
Birthed around age 10
Rarely uses psychological primes in mind
Released around age 25
Communicates using psychological primes
Symptoms/Signs of Narcissistic Personality Disorder
::::Questions to Self::::
- Am I the Id or the Superego? I lean toward Id by the activity in my mind.
- Which one is more capable of murder?
- Are the schizophrenic-like auditory occurrences part of the Egos defensive aspect?
- Is the superego responsible for cognitive resonance/dissonance control, analysis, and/or correction?
- Self analysis shows that the Id is present on the outside, in an abnormal position. Isn’t the Ego supposed to be external?
- Id flourished while keeping Ego under house arrest for over 20 years.
- Id & Ego do sync at times
- Id is usually the 2nd in on speak/output in mind
- Ego keeps trying to go over the top in shielding Id
- Find out how to let Ego come out to play more
- Id or Ego must be inside to function, outsider is supposed to act as guard(ian); fulfill its contraries needs.
- I have a suppressed Superego & an Ego with Stockholm Syndrome.
- Id has embraced inaction and patience to have a control on its nature.
- Id and Ego have batted down the Superego together, Ego doing the majority of the task.
- Ego is only 5 years old
I really feel I’m at a point I need a psychologist involved before trying to continue working with the auditory activity, I feel horrible that I could/am having information or interest of some kind made possibly meaningless or obstructed.