I find that those times are directly related to my nutrition level and hostility level.
Since I know that stress depletes the adrenals of vitamin C, which has an anti-nutrient effect on everything downstream, the more upset I am with life, the better I take care of myself and as a result, can make more well thought out rituals in succession. And since I’m dissatisfied, as well, it affects everything across the board for me, so doing many brutal baneful/wrathful workings releases the stress and greatly improves my health since I follow up the rituals with monster smoothies; raw eggs, fruit, spinach, protein powder, milk, yoghurt…And far more yoga and meditation.
Then life blows up wonderfully and resets. And I can happily peacefully study for a while until restlessness and poor prioritizing creep in… less gratitude and more dissatisfaction.
Maybe I should re-think this process. It doesn’t sound like a cycle that’s beneficial in the long term. Hmm