Frankly, right now I have decided to put all my energy into contacting Raziel again. I am also filling in the gaps with reading about sigils, but my primary goal is to establish some sort of regular communication/interaction with this angel if I can.
I am using the Tempest and Woodcroft methods. (not at the same time)
I feel like I need to feel him or see him or have him yell at me or something, I am confident he would help me, if he would just show up.
Anyway, i have been doing some dry runs with both methods to kind of get them memorized. Like I took some time to remember what caves I have been in and what waterfalls look and feel like, that kind of thing. I also am trying to memorize the Woodcroft ritual.
I also just finished this sort of short course on withcraft, so instead of doing their Chakra based meditations I will go back to the Cabbalistic Cross, LRP and Middle Pillar. I think that might help too. Raziel ought to like Divine Names being vibrated. I would think invoking the energy of 4 archangels ought to give me a bump in his eyes too.
How badly do I need to get over this notion that Raziel must somehow reveal himself to me. Is that maybe creating a problem. The books are clear, do the ritual, take it for granted the angel heard. maybe I just need to do that, take it for granted, chat him up, and wait for him to figure out how to reveal himself. But I have weak faith, so that is kind of a problem.
Thank you to all for your guidance.