So this may sound strange but I am wondering if there are others who have had this happen.
When I received my copy of “Black Magick of Ahriman” I felt power in the book from the moment I first held it, but on a day I had to work I brought it with me to read on the bus, that is where I get a bit of reading done. Now I can’t feel power from it. I saw that someone used the “Rites of consintration” from the book to give it more power so I did as well still nothing.
As I was leaving with the book the first time a thought popped into my head that said “don’t bring it”. So when I when first started doing magick I did not know enough or have the strength to understand what was happening to me and I got into a bit of trouble so I over time learned to not believe the first thing that popped into my head as a “demon trying to contact me” so I thought nothing of it and went about my day.
I don’t know if I really messed up or if it in my head, any advice would be awesome.