So recently I decided to work with Thalos from KoF using the method of channeling and writing the information down without analyzing or filtering as EA describes in Mastering Evocation.
I know I have some personal weaknesses, limiting behaviors and attitudes relating to events in my childhood but instead of pushing them aside like I have done for a long time I have been trying to allow them to come up into my conscious mind to deal with them and ultimately let them go and transcend them. This hasn’t been easy or pleasant but necessary for the next stage of my ascent.
My question was in regard to Astral Projection and why I have a hard time leaving my body.
His reply was this;
“You show no interest. Things need to be clarified. Understand the output has the rapid disintegration of apathy. Come around to a better place of reference. Annihilate your disposition”.
“Can’t be bothered. Reap nothing. Crap. Holy shit”.
“Blow away these absurd notions. Apathy is anti-existence!”
So, err…a little embarrassing, but you know, if I don’t admit it, I can’t fix it. And funnily enough, looking back through my formative years I can recall the exact moments in time when these limiting beliefs and apathetic attitudes were formed. Hindsight’s a bitch!