Hello everyone, & thank you for taking the time to open my thread!!
I’ve been going through a lot lately.
I’ve been forced out of the place I use to live, & relocated to another state (I live in the United States) earlier than I wished.
During the process of gathering whatever belongings I could fit into my truck that night, I gave a courtesy message to a group of people I loosely called friends, about what was happening, & that I had to leave so that way there was no confusion as to where I was or why my family, & I were no longer home.
(Long story short they used to be just like family to me, but had crossed some SERIOUS lines last year, that I never truly forgave them for, but did try & move past)
Then one of the guys in the group chat, had implied HEAVILY that my mother was neglectful of my youngest brother because Everytime he went over to hang out with his little brother, my little brother was hungry.
But we were raised in a Jewish household, to us, eating at someone’s house is a sign of respect, & said guy has known this for as long as he knew me, & was always over my house a few years back, & always seen that we had food stocked in the fridge, freezer, & pantry.
I blocked him shortly after, & yesterday asked a friend of ours that’s in our SMS group chat to make a new one without me, because it was A.) Evident I wasn’t wanted in the chat (which is fine with me I’m not complaining I’m just pointing it out), & B.) I didn’t really want to be apart of it anymore, especially after that. Knowing them, a good portion of the group was most likely bad mouthing me behind my back, & ever since my spiritual awakening, & finding myself practicing Magick, & connecting with spirits (both demons & angels, God’s, & Goddesses alike) I have become a MUCH happier person, & don’t have room for drama in my life.
Earlier tonight I seen in the group chat that I was being mocked like we were all still in highschool, & it was just an overwhelming feeling of toxicity.
I was disgusted.
We are all in our 20’s, & this is the childish response I get for wanting to distance myself from the baggage??
I blocked the numbers, & profiles on social medias of the people that were toxic.
The point of this is, I’m a much happier person without them, & it took so long for me to realize that even though I called them my friends, & I have some of the best memories of friendship with them…In the long run they were bad for me. Their egos mutated into something so unrecognizable to the guys I knew, & truly cared for back in the day.
If you’ve got people in your life that are doing the same thing, don’t hesitate to get rid of them. It can be really hard to do, & you may try & keep hope that things will get better with them, but if they’re truly bringing you down, you deserve better. Sometimes the face the greets you with kindness in one hand has a knife in the other.
If you’ve made it too the end of this, then thank you for reading this!!