I appreciate the help you guys have all given me, but I have come to the realization that putting a curse on her goes completely against what I an trying to accomplish on my spiritual journey.
Sometimes we get so caught up in researching and studying to become more powerful magickians that we lose sight of the reason we began practicing in the first place.
Even though I didn’t know before, there was something deep inside of me that I had locked away through fear, pain, and hatred.
But no matter how much you repress something, the powers of the universe and of the beings who reside there can see right through you, and so they came forth of their own volition. In one night, they sent me through a journey of what seemed like weeks where I was forced to face the aspects of myself and the world that terrified me beyond anything I could ever imagine, and then ripped out the truth of who I am to show me my true potential.
My true purpose through magick is to expand my consciousness through self-improvement, and then to use the knowledge I gain to help others realize their own personal truth.
My stepmother is not a bad person – she is lost soul. She has given up on life. She is suffering on an existential level and clinging to toxic energy to avoid facing the pain of her reality.
Why would I put a curse on her JUST so that I can get her to annoy me less?
In order to continue on my path, I MUST NOT STRAY FROM MY PURPOSE. I cannot allow myself to fall back into old habits just because they are easier.
Instead, I will spend each day meditating on opening up a channel of positive, healing energy that will, through time, fill her body with so much light that the toxicity, with no room to manifest, will be forced out of her.
I am on this earth to expand my mind and guide others to unlocking their true potential, and I will be damned if I allow the very emotions that blocked my magickal ability to slither their way back into my heart.
(I’m not saying that baneful magick, curses, etc. are wrong or bad – I’m simply saying that these magickal practices are going to lead me astray and halt my progression at this specific time of my life.
Do not mistake my words to imply that other magickians shouldn’t partake in curses, nor do I believe the practice in and of itself is going to hinder anyone from advancing.
Everyone has their own journey, and must listen to their intuition to understand what they must do or avoid to achieve their goals. For many, baneful magick and curses are a crucial step towards their spiritual ascent. I just wanted to add this disclaimer to make sure no one gets the idea that I have anything against this type of magick)
I wanted to share this revelation of mine because I always benefit from reading the POV’s of other people because it causes me to think of concepts I wouldn’t have originally considered.