I woke up with my arm close to explode,felt so much pressure,so much pressure that i woke up and instantly got off from the bed and started to walk in my house,fuck,this pressure was insane
all this insanity started in 2014 and i had the sleep problem in 2014 too,where i had difficult to sleep for more than 30 days,specially at night because the activities in my house were so much and i couldnt sleep,spiritual activities i mean…
when i first saw a spirit manifsted,in this same day when i went to sleep after the college i lost the control of my mind for like 15 or 20 minutes,then a infinity symbolism started to pop in my head like a acelerated video ( but believe me,i tried to control but nothing happened ),i felt a touch in my both legs as i suspect that i was having a problem in the pressure of blood ( which was not normal as i am very young ) after that,this problem was over…
the spirit in question were Samael,he came and gave me his personal sigil,then started to dump all this symbolism in my head and for the first time in life i was able to feel how bad it is when we cannot control the things that are happening in our mind and i felt so fucking lost.
i know that i probably said it in some post,but he tried to give me a symbolism that is too big to be painted,obvious i was not able to draw it,then he showed again but the same problem happened,the symbol is too big and i cannot draw it,now i suspect that he is basically saying ( find a way to do that,i need you to do that )
because if he tried 2 times,it is because he need something from me and now you ask ( why dont you ask directly to him ben ?
have you ever spoke with him? for sure he is not the kind that talk but he wil for sure dump a zilion symbolism in your mind but i have no idea what he was doing,i believe that i was iniciated by him as he was the first spirit that i saw manfested and also the first personal sigil that was given to me.
i am explaining everything because maybe someone have passed for something similar and believe me i tried to understand the whole situation but i was able to only find one part of the conclusion that i was initiated by him
so this pressure in the arm and the lack of sleep first started in 2014 and now its back,well it happened once again…
aside of that,all good,job is going good,nothing to complain
job that Belial helped me
the weird thing is that i feel that Samael and Belial are not friends
judging by the symbolism that i saw ( which of course i am not 100% sure ) but judging by the symbolism and the whole situation,something weird happened
sorry for the text too much things in the head =0
thanks for all responses