You may have read some of my previous posts that mentioned a haunting in one of my former homes and that I swear the entity in my home was possessing me without my consent because I would feel off then suddenly my behavior would turn violent, I would break furniture, put my fist thru glass coffee tables, and started drinking alcohol every night which was NOT common of me.
I am usually very calm, down to earth and the smell of alcohol gags me yet I was downing entire bottles of liquor or 17 cans of beer a night until I was so wasted I literally blocked out most of that entire 2 year time frame and this “thing” was tempting me into doing very dark rituals that centered around a black mirror which it also tempted me to make, because I did not have the desires to engage in dark rituals and magick until this thing overcame me. Before that time, I thought the idea sounded cool but was going thru my wiccan/pagan phase and was too afraid to do evocation and darker stuff.
Like I said, those 2 years are still a BIG blur to me, still trying to put the pieces together but I do remember some things and I know that after I felt like this thing possessed me and lead me to create a black mirror and I started doing stuff like that, it was like this things power over me doubled and I found it near impossible to escape its influence.
During this time, I also went from having OCPD and ADD which I have been dealing with since I was young to suddenly being labeled with like 6 different mental disorders Bipolar, Borderline PD, Antisocial PD, Anxiety, ADD, and OCPD out of nowhere. When the entity finally left me and I was up for re-evaluation from my psych doctor she thought the original guy that diagnosed me just made a huge mistake because suddenly all of those symptoms vanished and she said nope, you just have ADD and are a little obsessive as usual.
Well, I took several photos of the house during the times when I felt like I was not alone and the energy in the air was tight, creepy, and hard to breathe. Most of those photos were lost. My computer crashed back then before I was able to transfer all of my photos to a backup drive or disc, but I found one of those photos that somehow made it onto my current hard drive, just one but take a look. See the circled area, this thing appeared in the photo in the reflection of a street light that was shining thru the window that night. I took the photo in darkness which is why it’s so grainy plus back then, I only had a crappy 7 megapixel camera.
What does this look like? Someone I know enlarged the photo even further and enhanced the color so I could see it better. But I can clearly see a mouth, teeth, an enormous nose but only one eye. It looks like where the other eye should be (left side) like there is a 2nd mini face growing out of its head instead. Whatever this is, it looks just as creepy as it made everyone feel.
Enlarged and enhanced Pic
This pic (below) was taken right after one of my possessed violent fits. I just got done smashing a bookshelf to pieces, even was told that I cut myself pretty badly too but I just sat there like I was un-phased by it. My ex-hubby said he was asking me “What do you have to say for yourself? Look at this fucking mess you made and you broke the bookshelf goddamnit!” and he said I just stared at him like this, not saying a word, not blinking an eye, completely void of emotion so he snapped this pic of me and he said when the flash went off, I still did not blink an eye.
This was back in 2009 but some recent findings have me curious to find out the truth, to figure out what happened during those 2 years when I blacked out my memories. Must have been bad if I blocked it all out, because memory blocking is like a type of PTSD defense mechanism isn’t it? But every photo I just found of myself buried deep in my hard drive that was taken of me during those 2 years, I look like this. Void, empty and freakin psychotic. I thought I lost every photo from those 2 years but I discovered a folder with these which was labeled as “StrangeYears”.