Gosh relatable. My ex abused my daughters but dragged me through court 3 year with all his scum friends and top barristers, got his name cleared, (i had noone supporting me legally or finacially or morrally either) and threw all the blame on me and dragged me through emotional trauma and suffered from him/them and left being victimised and targeted by authorities like a criminal… Aside a sick rapist is walking free and protected by a currupt system the pain and bleakness me and my daughters went through because we were made out to be as mental and liars to discredit us and ostracised and even now controlled by the same orginisation that supported him in court… its really messed up. They nearly drove me to the edge, but somehow i never had the guts to put on a full on death spell. What is holding me back? Kindness to humanity? Well amnt i human too? Its almost like they are not letting me too. When i want to get something done i find it so difficult and so heavy to do it. Now im reconsidering and recollecting my energy but feel weakend and dont know if the will/intent ratio is coherent in this case (i think e.a. mentioned in one of his videos about having will/intent fully aligened so to speak when doing such a spell… to really want it…). I could do with all the help i can get too, because i think the issue is all too close to me, all i ever thought the universe itself would definately do something in the end (even after waiting over a decade )over such injustice, but looks like i gotta do /sway/ intent it myself? Does that make me a ‘bad’ person, ‘black’ magician, ‘baneful’ magic. (I can see you dont suffer from 'old fasioned way of guilty concious/being some sort of saint and victim mentality, -and that is commendable, but where does one draw the line not to get back bad karma etc ) (but they have sent very baneful magick towards me in the past too anyway) , and justice and balance is important and it gotta be done. Also maybe this might not make sense, but i dont take non baneful magic lightly to either especially when its passive and not there in time of need. Unfortunately i dont know the perfect balance for the world because im not god (or am i lol) but whatever i do from now onwards (especially deciding to divulge in the baneful type, is to keep balance and order not for blatant self satisfaction destroying - but i also expect from the universe the same in return, no karma returns etc if i have suffered in silence unfairly more than enough). Idk idk. Ive given up on justice in the court system…Im so tired of fighting an unfair fight. I hope magick will give me a second chance at life. And justice be done. - For me and you both.