I have the current two goals of
- Making physical changes with ease (and to practice this I’m using the devil gene on myself for beauty stuff)
- Getting my ex back, eventually. (Although I’m almost positive further pursuing of this goal in my current state might not do much)
Sometimes I feel like I have no idea what I’m doing. Just earlier my heart chakra freaked out and it’s in massive pain for no reason I can discern rn, all I know is that it’s painful and no amount of energy work is shutting it up. The energy is volatile, and spirits I’ve called aren’t cutting it. The chakra feels hot, and it’s probably got something to do with my ex. I don’t know. I feel unremarkable emotionally, so I don’t know why it’s doing this.
I did what I could, but for now it feels like I’m just waiting. I want to do something. I’m tired of feeling like I’m just sitting around making no progress.
I want some change. I want to grow. I need a path.
It’s fucking agonizing to sit with myself sometimes because of how little my life actually budges for me. I’ve been able to achieve mostly everything without those two goals as an exception.