Because you might start to touch your client inapropriately while you do it, or maybe because the Hierophant will wink and pull back his robe to reveal he’s wearing the cutest garterbelt you’ve ever seen on an old man .
Kidding, but I say that on the basis of what’s happened to me while under the effect of alcohol, and why it is one of the reasons I am against the use of drugs in esoteric works.
I am against the use of drugs under any circumstances, even outside the occult, because I am afraid that the current lack of acceptance from the general public prevents safe and measured usage, because I am afraid of adiction and, mostly, because I’ve seen some serious shit with the least amount of alcohol that caused such an impression I felt I was having a minor cardiac arrest.
So, trying to be brief:
- Too many risks:
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Addiction: If it becomes a frequent habit the body will increase its tolerance as a natural reaction. I am glad and envious for those who can handle it, but if I cannot handle putting down the god damn fork much less I will try my luck with that.
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Adverse reactions: AKA “holy fuck I just found out I am allergic to this stuff and I am way too shitfaced to call an ambulance besides the fact that the phone has fangs right now”. That and because one must always consider any ailments running in the family. Wouldn’t it be a nasty surprise to find out your heart cannot handle this strees?
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Risk of mental breakdown: Without wishing to stirr a debate here and talking from my limited experience but pharmacologically subtstantiated research, some drugs worsen pre-existing mental conditions. I am sure that we, people with a modicum of higher perception than others, suffer a depression far deeply than any other normal person. Imagine that but under the symptoms of withdrawal.
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Social exclusion: Nothing worse than your explanations falling on deaf ears. Sure, you might experience far greater results than the usual, but try telling that to a spouse / significant other / family member under all those “drug war” scares. Needless to say word gets around and while for you it is a controlled experience, for your short-sighted employer might be not, imagine how worse could things get when you justify the use and he goes “oh great he’s a Satanist now too”.
Never underestimate the power of ignorant people in great numbers or in a position of superiority.
- Supply and dependability: Whatever the poison of your choice you must keep in mind that you cannot just go to Walgreen’s and restock. It takes a special kind of person to grant you access, and that person can (and statistically WILL) run into legal problems, problems that can be managed with an agreement with the appropriate authorities.
The last thing you want is your dealer ratting you out in hopes for a shorter sentence. I don’t imply that you are doing bad things, I am not here to judge, but you surely have been way too friendly and loosened your lips around such characters considering that the whole business depends on mutual trust. In my time, when I studied Criminology at Uni, we learned that people tend to reveal personal information between criminal associates because, in a way, alleviated the pressure, allowed bonding and established an unspoken rule.
This unspoken rule, my friends, is what allowed Renaissance-era Italian thieves to thrive and establish the idea of criminal guilds that we find today in fiction. Every new member had to confess their own crimes as well listen to the ones of his comrades, thusly guaranteeing loyalty, because had one of them gone to the authorities, the remaining members could team and report the rogue member for all of his misdeeds.
In other words: If you’ve got a dealer and he knows about your stuff? It is a liability. Don’t allow yourself to live with lose ends, and take that however you want.
On the other hand it is only consequencial that drug dealers run into all sorts of risks tied to their profession (and by extension, to violence). Not having to deal with the dealer (pardon the pun) reduces your own chances of running into trouble.
As a personal account, I had a shifty friend in high school, who while he was a nice person to be around was also involved in all sorts of trouble. He was not the most wealthy person I know so when one day he showed up on my door with a racing motorcycle I understood something bad was going on. He asked shelter of me, a few hours to hide himself from pursuers (legal and otherwise) and a few days to actually hide the vehicle.
I obliged but he was gone, with the bike thankfully, in under thirty minutes yet not before telling me his story: Apparently he had stolen the bike from a rival dealer who had assaulted him some time earlier. I heard sometime after he had demanded money from the first dealer and that upon denial he set it on fire.
Yeah, fun times, right? D:
- No reliable information regarding dosage and safety:
Most of the things we hear are over-inflated stories about people who destroyed their lives, the risks and a run down of treatments and stuff.
And on the other hand, most drug users are not seeking to enhance their ESP skills but rather have a good time.
The panorama is set upon thrill seeking and altered states of mind that render the user a passive agent. You go through the experience, you do not control it as it would be a drug prescription or a treatment.
What I wish to convey is that no one tells you “take x amount to get into a useful trance and don’t go over it or you’ll be shitfaced”.
And of course, whenever you make the question, you’re taken for a weakling who is trying to white wash his interest under a legitimate purpose (AKA “no guys I swear I am doing it for research”). It takes a select community to reach these answers, and sadly, this is easier said than done.