What’s up everyone! Nice to see BALG still alive and going strong!
I’m in a little dilemma. From 2019-2021, my practice was phenomenal. Stuff was manifesting like crazy, life was amazing, top of the mountain. Even during Covid my family business made so much money it was stupid ridiculous. Ave Bune for that. 
2022-present, fell off the mountain and still rolling hitting trees and stumps along the way. I took a break for a full year in 2025, but before then in 2024 all I was seeing was triple and quadruple numbers constantly. 111.222,333 1111, etc. literally like all day and I couldn’t figure out what anything was pointing too.
So coming back January of 2026, I began my practice again and nothing has been the same. I even went back to Koetting’s evocation, black magick and divination courses. Starting at the very beginning with the basics. Nothing seems to hit like it did before. It’s like everything just stopped working for me.
Divination on tarot seems to be decent, but that’s about it. I don’t dream anymore, my magical imagination is zip and workings feel empty despite multiple attempts at them and not casting doubts or fears. I actually forget about them. Then I go back to my journal as if today and workings I did November-December 2025 have yet to show any signs of manifesting.
It’s weird. It’s not like I don’t have avenues for the spirits to work. I have multiple avenues for money, love, etc but nothing. What do you guys think?
It’s nice to be back on and I’ve been reading all the cool information that’s been posted from the time I’ve been gone.
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Welcome back! Sorry you’re having a hard time.
I usually do with the Angel Number interpretations on those and seeing them in clusters is kind of like having your own personal cheerleader line up, rooting for you and saying you’re on the right track just keep going. It’s the 555 (“big changes”) over and over again that’s the scary one imo.
I know I had a break at one point a few years ago, of several months, and it felt like I’d lost it when I tried to evoke again, but what I was getting was more like, my memory of the old evocations was more intense than they really are - it’s very subtle and easy to doubt, you write in you grimoire “Azazel said xyz” but the actual experience is all interpretations of sixth sense impressions. It takes a minute to get your confidence back. Don’t know if that’s what’s happening here but it bothered me for a bit back then.
For those you could try a divination to see what the blocker is?
Hope it gets easier from here on out 
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Thank you so much for the reply! Yes it’s great to be back! Thank you! And nice to see how everyone is growing in their paths and how artistic everyone is!
Maybe it is a confidence thing like you said. A part of me is confident but with everything just suddenly halting, I am slowly starting to doubt and I know that’s a big no no in our practice.
I don’t know what it was before but yeah I was super confident in my abilities, knew what I was going to do, had so much fun doing it and was a bit of an asshole too back then and nothing bothered me because I knew the infernal had my back
Maybe as I’m older now I’m wiser, but more stressed, other life factors and traumas going on and maybe my line of thinking changed lol.
I did do current tarot readings a few times to make sure things were good and that I didn’t offend any pantheons but my tarot has all been positive at least. I’m still practicing and trying to keep my head held high. But man it’s rough when nothing seems to manifest and before in a day things would manifest like nothing. Again thank you very much for your reply 
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I recently listened to a glitchbottle podcast interview with Frater Ashen Chassan. He talked about one of his friends (I think his name was Ben not sure) who is an amazing scryer/magician with magickal abilities who was normally able to contact spirit, have different magickal experiences etc. He said that he randomly stopped having experiences one year and that it was a very trying time. He would do his rituals, etc and would experience literally nothing. It got to the point where he was in a lot of distress–going from a lot of success to absolutely nothing. But he kept it up–the daily rituals, everything he normally did for a year until things started back up again. I think his commitment and perseverance during that drought ultimately did a lot for him and his practice from my understanding. The other thing that comes to mind is Jason Miller and his suggestion to give offerings. He said when his students started doing daily offerings (which could be seen as passive magick) they said their magick/spells seemed to take off.
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Thank you so much for your reply. That’s pretty much how I’m feeling. Or trying to hide it despite those feelings coming up when I’m done with a work. I’ve also been giving daily offerings as well every morning before work. I just did a tarot reading on myself and I pulled the hanged man to my question of being blocked. So perhaps it’s being stuck in these feelings that is hindering me. But it seems like something indeed is hindering me. The solution to this was the pulling of the 8 of wands. Gonna go now and dissect these two cards and see what resonates with me. Thank you again so much for your reply and telling me about the podcast. I’ll see if I can find it and listen myself to it.
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Thank you so much for your reply. That’s pretty much how I’m feeling. Or trying to hide it despite those feelings coming up when I’m done with a work. I’ve also been giving daily offerings as well every morning before work. I just did a tarot reading on myself and I pulled the hanged man to my question of being blocked. So perhaps it’s being stuck in these feelings that is hindering me. But it seems like something indeed is hindering me. The solution to this was the pulling of the 8 of wands. Gonna go now and dissect these two cards and see what resonates with me. Thank you again so much for your reply and telling me about the podcast. I’ll see if I can find it and listen myself to it.
Updated 8:37pm 4/6/26 seems like this is my answer.
I tried to go back to the glitchbottle podcast and couldn’t find the spot where he talks about it but it’s worth trying to find that episode because he goes a little more into detail about how that one year drought ultimately added to Ben’s practice but I went on another podcast where he’s being interviewed and found it. He talks about it for a few minutes starting at 51:00
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I appreciate it very much! Thank you!
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Perhaps a magickal Dark Night of the Soul?
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Possible. If it is, this has been going on for almost three years. I’m going to as said by many, to surrender and let go and be one with the darkness. I’ve rode many many storms in my 40 years on this earth. I’ll ride this one as well.
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This sounds pretty crappy. When I stop doing anything with magick and come back to it, it usually sucks for a while, but it seems like this has been going on for a while. You mentioned stress, and stress definitely screws everything up. It might be that things have just changed, and that you need to come at it from a new direction. Maybe try something different so that way you aren’t comparing it to what happened before. Then, even if it doesn’t work like it used to, it isn’t as depressing, since you have less to compare it to. I wish I could help more.
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Your words have actually helped a lot! Thank you! You are absolutely right about change. I’m right now learning a new pantheon, reading two new books and applying that knowledge to my rites.
I have noticed since posting last, letting go of my worries, stress and other desires etc has actually manifested some positive outcomes. So maybe I’m worried about energies more than I think I am. I tell my conscious not to worry, but my subconscious is actually stressing.
But I am trying to continue just in a different direction as you said. If anything new surfaces I will update this post. Thank you again very much for your words! They helped me out a lot!
Oh, I’m so glad! Good luck!
