For quite a few months I was invested completely into the occult to the exclusion of everything else. Not only that but I’ve had various issues that caused me to constantly disassociate and be unable to maintain connections or communicate with people. I’ve sorted through a lot of the psychological and energy blocks that were causing this and it’s far easier to stay grounded now. I’ve been getting back out into the world, meeting people, all of the normal bullshit.
But even after a month of this, it still feels pointless. I don’t see anything out in the world worth connecting to or engaging with. It’s unstimulating and underwhelming. Is this something that improves over time or is this just who I am now?