I did my first ritual evocation last evening. I feel a connection to the goddess Isis (who I usually call Aset), so decided to evoke her first. I didnt have a sigil, so I used a statue. The ritual proceeded pretty much in exactly the way EA suggests it to in EE, with some minor modifications, such as I do not drink alcohol, so I used water, changed some wording to make it feel like my own ritual and style of wording, etc. I worked with what I had to work with, basically. It seemed to work.
If I concentrated and cleared my mind, I think I felt a presence, especially after the calling. The calling itself got my heart pounding to some degree, which was unexpected. What was more unexpected was a lot of emotion during the request/tasking. I asked for some healing to be done (and a sign of the success of the ritual), which is apparently in the domain of Isis from what I read, as are many things seemingly. I dont know where the emotion came from. It was as if I was about to burst into tears, but I was not sad, nor upset. This emotion returned in the same fashion during the “dismissal”, which was simply me saying she was free to go after thanking her.
Looking back, I might guess that this emotion was due to an overwhelming presence. Is that shaping the theory, or seeing “what I want to see” when looking back, though?
There was a stark contrast in feeling between just prior to saying goodbye, and directly after. This was the most powerful moment for me, in that it was the most contrasting element of the entire ritual. The energy changed immediately, and even I could feel it (Im usually a dense person, unfortunately). I think this is where I was most convinced there WAS a presence in the room prior, because it was so clear there was such a huge difference in… sensing? feeling? Im not sure exactly what to call it, honestly. But it was distinct.
Not sure if Im making it up or not, but I could feel the residual energy of the spirit. It was not as strong as the original presence.
I also asked, after greeting, who was present with me, in the off chance I might be able to actually communicate with a spirit directly. I did get some imagery that I think may have been external, which was imaginings of old Egypt, and the Nile. Just subtle imagery in the minds eye. I did “sense” some words, but Im skeptical of them, as Im inclined to believe they came from my own mind, rather than as a transmission of sorts from outside myself, because it seemed disjointed, or oddly phrased. Another possibility is that I interpreted the energy of the response poorly, and the translation was what was oddly phrased, or I was just making things up completely, wanting too much for some kind of communication.
I saw no evidence whatsoever of physical manifestation. Nothing occurred that I could detect, which was disappointing but mostly expected. Ive never seen anything “paranormal” in my entire life; it would be completely outside of my realm of experience to witness anything like it. Dont get me wrong, Im open to it… but its never happened before. I have no point of reference to expect it to happen.
The whole thing was interesting, and I felt good after I did it, in that I accomplished something. But Im waiting for results at this point, or a sign or something. The results would be very obvious; I asked for total relief of tinnitus and all the underlying damage/dysfunction/disease etc that caused it to be remedied, so there will be no question whether this was a success, or failure. I dont know if I asked the right entity for this, but it seemed like it could have been a good match, so I tried. I got no impression I was asking the wrong thing, though, and it all felt right… as right as a very first evocation can, I guess, with it all being completely new.
Im probably missing some things… it was like 90 minutes or something, the whole process, not including set up. I just took my time on everything, putting as much feeling and energy into it as I could muster.
So where do I go from here? Just wait? How long? Evoke other entities for other stuff? Not sure what I should do next. Im kind of in a limbo of uncertainty, not knowing if it actually worked yet, or will work, or if Im just wanting it to work and its all my own delusion.
Advice, suggestions, questions, welcomed.