I’m distressed and in urgent need of some wise insight from this community.
As some of you might have noticed, I published a couple of posts here trying to make sure of how safe it can be working with spirits for greater wealth, such as Lucifuge, Belphegor, Mammon and Clauneck.
To summarise, I’m experienced but due to some trauma I went through I became anxious and paranoid about hurting my beloved family as a side effect.
Well, most of the kind answers I got were very sensible, reassuring that as long as we give clear directions to the spirits in regards to where wealth comes from, have streams from where money might flow and clearly state to the demons who we don’t want to be harmed, it should be OK (which is also my belief anyway).
I did some evocation to Bune, Orobas, Seere, Clauneck and Mammon a week or so ago, all spirits with whom I had worked previously with no trouble.
I was reading on Lucifuge and Belphegor and starting some light inner dialogue with the latter, trying to know him better before attempting anything. Then I started to sense some movement anytime Belphegor came to mind, like small results appearing. Clients ringing in, 3 scratch tickets with 5£ prize in a row, small stuff like that.
Curious, I sent a comment to S. Connolly asking her similar questions on how safe it would be to work with Belphegor, because I loved her ritual with him. She was very kind and gave me a similar answer to the ones I got here (I attach it below) . I was excited to start as soon as I calmed myself and ready to let go of my stupid, crippling fear that has been cramping my style for years. I didn’t actually do any work with Belphegor or Lucifuge though.
And then out of nowhere, my beloved mum, that I adore above everything, had a minor heart attack and had to be rushed to hospital. She seems to be recovering OK but she had never been sick before, so I’m perfectly terrified.
She was very lucky that it happened in public and near the hospital. I can’t imagine what could have happened if she were alone.
Now I’m devastated and filled with doubt.
Did my fears cause this?
Did the spirits do it? Was it the ritual? Was it my “meditation” with Belphegor (I didn’t properly meditate, I kind of had an informal mental conversation with him while running errands)?
Or did whatever spirits involved actually try to help by making sure that she was assisted in time?
I was so ready to let go of fear and fight for my dreams but now I feel crushed.
Please help me make some sense of all this.
Thank you all.