BRUTUS: In all honesty the real dilemma is not spiritual at all - its moral, and humanity is responsible for initiating morals.
From a purely Nonphysical, broader perspective - again I say, it is those of us who chose to incarnate into physical expression that are “in charge”. This includes the choices, modifications & changes of mind we experience as we move through our lives. That’s part of our free will. We are freedom seeking beings to the core of us. We are MEANT to be!
So, from this perspective, what about that “handicapped” person putting themselves in the path of a healer? Could it not be said that they have decided they are finished with that experience and seeking to end it? Or a different scenario: could it be they entered into life to BE healed, thus validating for many the principle & veracity of Healing? Look at the millions of people afraid to believe a fact until it is “proven” - justified, explained & thoroughly debated!
So I return to a point I often make: If you feel deeply drawn or compelled to do a thing, stop the endless practice of second-guessing yourself and do it. You have a Heart and a Mind and a Will that is unique to You alone. And what is rare is valuable, yes?
Why is it so very hard for us to accept that we are exactly as we ought be, want exactly what we ought want - that there’s not anything “wrong” with us that needs fixing? Nothing horrible to repent, nothing lacking to apologize for …
RELAX! Appreciate the magnificent Being you are & intended to be when you decided to come here! Z