All right, back to work…
I cleansed the deck energetically and then tagged the cards to start the attuning process. Why tag them? I don’t know, ownership? Maybe I read somewhere along the years, maybe not, but it’s what I did.
Next came the calling to Yog-Sothoth, which I kept simple. I could already feel his (its) attention, so I turned mine more towards it, made a connection, and invited him to come and bring me the knowledge and wisdom I sought. I didn’t forcibly call him and was pleased when I felt his partial presence. I made a note to remember to listen to his suggestions.
I shuffled each deck for a while, turning parts around as I felt I should. Eventually, I felt I should stop and deal the cards.
I’ll present like this to help make patterns easier to see.
The first card turned over is the Fate card : Ishtar (r) (XVII - Star).
M(aster): Nyarlathotep (I - Magician)
S(ervant): 3 of Wands
M: Yig (XXI - World)
S: Queen of Cups
M: Shoggoth (VIII - Strength)
S: 8 of Swords (r)
M: Amun (IV - The Emperor)
S: Knight of Disks
M: Cthulhu (r) (XV - The Devil)
S: Queen of Disks (r)
The Fate card, Ishtar (r) actually sent a bit of a shock through the system. I had just been visited by Inanna not long prior to start working with her, in the same way others had - she showed up and highly suggested we start working together. Yog-Sothoth was amused.
I felt him draw closer as I started looking at the given descriptions and pulling out what was most appropriate for Ishtar (r).
Hope delayed, need for patience, an error.
All right. So, this is what will tie the rest of the spread together…
Family Life. The Master is the personal living environment of the individual and considered to be the physical space, whatever that space is - bedroom, house, hotel…
M : Nyarlathotep - (relevant only) attainment, skill, strong will, eloquence, misdirection, manipulation.
S : 3 of Wands - Optimism, good prospects, all according to plan (this was influenced by other plans for me), established enterprise.
Confusing, a bit. The living environment doesn’t have skill or eloquence, but the walls may hide misdirection in bad repair jobs😂.
This was talking about the home environment, obviously, and not the space. Since it’s just me and the family here, these are traits currently displayed at home. I first thought that the traits were speaking only about me, since my job means I have to talk in circles when not in that space (misdirection). I then got the impression that it wasn’t ONLY me. I didn’t get anything else out of that, but it left me wondering. Yog didn’t offer anything useful, but I somehow felt my confusion was appropriate.
Social Life. Background info when the person isn’t at home or work…so…Balg? I’ve been a bit asocial for decades, so I don’t know how well this applies. My social life had consisted of meeting new neighbors on the sidewalk and that had just about been it in the recent past.
M : Yig - Fulfilment, completion, summing up, coming full circle, last thing to be done.
S : Queen of Cups (person) - Mature woman who reflects the personality around her. Avoids those in difficulty or in emotional pain. Superficial interest in others. The servant in this area is supposed to be people that you’re not really close to, but that isn’t my general social style offline. I’d rather have a few close friends than a bunch of acquaintances.
So, the first part, where my social life seems like something I’m thrilled with… I didn’t feel like this applied to Balg, but also didn’t feel like it applied to my neighbors (they seem nice enough but we’re not drinking buddies). I was quite confused with most of it. But “coming full circle” made perfect sense in that we moved back to Maryland and have seen a lot of our old friends several weeks prior. The rest of the descriptions seem more like a finality, which may have applied to my friends in Hawaii I had just left. I felt that it was a stretch and continued to be confused.
Queen of Cups…this could be several people, online and offline, and I couldn’t get anything more out of Yog. He was still amused.
Work Life. Pretty self explanatory. It’s the work environment and the Servant shows future actions of coworkers. Since I had just started in a completely new role and location, I was interested in additional insight.
M : Shoggoth - Indomitable spirit, harnessed force, perseverance, refusal to surrender, defiance, purposefulness.
S : 8 of Swords (r) - Fatal error, temporary bondage, pettiness, ill fortune.
Looking at the environment, this seemed like an overstatement, but all of the toned-down versions are exceptionally accurate. A lot of critical analysis and burnt brain cells at the end of each day. A challenging environment that’s more self-stress than management imposed. (This is still accurate).
But the coworker actions left me wondering who in my new coworkers would act this way? I couldn’t think of who this was (and still haven’t).
Love Life. The Master shows the environment and the Servant the lover or spouse. I felt this also applied to former, future, and those one may a close relationship with that you aren’t romantic with. Hard to describe, but the impression from Yog was more like it also applied to those closer than friends, but not like lovers. Anyways.
M : Amun - Virility, potency, impregnation, creative spark, penetration, determined purpose.
S : Knight of Disks (person) - Young man with prudent and practical attitude, stays the course. Makes excellent use of resources.
All right… I felt like this made sense and didn’t. Both entries. Like there was that annoying feeling that you weren’t putting something together. I.felt it applied, but didn’t, which didn’t make sense.
School Life. This is the area where the mind is exercised and developed. In my opinion, this could be anywhere, since I do this at work and at home, like most.
M : Cthulhu (r) - Malice, betrayal, anger, intimidation of others, deliberate cruelty, forbidden forms of sexuality.
S: Queen of Disks (r) (person) - Mature woman that devotes time to unimportant, repetitious labor. Grumbles about Life, but lacks motivation. Pedestrian outlook. Doesn’t see herself doing great things, so she doesn’t really try.
What the hell am I learning? Again, it was one of those things he where I felt the cards were “right”, but they didn’t seem to fit anything I knew. But the Servant, I did have a few ideas of who that could be, but neither seemed to fit within this category.
The environment didn’t seem to fit at all, unless you’re talking about the spirits I work with. But those relationships are largely established and nothing being learned or worked on fit this, either. I’m largely in learning in trickles while my attention has been on the latest MFWB group and Helios Unbound.
Yog-Sothoth was greatly amused by my trying to figure it out.
So, I went back to the Fate card, Ishtar (r) and tried to make sense of what I was seeing and feeling.
Yog-Sothoth finally decided to provide some insight. When I had read up about him (which I should do again), I’d also read that he supposedly knows all of this about all of the different (current) incarnations of.yoh, for those that subscribe to the multiverse theories out there.
Personally, I’m on the fence and even if I think it’s likely or true, it doesn’t mean it’s actually useful to this version of me. But the impression I got was that I was picking up on those other (supposed) incarnations because I didn’t specify I wanted only knowledge from this one.
So, according to him, all of those applies-but-doesn’t instances where from this and I guess he was bored and wanted a laugh. All right. You got me there. I’ll fix it the next time.