Dear reader: this is but a long entry from a private book of recorded ritual operations and discoveries. It is my sincerest hope that somebody out there may find solace, direction, inspiration, and even empowerment from my records. Hail thyself!
[CENTER]Woe to you that forgot your sacred name:[/CENTER][CENTER]You are liken to a God that has been defaced and left in the desert[/CENTER][CENTER][I]only to be forgotten with the sands of time.
What is this name?[/I][/CENTER][CENTER]It is spelled out between the Πand the Ί,[/CENTER][CENTER]It is what is left after the darkest abyss has consumed,[/CENTER][CENTER]And the brightest of lights has burned away[/CENTER][CENTER]Of all musical notes of eternity It is the unique vibration that you exist. [/CENTER]
[CENTER]Fear not! You are never alone;[/CENTER][CENTER]That sacred sobriquet of yours is within you and around you:[/CENTER][CENTER]Search the lonely deserts and youâll end up looking withinâyouâve looked in the wrong places[/CENTER][CENTER]The winds and crashing oceans gently whisper your nameâyou donât listen closely enough.[/CENTER][CENTER]Your shadow remembers and is forever chained[/CENTER][CENTER]to that Name which is always walks towards eternal Light, [/CENTER][CENTER]but it dare not speak the name[/CENTER][CENTER]Your reflection remembers and is always repeating[/CENTER][CENTER]back to you what It will say and do,[/CENTER][CENTER]but the mime dare not speak the name.[/CENTER][CENTER]
[/CENTER][CENTER]You must see and listen within[/CENTER][CENTER]And from within you will find the Name[/CENTER][CENTER]Then you will become that Name which will cause [/CENTER][CENTER]Gods and Devils alike to take notice. [/CENTER][CENTER]
[/CENTER][CENTER]Grand Magus, take back your birthright: what is thy Name?![/CENTER]
After one particular day [some years ago] after witnessing a solar eclipse outside with friends and after finishing an evocation with the angel ר××××â that evening I looked through the notes and realized, by happy coincidence, mayhaps, I had come across my magickal name. Through the events of that day it had stumbled upon me faster than I had stumbled upon It through years of fruitless searching. I needed a 2-part rebirth and initiation.
Taking off the mask
I placed a large yellow pillar candle and set it on the altar that faced north along with a ritual blade, a mirror, and the youngest picture of me I could find. I picked up my childhood picture and considered my given name that the world knows me by. After a few moments of contemplation I set the picture down, lit the candle, disrobed, and began walking widdershins around and around, repeating my normal name over and over until it seemed as if my name had lost all of its meaning. I then immediately stopped circling and faced the altar.
I pronounced my name backwards around 13 or so times while thinking back to that younger picture and who I was until it felt as if some mask of my former self had been taken off of me. I stopped chanting. I literally was standing there naked but with the old name put aside I felt vulnerable. The next question was who am I underneath the mask?
I began to circle around deasil as I kept asking the question:
"Who is he who bears the name [U]___(Magick Name)___ ?[/U]
And I kept circling deasil asking that as I felt the power building up inside of me. When the power had been built up enough I finally stopped and faced the altar. I said confidently:
It is [b]I[/b] who bears the name _______ !
After a moment of reflection I approached the altar and picked up the dagger.
I would rather cut the tongue in nine before it reveals this sacred name of mine!
And then held up the blade to my mouth in a hush gesture.
Turning my back to the candle I faced the shadow that danced upon the south wall. I point the dagger towards the shadow.
Shadow, remember my name! May those enemies of mine, be they mortals or not, remain in the dark abyss never to discover my name! So be it!
With my other hand I made a hush gesture with my finger.
I then faced the mirror and pointed my dagger at it.
Reflection, remember my name! Those that seek this name without my permission shall only see their own name turned inside out! So be it!
With my other hand I made a hush gesture with my finger.
Finally I turned towards the yellow candle.
Sacred eternal flame, remember my name! As this candle can be blown out, so shall my life in this body be gone one day, when that happens keep thy sacred name alive along with my essence!
I blew the candle out.
The Christening Rebirth
In a lucid dream (although, astral projection would be better) I made my way towards a sacred temple not of the mundane world. Inside this temple was assembled all of my spirit familiars, guides, ancestors, and other spiritual allies I have made over the years.
In the center was to me a mirror image of myself that was the symbolic embodiment of _____ (to others this may come in the form of your H.G.A., an animal, some spirit form, perhaps even the name itself in the stylized form of a sigil ala Osman Spare).
At first I saw my shadow slowly become one with ____, then my mirror image, then my highest spiritual perfect self, and now it was my turn. I merged with _____ and took back my birthright.
My life has not been the same since I done this ritual.
Grand Magus: what is your name?!
