It is no mystery to us that the past few months have been highly unusual. Although, I refrain from using the term unprecedented, as history seems to repeat itself. [See “A Visual History of Pandemics”](https://www.weforum.org/agenda/2020/03/a-visual-history-of-pandemics/)
What is a mystery to us, is the abnormal energy that seems to have coupled itself with this pandemic, as is apparent by some of the recent posts on this forum. I believe this to be a reaction of our collective consciousness being forced to engage in near solitary confinement.
For me, personally, this confinement has made me highly aware of all the cracks in our program.
No, you read that right. I said program. I have a tendency not to keep things brief, but I will try my best while explaining how I recently was able to momentarily break out of this program (the “Matrix”).
Over the past few years, I’ve gone through a spiritual journey of breaking down societal-made walls (or are they?) and rebuilding myself through meditation, divination, shadow work and exercising my third eye.
By doing so, I’ve gained abilities I never even thought possible. I’ve developed the use of my clair senses, particularly clairvoyance, clairaudience, and channeling. I am very private about these abilities, but I they often spill out unknowingly, and without meaning to use them. This has either:
(1) fascinated people, and contributed to establishing meaningful friendships in life,
(2) frightened people, who literally run away from me, or;
(3) cause people to act out in jealous and spiteful ways
Although this journey has largely been very self fulfilling and healing, it has also been a crushing solitary process, causing a division between me and society.
I do not fall into any one group of political, religious, or esoteric belief system, as I have begun to see them all as one collective system. This is solitary in itself.
Additionally, this new consciousness has interrupted the life path I was originally working towards (I work in the legal field and have one year left of law school to complete before i get my J.D. and take the bar exam).
I’ve been met with many blocks and boundaries while going down this path (i.e. sexual harassment from legal employers, threats and attacks from a few of my fellow students, and obsessive compulsive behavior of others wanting to use me as an oracle type object.
Although I am very good at what I do, I am constantly being interrupted at every corner to keep me from doing it. I have since come to the decision that I am not meant to be a lawyer. What’s even more interesting is how the program seems to echo this decision:
In both my career and academics, I’m to engage in the analysis of philosophical, historical and legal debates. But something strange has been occurring during these debates…
This is going to sound weird, but… people literally break when I raise a legitimate challenge to deep rooted legal rules and philosophy. For example, disproving something as a logical fallacy, or discovering the existence of circular reasoning behind a “well-known fact”:
I’ll turn a theory on its head and the person I’m debating with literally stops; they just stare motionless, almost like their frozen. Sometimes this response is paired with a creepy smile. Then after a few moments of this they just move on…as if we were never even talking, or they switch topics to something completely different.
The more I press the issue, the more unaware they become to the fact that we were even speaking.
This is just one example of the defects I have discovered which has led me down the path of researching Simulation Theory. I recommend researching it, if you are unfamiliar with the topic. [See “Is Our World a Simulation? Why Some Scientists say it’s More Likely than Not”](https://www.theguardian.com/technology/2016/oct/11/simulated-world-elon-musk-the-matrix)
::My Momentary Exit of the Matrix::
Two nights ago, Wednesday 3/25/20 I was able to peek behind the curtain, while engaging in an activity known to activate the third eye. (For the purposes of the rules of this forum, I will leave it at that.)
While in my living room, I began to see huge gaps in the walls of my home, and in the space around me. These gaps looked like glitching electrical black holes. Inside these black holes were an infrared code that was generating and computing at a very fast rate.
I then became highly aware of the program itself, as well as every aspect in life that proves simulation theory. This all came at one, like a download or great awakening. It nearly almost painful, but I couldn’t help but laugh at the absurdity of it all.
I then began to feel another presence, as well as hear voices which I could not tell if they were coming from my subconscious or if I was actually hearing them. These voices were discussing what to do with me.
“She’s waking up - what do we do next?”
Part of me felt like it was best to pretend to “not be awake” but I pressed on and began to communicate telepathically with these voices demanding to be let out of this simulation. Nothing was resolved, and so I went to bed while meditating on this experience.
The next day, (3/26/20) went on as usual. I meditated on my experience occasionally - but continued my usual quarantine “work-from-home” schedule. I did discuss this experience with a few close friends, who I was shocked to learn they also gave credit to simulation theory, and did not think I was crazy.
I became very exhausted around 8 p.m., which is odd since I am normally awake at all odd hours of the night. So after much fighting, I gave into an earlier bedtime and dreamed my usual descriptively unusual dreams…
Before I awoke this morning, (3/27/20) I saw a huge purple iris. It was electric lilac and was both frightening and beautiful at the same time. I’ve never seen anything like it lasted for only a moment, and went away as soon as I opened my eyes.
I do not know what it was, but I feel like it belonged to one of the beings I was in telepathic communication with, two nights ago. What’s more curious to me is while I write this now, I have begun to hear a deafening low-vibrational sound that is vibrating through my ears and into my entire body.
I believe I am going through some sort of expansion and realization. I do not know what will happen next, but I am curious as to whether or not anyone else is experiencing anything like this, or if anyone has any further insight on this topic.
I look forward to discussing this with you all.