To foreshadow this post a bit, I have to first off say thank you Belial. You, have been knockin at my door for a while now, and opened it at just the right time. I was confused at first because I was thinking Belial was going to be too difficult of a challenge for me to undergo, and really the time for me to truly experience him is beyond amazing. He is with me now, i feel his presence thru my entire body. I had a truly unfuckingbeliebable experience last night. Just 24 hours ago. Definately excited to hear where that goes.
So ill go back two nights ago. When i was alone in my room i was trying (really trying) to communicate with Azazel because apon meditating on his sigil and doing what i can to meet him on my astral plain, He sits there watching not talkingā¦ just waiting back in the shadows, for the last month or longer.
As he sits there watching and all you do is look into the eyes of obsidian fire glazing into your being. In that moment you know in your every atom, to trust the unique power those obsidian eyes of smoldering flame, let yourself sink into the blackflame smoldering in the infernal darkness, allow its infernal power to seep into you, and drink from its rivers of infernal knowledge burning the undesirable, and then simplt allowing power to ride through you.
Even when life started to get boring or rough, you know when you truly look into the eyes of Azazel, sitting quietly, his eyes will tell you He chose you. Looking inside the black eyes that watch and know of all things to become and that were. The infinite, everything that we can preceive possible to be expanded apon in our human bodies. Though the realms these eyes hold and seem endless, there is more there than we can possibly preceive if and When the growth occurs and accention is activated we will grow into our godhood. Activating this stage swings the gates of knowledge open. But there is moreā¦ more room for growth, always?everevolving. As the cycles of destruction lead to new creation, new knowledge you experience pain and suffering, but its so fucking beautiful, because when im going through a difficult time i see the beauty of knowing this is the only way new growth occurs the old and weak die in misery.
I feel as if i could go on and on for days with thisā¦ its difficult to write as i dont think ive ever recieved so many messages at once. Thank you to Azazel. And thank you Belial for connecting the bridge. Your presence is welcome in this body. In this space, always welcome and always appreciated on a deep level unexplainable in a human language.
I chose Azazel as my first Demonic god to intentially make contact with(around the time i joined this forum.) Maybe a little before, seems like a long time ago.
Anyway i knew i was āsupposedā to work with Belial first but ill aways be a rebel at heart and do things on my own time when and if feel never based on anything anyone else saidā¦ i make my own opinon ill walk my own path based on what i choose to agree or disagree withā¦
Anywayā¦ when i made contact with Belial finially, after much magnetic poll, he said to me (2 days ago) " tomorrow your going to be in a situation that is life or death i will have to keep on my toes and keep my wits about me if i wish to survive" ā¦ i found this message very direct and to the point, and somewhat unbelievable reallyā¦ still i took it to heart ass was very important. Same voice that kept telling me my mom would die.
i live in a small town where bad shit really never happens and you dont generally have to worry about a whole lot. But you know human beings? Shit happens.
So yesturday i was running to the bank at night after closing the gas station. On foot of course i walk everywhere. Funny thing was my whole day had been much slower than. And i we made less than we normally do, so my deposite was at an all time low since working there. Had a little over 2 grand on me but most days im dropping 3 and 5ā¦ anyway i walk by the darkest most secluded part of the walk between the station and the bank. Someone shouts āHeyā in a male voice unrecognized behind me and i turn around saying āwhats up?ā In a really pissy tone. I hate talking to people when im doing stuff like dropping off my companys money to the bank.
As i turn around to see who the fuck is talking to me. This fuckin guy has a black bandana on his face, black beanieā¦ i was suprised as i was not really thinking that voice in my head the day before was gonna truely manifest but i was definately paying attention and watching all day. So this fuckin dude in his costume gets in my face saying āGive me the money homie!ā āWhat"i replied as my adrenaline kicked in"Give me the money homieā he repeated. āHey no problem man, i dont want any trouble, its yoursā i opened my backpack and gave him the zippered envolope with the money inside. Looked down at his hands and saw his hand clenching a knife near my stomache. "Dont call cops, dont say anything about this.ā Told the dude i wouldnt and he told me"go sit on those steps over thereā¦ i obviously gained his trust cause he turned awayfrom me for a second as he opening the envolope. So i just ran off as he looked away, Called cops, contacted my local friendsā¦ pretry sure i figured out who he is and where he lives. Gotta love knowing people and having everyone on your sideā¦ feels good. So yeah this is the talk of the town right now. So nuts. I saw the look in the guys eyes, he could care less if he stabbed me for that money. He could care less if he killed me. So anyway for my personal amusement and the fact that i simply dont put up with being stalked, not to mention held up with a knife and robbed, and even though i definately have the upperhand and will destroy his entire life for fuckin with me. No mercy, no remorse,worse than death punishment. Fuckin this dude is already going downno matter what but oh im gonna have some fun with this one
If anyone else wants in on this pm me.
But yeah sorry if this is long and messy. Will clean up if need be later.
Just wanted to share what happened the first time i contacted Belial with the intention of allowing his teaching into my life. Is good. I feel the energy so intensly from him.
Really interested in the black alchemy of Belial. To unlease all potential within human nature. Become the god of our own experence.
Thank you Azazel and Thank you Belial!
thank you. I was told at the beginning i needed to drive with the cash or get a ride, but wasnt always possible until i got ths go ahead to use the van. I know the CEO is an apathetic jackass, his attitude towards my friend who had the stroke at work was actually one of the things that drew me to this job. 
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. After talking to mr.CEO yesturday requesting my night shift back he was a total dick about it. Im glad his money got stolen. Not that 2 grand is shit to him but the motherfucker deserves some repercussions for his behavior and attitude towards his employees.