You said so yourself - you did that with intention and effort:
And something came:
Banishing didn’t work meaning it wasn’t an uninvited parasite, and it has the hallmarks of a succubus:
To get rid of a succubus you would ideally repeat the Letter of Intent asking Lilith to take her away.
She is probably still around by the senses we have as kids tend to fade from lack of practice and general disbelief. My feeling is she is.
I pulled a Quareia Deck oracle card and got “Occultist” - that’s you, I believe, meaning you did use magick successfully and you are indeed struggling with the outcome a bit.
Since she is there, and you clearly have the potential to be a great mage, she can help you redevelop astral communication skills to sense her again. Succupedia’s posts which you can see all of from his profile page include info about working with succubi for self development.
She’s right there, so talk to her as if she’s with you even though you can’t hear an answer now, and ask her to help you perceive her.
The Occultist card includes with a general bit of advice about being a young mage looking to use magick to manipulate rather than grow, a fork in the path if you will, but also hints that the path is not always smooth, as you have found, but very interesting and worthwhile from the self development perspective. It’s the only way to include that deep work to know yourself at every level, from physical through psychological to the inner worlds.
You can also start practicing ways to develop your psychic senses on your own. We have a bunch of free tutorials here, and there are great books and youtube videos to help as well…
The getting started guide with all forum orientation stuff, links to tutorials and popular megathreads are here: GETTING STARTED GUIDE, Rules, Notables, Tutorials and References. The links in that megathread are forum-made tutorials for things like spiritual hygiene, developing your astral senses and avoiding impostors and parasites… When you can be sure you’ll not get attacked by parasites, then try Unofficial Tutorials: First Contact from Sigils to Evocation Collection.
After that, I think you should stick around! Please do let us have your Introduction HERE [ ← click me! ], which we need per the forum rules and see our posting guidelines in the FAQ.
Points to cover:
- Do you have any practical experience in magick? * If so, what exactly do you practice and how long have you practiced? * Do you follow any specific system or tradition? * What are your areas of interest?
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