I believe it’s a group here in the city, and they probably have felt me.
No I never was involved with any of this at all. I did practise a form of chi kung/ kungfu; wich did work, powerful stuff; and the teacher has been accused of female unfriendly, some happenings in the school concerning rape; maybe that’s were the energy imprint of this comes from. I quit the school a while ago though, and don’t practise this style anymore.
The chi kung was pretty powerfull though; a zen style; and even a woman sneered at me once; “it’s zen, isn’t it??”. I’m like what?
No break ups or divorce. Ironically, my dad died 3 years ago, and I sacrificed my freedom of living by myself, to rent an appartment with my mom, to catch up for her loss.
No. I did have a type of sun burn, with skin peeling off at the back of the neck.
I do have a patron deity; he came to interfere with my practise of chikung/ kugfu years back; and showed me ‘the proper way’; he rooted me, alligned me with the dan tian (energy point below the navel - it’s standard practise in Chinese martial arts). He has sticked with me ever since; he looked down very much upon my first chikung teacher, and I basically dropped out the school as everything was like child’s play as to compared what this Deity showed me.
I met a daoist master 10 years ago in Malaysia, with whom I experienced a full live tiger next to me, in colour. A type of totem I guess.
It’s him I visited last year, to have clearance on the matter of my Deity, and for protection, they told me it was a privilege to have been seeked out, and he linked me to him in an official way. I have his name and direction, he has a complete black face.
Ever since coming back though; I can hardly practise, he did came 2 or 3 times; cleaned me up; but my mind is scattered from all this stuff, I can hardly keep the connection these days.
Yes, I believe so. I feel it’s a whole group here, really, and I have a ghost like thing around me; smelling like sage; cooling my head; but it does not allow for free will; it dictates my choice of music (I love death metal - it starts stinking for example instead of sage), it tries to ‘illuminate’ my mind, giving me a different perspective over woman n general, looking at them as very healing, wich is not bad, in fact, I love woman, but I do not agree with the forcing on me, it’s in my head, enters my nostrils at night; perfume smell all around me, sometimes literral ‘pussy’ smell (excuse my french) ; and it basically dictates my life. I refuse to be brainwashed like this, I love woman; and my ‘dark’ side. My deity basically said “the middle road - one rule; virtue”. I love swords for example; have a beautiful combat ready katana, razor sharp; expensive, and it even dictates me with stench if I even just marvel at it. Same with violent video games.
Basically; I refuse to give in, making matters worse.
Crazy enough, the more white everything get’s, the more I crave the darkness, that’s why I believe a part of me is being taken; and I’m being brainwashed.
I woke up this week, to actual female like opera singing in the middle of the night, I couldn’t believe it.