Not really into cursing so I was pretty quiet in this part of the forum. Recently I had reason to “express” myself in an adverse way towards my target. This basically was nothing too extravagant just a litany of invocations seeking aid to empower my goal, then raising and channeling my rage at a target and envisioning their demise, whatever that’s not why I’m here. A couple of months ago I created a servitor that was designed to absorb my anger and rage and act as a storage device pretty much for the instance vaguely described earlier. I’m not saying it that I never got mad again, but I was and am in alot more control of myself due to it. With this working I tapped the servitor and had it help fuel my goal.
After the spell was over I felt like I had gone a couple of rounds and was ran ragged and poisoned . Along with the negative psychological aspects as well. It took alot of grounding just to get back to a normal state so to speak. My question is: is this the only fuel source that is best used for this line of spell work? I literally felt like crap for the rest of the night and the workings I did prior to sleep led to some disturbing something is watching me type of side affects. Actually that is kind of lingering still come to think of it. I’m wondering if I can still operate baneful type workings from a detached emotional state without using that energy source?