Diary of stable, responsible and wholesome lifestyle choices


#521

I just want to take a moment to thank Marquis Leraje for just everything (for, like the 100th time?).
You did far more for me than I even realized (because I am obviously stupid). You prevented something really ugly and now a lot you’ve said and done makes even more sense.
I have no fucking clue how I could ever repay your service (except for the fee we discussed and agreed to the other day but now it seems like way too little) but I promise to get better, somehow. I will try to ask the right questions from the start now.


#522

A healthy relationship to ones parents is determined by their willingness to send you one of your coffins to your current home without any questions being raised.


#523

You can’t let go, you cultivate disease
And that’s okay, 'cause I’m sick just like you

#524

Mood


#525

I just gave away a new stone as an offering and “thank you” gift to Marquis Leraje.
I’ll take the candle flame running riot in response as “seen”.
Thank you,man. Like, really.


#526

I know, I know.
But don’t give me that weird look, okay?
Someone has to practice, somehow.


#527

Dream log:
last night I was able to transform a black and muddy pulp into clear and fresh water.


#528

Yesterday I could hear light scratches on my altar, like fingernails going over the wooden surface.
When I took a look to investigate further there was a very pleasant smell all of a sudden, like fresh and clean clothes mixed with mint and a hint of a powdery note.


#529

Todays mood


#530

Dear diary, today I saw a man tuning a potato.
Thats it.
:potato:


#531

Last night I slept very little. It seems that some energy from my session with King Zagan decided to make itself comfortable in my system. I didn’t felt bad, though. I could marvel at the sunrise, and what a beautiful one it was.
I feel really good for some reason.


#532

:fire::fire:


#533

After todays training session I had the gnawing urge to consume all the strawberries in the world.
But one bowl did the trick, til now.
The after - cravings of energy work are surprising me each and every time.


#534

Dear you,
thank you for the flowers,today.
It really made my day.
:rose:


#535

The Silver Chain Has Broken
Goals and Dreams Fufill
With Emptiness and Instinct
With Impurity and Will

#536

I hosted a little soiree with Marquis Leraje and Duchess Bune (Bune always appears as a woman to me when she is visiting, so please don’t take offense if its something different for you :slight_smile: ). I wanted to appreciate her visits with that and give a signal that she is a welcomed guest in my house.
It was a pretty little evening.
My dream log showed me this:
It was early morning and I found myself in the middle of the city I’m currently residing at.
I decided to take the train into different areas and searched for a ticket machine (yes, I pay the fucking ticket machine even in my dreams). I found one, a really really old model and I wondered why on earth this dinosaur would be placed between all the current mordern machines.
I tried to buy a ticket and paid four bucks (I guess) but no ticket would plop out. Instead not only my money, but all the machines money and a huge amount of extra cash would fall out from the machine as clinking silvery coins. It wouldn’t stop so I just placed my backpack underneath the ticket machine to collect them all. I never got my ticket but I went shopping after that.
Thank you, Duchess Bune. Talking about starting the day with a smile.


#537

Au dessus des capitales,
Des idées fatales
Regardent l’océan.

#538

I dreamt about being visited by Baal in my office. He transformed itself into a huge red spider, “hiding” under my desk in order to be not seen by my coworkers.Because a huge red spider is the epitome of discretion.


#539

And these last days I’ve let so much of me away;
But you will always be a mystery to me.
I know that nothing touches you;
Nothing has or ever will.
Like that moon you’re high and far away
:bow_and_arrow:

#540

Yesterday I decided to “map” out the insights and answers and questions I received so far on this road.
Maybe I will be able to receive a new kind of “epiphany” when I straight out visualise what happened and what has been done so far.
I don’t like loose ends.