Well I kmow it’s not 3am, anc actually it was almost an hour ago, the only time I had free, and I had to drive to a vacant park. I spoke the words written to summon a daughter of Lilith.
I had been writing my letter for the past three days. I’m out at the park, my anxiety, and mind as usual working against me… I look up the phrase, I continued to say it. I struck my match to light the candle, strike again, only to realize, I was striking the wrong end. I flip it around. There is a strong breeze, blowing the match out, I pull another match out. Light, blown out.
“Fine, three.” the three erupts, and the candld is lit, but sadly the candle doesn’t stay lit, I’m trying to shield it from the wind and was able to lite my letter, and spoke the second set of words. And placed the letter in my proof bowl to burn away, as I watched I pondered what it would be like to have a constant companion, Lover, muse, and most importantly a friend.
I had to pull some of the unburned paper out to relight, and place it into the bowl.
Afterwards, I tried to meditate, but once again the candle kept blowing out, again, move it. It’s out again. Moved it to the ground near a piller. And it kept going. Played some theta and gamma meditation music, and felt a stinging sensation on my shoulder. Thinking, ubi, or Maleficent spirit, making it hard to concentrate. Discovered it was actally a mosquito bite. Decided to wrap it up, and scatter the ashes to the wind, and went home.
