Hi, I’m MJim and have been in the occult for less than 5 months. I bought Robert Bruce’s course to raise kundalini (to gain clairvoyance) but in a desperate attempt to raise it, I impulsively invoked Tanin’iver and Taninsam. I did not know the full consequences before diving into this and was very naive going into it. I gave them my blood and have been feeling the effects of the kundalini so far. I’ve felt burning chi when I was high and it was so bad that I had to quit smoking altogether. Every night I wake up with chi being blasted up my system during sleep paralysis and can’t go 2 hours without waking up. An experienced occultist told me that these entities set up the alchemical process so that it can’t be reversed which really left me in despair.
This experienced occultist actually went through kundalini awakening and had to endure a few years of turmoil where he had to basically learn how to live with this horrible pain. He told me to quit all my practices like meditation and grounding so that the kundalini will eventually cool down. Thing is though that by barely focusing on the breath or concentrating for a long time, it arouses the kundalini and starts sending chi up to my third eye or crown chakra. I actually don’t know what to do anymore. I would consider suicide but I love my family dearly and would not want to do that to them.
With that said, I was wondering if there are some experienced occultist here that could give me advice.