Hey! I’m sorry to read this; I’ve been there to.
I’ll try to give you my opinion, as I am away from home at the moment, so I am unable to give you a reading.
An important note: these days I feel very attached to Belial, I feel his influence, in part of my answers and attitudes towards problems, so I apologize in advance if my response may sound impetuous or overly direct. My goal here is to shake you to the core and let you think from a different prospective.
From here we can already both understand where your problem lies
and here too
Here I feel like saying that you should do something, not for “you-couple”, but for you-individual.
Clearly she has her head elsewhere; she has changed perhalps.
"In a couple, you always row in two, if one stops rowing, don’t take his oar in desperation, and don’t try to make the boat go all by yourself "
Don’t try to carry on a relationship alone, it will wear you down and give you the illusion that everything is okay. It can turn you into a will-less husk, and it will keep going until the world falls on you, when your partner leaves you forever, or worse, when you find out that they are cheating for a long time.
Are you sure? Do you really love her like the first time? Are you able to forgive 100% of the time? Or is it because you have children with her? Are you afraid of the judgment of others if the situation between you two changes?
Try to rationalize this for a second, you don’t need to answer me or anyone else. Answer yourself, in total and absolute sincerity.
I am writing to you how I could write to myself 6 years ago: I was not on the verge of divorce, I was not married, but I had the distinct feeling of finding myself in a relationship of self-denial , and there is nothing more wrong than this.
You always come first (I have no children, so I don’t know how the priority scale can change in the future), your health, your well-being and your serenity.
I tell you what I would do:
Bring up the conversation one last time, communicate your mood, express your concerns; open up 100% with her, ask her for the truth, even if it can hurt.
If she pushes you away, if she ignores you, then you know very well what you have to do.
Obviously I’m giving you an opinion based on the few lines you wrote here; I am aware that a relationship between two people cannot be summed up so easily.
For the spiritual side ,I find Belial quite useful for dealing with all the blocks that have been appearing in front of me lately, so I would recommend that you contact and work with him for a while.
Good luck man, I cheer for you!
