I’ve realized that I’m going about my path, and workings the wrong way.
I foolishly have been only focused on money, money, money. Don’t get me wrong I/we my family need money help, but after a lot of reading of others with a lot of experience, I’m going about my pursuit of money all wrong.
A not so brief outline of my path. I’ve only been on this path for about 3 months, so I’m very new to this path. Ever since I began I’ve had a strong feeling of connection, need and desire to work with Lucifer. That said I want to be fully prepared when I ask for Lucifer for his teaching. I do fully believe Lucifer helped me already, I was in need of money to make a decent sized bill and asked Lucifer for help, I asked for help for a few days, on one particular day I was starting to get very desperate and asked Lucifer for financial help. That same night I got home from work around 11pm, I got up the next day and checked a lottery ticket I had bought, I won $1000 exactly what I needed to cover the bill. I was and am so incredibly grateful for the help, I verbally thanked Lucifer that whole day, I was so happy and thankful for the help.
My second experience. More wants of money and help getting what I wanted.
I did a lot of reading about Bune, and so began another newbies journey with Bune. Again in need of more money, I tried the lottery ticket again, with no success. I then turned to asking for help in obtaining a new car which would serve as means to make more money. I asked Bune for help getting the new car the day prior to making the deal with the dealership. The next day the deal was done, I had a new car which in turn net me more money through ride share. I also frequently chant Bune’s Enn while I work and the days/nights chant Bune’s Enn I do very well.
I’ve since resorted back the the lottery ticket, which I’ve now realized is not what I truly want, I don’t want a quick fix, I want a permanent solution to my financial issues, but I have greater desires beyond just financial.
I’m my current, full time job in the aerospace industry, I want to achieve success, power, internal strength, promotions and respect. But I do not want to just ask for those achievements, I want to be guided and educated into my success, I want to learn all there is to learn and more, I want the demon I work with to be proud of me and my success because of their teachings as if I’m their child.
I’ve been suffering a lot of depression lately, a lot brought on myself and I want it too stop, I’ve chased the quick fix and I realize now that was wrong and stupid, now I need to reach out to the demon or demons to educate me and guide me to my goals, not just say, I want to win the lotto please fix all my problems. I want to be taught, I want to learn, I want to succeed and be something that I’m proud of, that my wife and daughter are proud of and I want to rise to great power with my current employer and be a great leader and teacher.
I’m very ADD so one of my big problems is making a decision and staying on that path. From my reading about others experiences there are several suggestion as to who to work with but I due to my ADD can’t seem to make a decision on which demon or demons to work with, but I do have a list of those I want to reach out too and learn from.
As previously stated I’ve felt a big connection to Lucifer every since my first day following this path. Also, King Belial, King Paimon, Bune and Claunek.
Again, I want to be educated, guided, earn what I’m asking for, I want to be reborn into a new me, a new life and learn from one or all of these great demons. I don’t want a hand out like I was previously asking so selfishly for, I want to be be educated and guided towards my success. And most importantly I want to be the husband and father my wife and daughter deserve.
I’m sorry for the long post but I’ve been in a bad funk the last few days but I now know why. So now I’m reaching out for advice as to which demon or demons to ask for help and education.
Thanks to all who took the time to read this incredibly long post.