4:00 meditation done.
Did my breathing exercises along with binaural.
Spoke with Azazel.
Me:Azazel?
Azazel: Hello.
Azazel: Are you enjoying yourself?
Me: Yes.
Azazel: Good…Good…you are becoming worthy.
4:00 meditation done.
Did my breathing exercises along with binaural.
Spoke with Azazel.
Me:Azazel?
Azazel: Hello.
Azazel: Are you enjoying yourself?
Me: Yes.
Azazel: Good…Good…you are becoming worthy.
06AUG22 Day1 (Med 129)
31min silence
Been slacking, but now I’m back at it. Performed LBRP. Performed fire breathing. Sat in silence for remainder. At one point I thought of taking down a brick wall to a door for some reason. Heard, Felt, and saw nothing of note.
08AUG22 Day1 (Med 130)
42min trance/listening/feeling
Performed LBRP. Stared at candle til trance then closed eyes. Listened to the room I was in then tried expanding to listen outside. Listened to the air unit outside for a while and then pushed to the crickets at the edge of the woods. Tried going further, but couldn’t really sense/hear more. At one point, in deep concentration a winged bird fluttered down and landed at the window outside (not sure if real or other as this is at night and I kept my eyes closed trying to concentrate. Also 2nd time this has happened) After, opened eyes and tried feeling energy between hands. It’s weird I always feel swirl a little at the tips then it travels down 1 of my index fingers, though it doesn’t seem to favor a hand but change everytime. After, tried to feel a large metal challenge coin in front of me. Also weirdish. Felt a coldish sensation with my right hand. My left hand, I felt the coldish sensation too, but the word sharp went through my mind at the same time? (didn’t feel sharp as i didn’t touch it and the coin has smooth sides anyways. The word sharp just kinda flashed) Didn’t seem to progress any further on any front so called it for the day.
Since July, I’ve been meditating on my chakras a lot. I vibrated the simple mantras as I focused on their respective chakras. My goal: 10 mantra repetitions for each chakra. I struggled with maintaining my energy visualizations but it’s Magick so I don’t care.
Log 130
16.09.2022.
05 min Blue Ray meditation
10 min AY EEM MA TA AH
Log 131
18.09.2022.
10 min Blue Ray
10 min HEH EE LAH AH EE EH
10 min MEL AH EN TUL ES KUHL
10 min AY EEM MA TA AH
Log 5:
Sept 25 Sun '22
Meditated for over an hour with small breaks in between.
Listened to Chinnamasta Gayatri mantra cuz that felt like a good choice. Then the namakam out of habit.
Was interesting.
Hands kept getting energized and I had to move them around and let the energy do what it wanted.
At one point I layed them face up on my thighs letting the energy flow, and then at another point it was as if there was a heavy sort of presence pushing down on them and in front of me. A pressure of some sort.
Early in the meditation I could feel some part of me wanting to laugh spontaneously as some kind of release.
Towards the end a form of agression seemed to move through my body and demeanor before dissipating.
Overall it helped dispell a lot of tension I’ve been dealing with.
Really need to get back into the habit solidly.
Log 6:
Sep 26 '22 Mon
45? Mins
Nothing unusual experienced this time.
Once again listened to chinnamasta mantra.
Recently I’ve come to hold a lot tension in my face, right eye especially.
Meditating helps it relax though.
Log 7:
40 mins or so of meditation.
Listened to Kali, and Chinnamasta mantra jaap[s] on Spotify.
At one point I saw in my minds eye a figure that looked like a tim Burton depiction of Vegeta, that was half live and half dead or skeletal. Followed by a dark triangle with a yellow eye in it that then became a candle or round object inside a triangular frame.
Not sure if there was a communication, or just mind contents creating something.
I did feel like this was a hint at evocation.
Log 8:
Nothing fancy.
Meditated to rudra mantra, then something else.
35 mins or so.
Log 9:
October 5 We’d '22
30 mins meditation.
Kali mantra, followed by chinnamasta through earphones.
Kept nodding off. Feeling relaxed now, but I’m aware that I’ve got some fatigue.
Recently, I read about a practice (related to chinnamasta) where you focus on the back of the head, and this apparently will generate a sense or feeling of “headlessness”. I tried to focus on the back of my head amisst distracting thought and trying to follow the mantras.
Log 132
19.01.2023.
10 min AY EEM MA TA AH
05 min HEH EE LAH AH EE EH
10 min EH TA LA VEE DEH LUM
Start doing meditation
By breathing and observing the breathing.
Lot of destructive thoughts but overall progressive.
Good feeling.
Log 133
20.01.2023.
10 min AY EEM MA TA AH
05 min HEH EE LAH AH EE EH
10 min EH TA LA VEE DEH LUM
Done today
Meditation
Progess has gone 1 percent up.
One percent a say improvement for long term
Log 134
21.01.2023.
10 min AY EEM MA TA AH
05 min HEH EE LAH AH EE EH
10 min EH TA LA VEE DEH LUM
Todays breathing meditation
Is hard
Out of focus all the time so
I decided to take
Help
Of entities for going in deep meditation.
Let’s see how will they help me.
Like i invited them for helping me in this journey of finding the inner self
Log 135
22.01.2023.
10 min AY EEM MA TA AH
05 min HEH EE LAH AH EE EH
10 min EH TA LA VEE DEH LUM
Today i done meditation and i feel more ease to do.
Thank you goddess.
Timing is 1 hour.
I felt i need to increase the timing of meditation if I want to succeed in dhyan/meditation
And thanks again spirits.
Log 136
23.01.2023.
10 min AY EEM MA TA AH
05 min HEH EE LAH AH EE EH
10 min EH TA LA VEE DEH LUM