(TLDR at the bottom)
In my workings with Belial, I’ve been using sexual energy and sexual favors for him in general. Since we’ve started working together, I’ve noticed that my sexual activity has become more intense.
On top of being easier to arouse, reaching climax now takes sonewhere from an hour to two hours. And even when I finish, I’m not satisfied until I’ve done it another two or three more times, sometimes with no breaks in between. Orgasms in general are also more intense, especially when chanting Belial’s enn or just calling his name in bed. This is both when we have sex, whenever I’m having sex with another male entity and when I’m masturbating.
So earlier, I’m lying in bed and Belial shows up and already I’m hot and bothered. He demands that I don’t touch myself at all and for him to do all of the work.
He touches my entire body in all the right ways which has me melting (figuratively speaking of course). The longer it went on, the more I wanted him to make me cum. At the same time, I noticed he refused to go further, even slowing down and randomly pausing.
At that point, graphic erotic images are flashing before me. I felt like a man who hadn’t jerked off in weeks. I started begging, but Belial told me that I would orgasm when he saw fit.
After a while of me writhing with agony and him refusing to give into my needs (and clearly enjoying it), he said: “The more you resist, the more intense your results are.”
It took me a moment to realize he wasn’t just talking about sex, but magick in general. As in, resisting the thing you crave most no matter how much you desperately want it makes your results all the more satisfying. It also increases your “endurance” in magick, though he didn’t tell me what he meant by that.
Belial wanted me to share this on the forum in hopes that people will take this lesson to heart.
TLDR - Working with Belial has greatly increased my sex drive and he decided to cockblock me to teach me a lesson in manifestation during rituals in general.