This post is mainly to discuss the concept of dependency on magick.
my roommate (sister) ended up finding my spiritual notes. This caused a big ruckus and now a lot of my plans are being thrown off a bit. I managed to negotiate, and have a little time to get my stuff together, which is a much better experience than just straight booted and homeless (which ive been at before)
Now, while it is tempting to act on my insecurities and fears of the situation, and start hapharzardly evoking and requesting assistance left and right; I feel it would be disempowering in a way.
If one has conquered a more dire situation than one is currently in, is it more beneficial to solve the problem singlehandedly once more, or is it more beneficial to call high and low for help from outside of you?
I try to ask objectively, because i feel my own predisposition towards not wanting help may be clouding my thought process. (Tryingtobreakoldpatterns.jpg)
And when people actually do help me, i feel like I’m endebted and i hate being endebted to things. Its one of the main reasons i cast off traditional religions very early on. My goal is to not be under anyone’s control but my own. (It may sound a bit adolescent, but I am deeply, deeply, antiestablishment.)
I guess part of the discussion could also have to do with how did yall end up growing into your magickal identity as you grew more devoted to the Work?
Is it normal (lolwut) to not want to be a ‘crisis caster’? I dont really give a damn about material things, i want to trade ideas with completely different beings.
I dont want to ‘hire’ a spirit to solve my stuff for me, I just want a little spiritual company as I stumble along the way, ya know?
But then again, maybe I’m too busy looking for external verification, or approval of myself(maybe from myself?) That I’m basically writing essays to answer true/false questions