Did you ever?
I have slowly realized that I was not scared of others, but what I am capable of. I was indoctrinated at a young age and feared retribution for the smallest of mistakes until recently. Over time things fell away and I am left feeling every emotion I wasn’t able to feel for most of my life. Throughout the past few years I felt this person peaking out from underneath, showing themselves more and more. I was afraid of what she would do and what she is capable of. She’s come out once or twice over the years. She almost killed someone. I tried to keep her under wraps but now I am happy she’s here. I used to feel so much. Now, I don’t feel anything except maybe anger. I guess the best way to describe it would be like The Joker.